my secret...

last night was an emotional night for all of us.

studied for my Quran, Sunnah and Built Environment (QSBE) mid term exam and im glad its over. it was hard though. *still smiling* & going to my aunt's place afterwards. just to go meet everyone for my niece and nephew's cukur jambul.

we talked things through last night. me and friends. we came into conclusion we want to be happy and not dummies. i guess i do need friends after all. i love and care for them. we've been hurt, we've experience the coolness of love, we are dazzed by it and we've tried most of the things under the sun and moon. and still wanting more....

to those trying to figure out what this post is all about. i advise you to stop wondering and start searching what you want in life. i have my goals now. set afirm in my heart. and i know im going to make it into a reality. just wait and see and wishh me luck.

"where ever you may go, you'll meet your soulmate..." [from : goddess of light]

p/s: i love you....

Lots of Love,
Sambal Belacan Lover

i admire....SMILE

today is a fun day. despite knwoing i have mid-term exam tomorrow. (he said : esok u ada spahic's day? hah!) im happy today. i like today. and i admire the sun that shines on me today. life is so "on my side" today. if one day i would think back, i guess i know something came true today. he talks, he speaks and he acknowledged. finally. i guess what else better would a girl ask for? just for that person to notice.

when i recall last night's conversation with my dad....i cant help wonder since when did my dad see me as a grown lady? he changed from the protective father (still is la...) to a friend you can talk to. he forbid love in my life a year ago. but last night he asked me to make my obsession true (my bestfriend said so too...). he said, "what u feel is classical signs of falling in love with him..." he also said just dont let it interfere with my work. im ok with it. and im happy my dad likes the person i like. goodness gracious.

im being unfair...but its pure satisfaction. im going to recline from it sooner or later. and what if i want this to become a reality? where shall i put my past? im ok...dont worry. still sane. but obsess.

"dear god,

if im meant for another round....make this a blast. and make it one of the coolest moment of my life. as ive lack in that part. thank you for giving me life. thank you for making me happy. and thank you for doing this to me. i love you...."

Lots of love,
Nina

check out this...

5 tips for a Woman...

1. It is important that a man helps you around the house and has a job.

[true...]

2. It is important that a man makes you laugh.

[absolute importance...]

3. It is important to find a man you can count on and doesn't lie to you.

[liars are never suppose to be in the dictionary of our lives...]

4. It is important that a man loves you and spoils you.

[pampering is always good...]

5. It is important that these four men don't know each other.

[ha ha ha...this is most important. wont want them to know....*gRin*]

p/s: so...apa lagi...go find this 4 perfect guys....so we dont have to get depressed over a guy anymore aight? i wish you the best of luck!!

Love,

Nina Liyana

life goes around

once upon a lifetime i use to say everything will end up ok. i know it does. i know it will. but when it comes to special moments that u need a break from positive solutions or things that doesnt have solutions....i guess thats when problems comes. u just cant live through what we call LIFE. thats when people start backbiting, killing themselves, and threaten to have suicide notes.

ive come across my friend's blog, and she said she loves all kind of fairy tale that we know doesnt exist. but believing is making it into a reality. i believe in all that. i love what u love Aqiss. maybe we are sadist but that doesnt mean we are uncool kan? lets make a vow, we are to be cooler. ahahah and to remain as gorgeous as now. ahahhaha

life for me goes around. bad or good. its still cool. i guess thats the fun in it. im trying to focus making my layout a bomb. and i better get back to it. i like....layout here i come. love!

Love,
Sambal Belacan Lover

orlando bloom

im trying to figure out who is the hottest of the hots. guys la i mean. well, actually i have decided. and only one name rings in my head now. dearest orlando bloom. he is so hot and that smile is so captivating. ok, some of my friends wont agree to this. as a friend of mine likes adam brody, then there's keanu reeves and the phantom planet lead singer. so yeah...i actually am expressing what i think. i think orlando is perfect. if i find someone like him near me. ill be sure to grab him. unless he is owned by someone else that is. i likeee....

dearest orlando bloom, i love you.....i wish to meet you some day.

Love,
Nina Liyana

sunday morning...

good morning my fellow mates. its been weeks since i last updated my blog. i guess, time is quite limited for us Urban Planning students due to massive workloads. anyhow, just a quick recap of what ive been doing the whole week.

monday - had my design crit session. it was approved! yeay! but lotsa things to re-do la.

tuesday - had to prepare for principles of urp assignment.

wednesday - havent slept yet and submission of principles here!

as for thursday - i was moody and down. i helped the planmic committees to prepare for the seniors' graduation dinner and had to rush to finish up bm essay writing and my car got into an accident. kesian cookie. thank god nothing serious.

friday- the actual dinner. skipped studio that morning and my lecturer got so emo cause we cant be bothered with class. shit. things went smoothly. and the funny part is, i wasnt moody at all.

saturday - cut my hair really short. and i like it. i feel so free!!!

sunday - currently working on my landscape assignment.

to those who are lazying around at home...keep it rocking! i envy you. and may God bless everyone. love! peace!

Sambal Belacam Lover

Another Valentines in My Eye

remembrance of the day in the past when i was a little girl...one song rings in my head. the "que sera sera" song. "what ever will be will be" this is what some people may say. but i know thats the least i want to happen. topic- valentines day. indication of? obviously LOVE. what do people know about love? im writing this post and i know not many people will read. just the urge of expressing is there. often my mates will say, ure beautiful as you are and no need to worry about having people loving you. i know that for a fact that sometimes i think im beautiful. but thats not the whole point. i dont need assurance. but just merely need some excitement i guess...have yet to feel that in years.

anyway, valentines day this year is the same as any other year. spending it alone. its not a sad thing and i dont need pity. LOVE here still remains. even with or without a partner. its a day for giving love to EVEN your friends & family. i have both around me for now. im happy. full stop. if people are to always judge this day as only for lovers. they are demolishing the value of love. u dont live with only your partner. u dont devote yourself entirely to them. i know i dont. and guys always see that as my strength and something that holds them back to come near me. i guess some guys just want a girl that could be their display doll. some trophy. or someone they can overpower. im not like that at all. maybe born with a conservative dad and a modern thinking mom,i grow up into a balance child that knows how to stand up for myself. if ure searching for a girl that would just say YES to your every say, uve come to the entire wrong page. im an ordinary girl with dreams. i talk for myself. and have the mind of my own. im not rebellious. but i want things to be equal. i guess that fair aint it?

talking again on the subject valentines. a friend sent me this msg of LOVE. its says, "love is not only made for lovers; its also for friends who trust each other better than lovers. HAPPY VALENTINES DAY!" so have u got that kind of friend? if u do, i presume that your valentines is complete. dont go thinking your valentines sucks just because you dont have a partner. love is subjective. its given to everyone with the kind heart. arrogance will destroy this. u have the heart to love? love people around you. someone special will come eventually. no need to search. naturally it flows like water. if it gets stuck at the rock cause by any obstructing cause. then mayb he/she is yours. its called fate. just have faith. we will flow thru. respect yourself before embarking into this journey. if you dont. ull sail into the doomed.

take care you people....and have a VERY HAPPY VALENTINES!! i love you....

Lots of Love,
Sambal Belacan Lover

a day in my shoe...

my shoe stinks. ahahahha NOT. its just some amusing facts i do to myself when im bored. today out of all the day i feel so crammed and tired and bored. had lectures from the lecturer on various topics. this seldom happens in the studio. cause u see, studio is a place of fun. where u minggle with the rest of your mates and completing your work. i like the atmosphere of that but not today. after the holidays, the studio seems dull in a way. it wasn't as cold as i remembered. maybe the day was too hot. or maybe its just me feeling weird. i dunno. its my inner thoughts that is playing with me again today. hello "thinkabelly!" thats another nick for my thoughts. HA HA HA HA HA.

got a msg from wandy this morning indicating he did well in the interview. what else does a girlfriend need right? is to have her boyfriend get what he wants. im proud of him. and i bet his parents are too. they should be. he's all good. still good. he told some good news also. he may send in money for my ticket to NZ. so cool kan? i wish im having holidays now. i know ill immediately go. well, thats me! over excited bout stuff at the beginning. ahh...enough of that!

guess...there's nothing else to complain...i just need to finish up my 2 assignments for the moment. QSBE and my design concept. i hope ill succeed. i know i will. cause im the SUPERSTAR! ahahahha...toodle loo everyone. *hUgS*

p/s: that was short for a day in my life. ehe ill update tonight! if la..

Love,
Nina

i wonder.....

at the very last moment u always wonder what it would be like if u had done something differently. i always do. im in the central of emotions now. i preach about love and how to handle it in a proper way but i dont act as what i preach. I guess being a preacher aint that easy huh? yesterday was a mark of victory... manage to persuade something to do something. but dont ask me what's the something. im never telling. relationships for me are going strong. love each other so much. yet lotsa hassle bassle along the way.

what i wish? something good in return for what ever sacrfices ive met. rollercoaster going round and round and i feel dizzy. but yet im alright. things are mounting up. piling every day per inch. im drowning in my own thoughts. i know this post sounds depressing. but i know also that im not depress nor unhappy. im just being normal. trying hard to express in a way that my thoughts doesnt hurt myself nor others. i love life. i thought its sucky. but for real, its full of miracle and magnificent things that has yet to be explored. see the sun, we only use the effect of light and heat..but the particles? its beyond reach. the moon shines so brightly every mid-month and lovers intwinned themselves towards it. a mark of love n embrace. how i wish my days are full of that. but im happy as it is. i dont need changes if it isnt for the best. i just need love. its spelled easily but to obtain n cherish it will be one mighty job. i guess i have never appreciate love. not in my life before or now. i take things for granted. but im happy.

so who's selfish? i am. no other people can match that up. i keep loosing..but i gain. that is what makes me confident everything can be earn over and over again. i guess i just realise my mistake when its actually gone. when the love never shines anymore, when the sweet melody dreads the song, when the birds stop chirping to the sun, and when the moon seems so dim for the first time. Have u ever felt that way? i know i did. i know i got depress over it. i know i cried. but one thing i do not know...will i change for that matter?? people often say they will. but do they actually do it?

life's so short to wonder and look at the past and regret everything uve done. what we really need to do is grab chances and do our best. walking on a field of corn, u should pick the best corn u see and u can never turn back. so the similarities to life is..once uve missed that special chance of getting the best as u always delay daily the encounter of grabbing it at that precise moment, once uve realised it. its gone. and no way we can turn back and say to life, i just wish i could have gotten a second chance to do it all over again. real life doesnt work that way. thats why humans are full of regrets. live your life to the fullest. and always see your glass half full.

let people love u, care for u, cherish u but never take them for granted or not be appreciative. remember, the cycle of life goes around and may not come back to the very beginning. we may die in the duration, we may have another cycle. we never know. so appreciate people around you. as i am trying my best to....

Lots of love,
Nina

human vs. animal

animals can be classified into 2. wild and tame. well, obviously tame animals are most preferrable. but i like wild. like the tigers in the jungle? those are way much cooler. i love tigers. full stop. eehehhe. no pedigree name there. thanks to sarah. well, basically what i wanna say per indications with the topic, i can say that sometimes human can act like babies but far more worst like animals. dont use their head to think. im frustrated. yes. but that doesnt mean im not rational. so to tell you the truth, i hate these type of people. act as such nothing in this world matters more then their personal wants. shit. think la. dont hurt other people just for the fun of it. rationalize. cause thats the best policy. anyway, i was saying again. i love to have a pet at home. not cats but dogs this time. that cute little puppy in the window. so brown so cute. and to tell you the truth ive been wanting it since high school. or more to say since kindi. eheheheh so, conclusion here is...human vs animals? theirs no win-win situation. its either u care for the animal...u be an animal....u act as human....or u nurture both values. i pick last. brain is a beautiful thing god created for us. nurture n protect it from harm! i love....

Lots of Love,
Nina

Awal Muharam

Tonight is the beginning of the month "Awal Muharam". A marking day of the end of the Hijrah year in the Muslim Calender. I hope my fellow muslim bros and sisters did their prayers and recite the doa of year end and beginning of the year. I hope this brand new year will change me. Not as a whole completely but bit by bit to make me a better person. As well as bring you benefits as a whole. And i end this post with a doa i got through sms earlier this evening.

"Ya Allah! grant us kindness & iman; Ya Kareem! give us Patience & Love; Ya Rahim save us from Jahannam & reward us with Your Jannah! Amin! Happy New Year 1427H"

Assalamualaikum W.B.T

Lots of Love,

Nina

Kejahilan Kita

selain daripada shark fin sup. saya makan abalone dan sayur-sayuran. makan malam hari ini sedap seperti malam kelmarin. hari ini saya rasa ingin untuk berbicara dalam bahasa melayu. telah menukarkan blog skin saya kepada ya lebih sofistikated. cantik kan? betul ke ejaan itu? BM kerjaya telah menampakkan belang nya. Saya telah mula meminati B.M. apakah itu B.M? BM atau nama panjangnya Bahasa Melayu merupakan bahasa kebangsaan Malaysia. Tetapi tidak tahu mengapa, kita lebih mengutamakan bahasa inggeris sebagai bahasa perantaraan lebih-lebih lagi dengan pertukaran sistem bahasa komunikasi di institusi-institusi pengajian tinggi. Adakah B.M tidak boleh berkembang maju? atau sekadar di ketepikan? Setelah menonton rancangan televisyen "Songket bersama SKii" di kaca tv kelmarin, saya mendapati penggiat seni melayu adalah drpd golongan Peranakan bukannya Melayu secara lahir. Kenapa jadinya begini? Tidakkah Melayu mampu untuk menjadi penggiat seni warisan kita sendiri? atau kita begitu jahil akan nya? Melihat urat-urat benang yang menghasilkan sebuah songket yang bernilai membuatkan diriku terharu akan kelembutan dan ketelitian kraftangan kita ini. Sampai bilakah Melayu harus lupa diri dan memberi jalan kepada bangsa lain untuk menjadi perintis seni warisan masa hadapan?

Ditulis oleh,
Amanina.....

p/s: well, this is only a thing i felt like writing. No offence to any race. Its just something i feel should be written. Sorry to those who i left hanging n ive offended this far. Take care now. *BIG LOVE*

goodbyeee....

have u heard the song - goodbye my lover sang by james blunt? that inspires me for this one...

its been awhile now that this has been going...i nearly lost love because of this. and i nearly gave myself because of this. way back in history it was different. things were blunt. things were happy. things were shadowy. things were sad. but anything measured to this is crap. i know you people wont understand. but only the love i nearly lost would know why im writing this. thought it was for real. i got into a confusion over this. but after tonight, its clear. dilemma, no dilemma. everything is crystal clear. emo nina no more. but fine rejuvenating nina. so here's my last goodbye, to a friend, to a lover once, to a dreamer, to someone whom i cared up till the very last drop, and to the bestest n worst thing that happened to me in those days. predict this, ure a magician. predict it not ure normal.

to the people i cherish, love and owe a lot : have a peaceful life ahead. changes in the lunar calendar n in the moon makes everything worthwhile. Islamic calender coming to an end. Celebrate it and cherish the very moment so we can pray to God for a second chance. Amin...

Lots of love,
Nina

something to shareeee....enjoy!!

Your Seduction Style: Fantasy Lover

You know that ideal love that each of us dreams of from childhood? That's you!Not because you posess all of the ideal characteristics, but because you are a savvy shape shifter.You have the uncanny ability to detect someone's particular fantasy... and make it you.

You inspire each person to be an idealist and passionate, and you make each moment memorableEven a simple coffee date with you can be the most romantic moment of someone's lifeBy giving your date exactly what he or she desires, you quickly become the ideal lover.

Your abilities to make dreams come true is so strong, that you are often the love of many people's lives.Your ex's (and even people you have simply met or been friends with) long to be yours.No doubt you are the one others have dreamed of... your biggest challenge is finding *your* dream lover.

world around me

hello again!!!!!!!!!!!~~~~

nothing to report back today. i just wanna say to everyone that i feel ancient after going to our national library today (with daydeck as usual). the place for lepaking way back in the early 2000. where ppl meet ppl and not forgetting dating...hah! i use to like going there as a teen. i mean im not that old la. just 20 but ive grown so mature that i couldnt recognise myself sometimes. instead of cuci-mata-ing like i use to back then, i was there to do a real research for my assignment. thats why i feel so lame, boring n ancient. i saw all these school kids sitting at the library with their form 3, form 4 and spm books. and i look at mine. SHIT! urban planning? town planning? laws? street design? im oldddddd...i hate the big 2-0. and i hate my campus. hate my lecturers for giving too much work to do. and most important is. i hate my life without wandy. ala syg....come back k? mwahs. i love you. ok before i get all mushi and i bet no one needs to know or read the jiwangness i have. ill let it be like that. im gonna enjoy my chat with people i love now and the rest of you...get a life! stop reading my foolishness blog. love ya! *HuGs*

Lots of Love,
Nina

what happened?

ok..i know its been a long time since i updated this little black book of mine. i love myself now. just a note. ehehhe

just a little update on what happened while i was gone form writing. its not in a correct order. im writing as and when i remember things. ok? so here goes....

my car got hit. lost my side mirror. sian cookie.wandy went back today n i cired. got a diamond dust ring from wandy before he left n i cried again.im emotional.u must know that by now.did a suprise party for my syg. it wasnt succesful but its still good.went clubbing that night too. came back at 6. my leg was hurting a week ago.limping and i feel so handicapped.thansk to friends i survived.had an incredible time doing projects with my legolas look alike. was tired the whole of last week cause of massive assignment due dates. and this list goes on...maybe ill update later?

im in a state of wreckness. my eyes are swollen n puffy after the cry. 2days in a row. and i have flu. hate it. now im going to be happy. typing all those history is very sad cause everything relates to one person. and that person is YOU. syg u so much...mwahs.

p/s: im leavingggggggggggggggg.....mwahs

Lots of Love,
Nina

im very sick

wounded...sick...all the bad feeling...i am enduring. how can i be sick at the very last moment. yummy choc cake to bake. graphic scrap to do. and tons of assignment to finish. damn im tired and all worn out. i need a break. mayb head for the beach and indulge myself with the heat n sand? or maybe what i need is a break to a spa. but im feeling great bout something else. i hope everything goes out right for me later.....btw, somebody is getting old. ole ole ole....

Love,
Nina

recoveringgg...

i bet my friends will scream when i announce this. but seriously, i dont give a damn. im sure anyone deserves a second chance. so today was my 2nd anniversary with wandy. dont get me wrong, its not 2months but a serious long winded 2years relationship it has been. i broke up with him this morning. after considering a lot of things. but suddenly change my mind after our anniversary dinner. i guess when ure in love no other thing in this world matters. people face hardship now and than. so here i am, trying to endure and accept his mistake. maybe one day he'll do the same to me. i love you syg.....happy 2nd anniversary and many more to come. INSYAALLAH. we have open a fresh chapter in our live for starters. hopefully nothing messy will come our way that we couldnt solve. if this thing happens again next time. im sure to hold tightly to my guns. so, to my lovely friends, i guess thats done huh? thanks for all your support and kind loving care. i love u with all my heart. wouldnt succeed if it wasnt for you girls. BIG HUG!

p/s: today is recovering...2moro is a blast for the future.

good night.

Love,
Nina

cookie

i finally decided to call my car cookie. its not because i think my car is delicious in any way. but i have always wanted to name one of my valuable thing cookie cause it's cute. thought of giving that nick to my future anak but i changed my mind. mayb ill come with a better on along the way. so for now on...my car is named - COOKIE. plus its all white now. u can say it has lotsa cream on it. ahahahha. so here i am naming my car cookie. hope it doesnt offend anyone. cause i likeeee....

good night everyone...hugs

Lots of Love,
Nina

my guitarist

[CELEBRATION]
hello! sitting at my usual spot again. new year was fab! went to OU street party for the countdown and it felt like a reunion as i saw my other 2 cuzz (dewi n kak marinie) celebrating there also. the rest of the gang was down at Cynna in KL. Wanted to meet up with them but then stupid things came up. but even so...i still enjoyed the very last bit. HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!! mwahs. hugs.

Hit for peterpan concert the next day 010106. that was another fab! despite the stupid things i had to go thru within the 2 days. -arrival- it was raining heavily when me and wandy arrived at the stadium. the "tanah" was so muddy. my shoe was ruined. but its worth it after seeing them perform. ahhh ariel is so damn hot. those six packs are incredible. uki is someone u would fall for too. aiya. so cheeky la me. ehehhe but its fun!

[AFTER PARTY....HEH!!!]
last night, sue played her guitar and sang for us (ppl who wanted to hear). im stuck to this one padi song..yea thanks to her. couldnt remember the name of the song but it is stuck in my head now. and did i tell you "she's fantastic?" she is..she is...i wanna learn toooo.... thumbs up for my dearest guitarist. she's so cool la. i bet if i was a guy i would feel threaten by her.boleh tackle any girl siot.mayb she was born for the stage. "another song is ringing in my head...." ok ok...no more compliments. later makin besar bontot sue. ehehhe i know she will love that to happen. eyh sue?

[TODAY]
when to class with sue cause my car is with wandy. tired of walking la. dont likeee... i miss my car already. talked to appa after class asking if he landed safely or not. he did. thank god. going to search for cheap fares later on. see la kan. nak balik kuching la!!! i feel slimmer now. suddenly jak! apa jak la. afterwards is our tourism meeting with the whole studio. i know it will be chaotic. trust me. lotsa em will never agree. better keep our fingers cross. my class too much dilemma la. later tonight will be going to mambo jambo kot...see if nong is up to it or not. mayb can get in free? ehehehe im lovin' it. ok la....

[END OF CHAPTER]
it became a long blog suddenly. so im bored. can i like stop now? ahahha...bye ppl. dont bother bout this crazy person. take care and have a nice life!

Lots of Love,
Nina

Feeeeeeling Numb

numbness is something u feel when you dont even care anymore what the situation will be. right or wrong? its halfway there. no one cares. im numb now. i dont feel a thing. only cold. alone. afraid. and despair. negative vibes are coming to me. why? imust be too tired to think. i love the endurance of projects but to finish it......you answer.

im sick now..tired to top it up and im still searching. thanks to those who made my life easier. toodles!

Love,
Nina

opps LUPAK...

hey....just wanted to say this....

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!! MAKE YOUR RESOLTUIONS RIGHT THIS TIME U GUYS.


Love,
Nina

Jom Makan?

im currently sitting in the kaed lab now after printing my landscape planning assignment.and online now. i was sleepy in QSB this morning due to lack of sleep and i slept thru break. and im hungry and wanna eat. please help me. i need to eat. i want to go to the cafe now and indulge myself in those helathy food that keeps me trim n firm. ahahhahaha. ok...i nak gi makan. hungry seh!!!!! take care everyone.

p/s: i hope sarah wants to accompany me. *gRin*

Lots of love,
Nina

Say What?!

Merry Xmas everyone!!

im happy, im feeling useful and handful. should have gotten that PDA phone. but nooooooooooo wanted to be a jewel in front of my mom and said its ok ma. ill pass. "lagikpun phone kmk gik bagus bah..." how corny can i get...but everything's good. going shopping AGAIN tomorrow. more shoes and more tops i suppose? owh ya, one thing i wanna share. i lost another 2kgs today. i mean i check weekly. so i lost again. in total 9.4kgs. isnt that cool? i feel so healthy now. very.

what else is there to blog? more workloads every week. and tension arises. nothing to complain or feel proud of. copping well. i love my course for the time-being. and can't wait for wandy to come back. i love the familiar smell of him especially after he sleeps on my bed. that smell makes me wanna smile. i loveeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee....

oh ya, bout the dillema. im over it. thanks to ida. i realise something. how stupid of me. but im happier and losing weight. so i can say im getting gorgeous? ahahhaha okla...toodles n nite nite everyone. huggies!!

Lots of Love,
Nina

continuation....

oh right...this is a happier version. (instruction:read the first one first b4 proceeding)

*scroll down...


i like the way i know it. it makes my heart grows rapidly big. and makes me feel beautiful but as i said it embarassing. ha ha ha ha.

actually i just wanted to write, i spill water on my baju kurung this morning while accompaning syaza n radhi for breakfast at HS cafe. thank god it was just water. if not ill cry. and now everything is good. class starts soon. so ill be off in a jippy!!

to everyone out there who knows this dilemma of mine. fingers-cross and shut the hell out of your mouth. i want it to happen but not this way. i love all of you. hugs. mwahs

Lots of Love again,
Nina

Gateway....

had sleepness nights last night and the night before. struggled to sleep as usual at night eventho how tired i am. read the QSB book to make me fall asleep. it did work for awhile but i guess my brain just didnt want to register that i need sleep afterwards. had dreams about lotsa stuff. all this legolas thingy is sipping into my head like no body's business. how weird is it that someone u like, may like u back. especially when it considers 2 years crush. i hate those people who like to play ppl-matching. i hate em i hate em i hate em. the least i need now is for someone to mismatch me and with that particular person. its so embarassing. so yeah, talking about my weirdest dream. i dream bout this person for days now, since i learn the truth. i know some would say im "perasan" but actually i dont like the feeling at all. i hate not being able to be myself around him anymore and hate for not being able to joke around him like i use to. or in a shorter version, being myself. its depressing. the ambience in the studio is growing tense for me when ever he is around. i don't deny i like to know what i know. but i guess some girls just cant cope with the truth especially for someone like me. i may seem robust, inconsiderate with my words, outspoken, happy, occasionally crazy (ermm..?), and etc but.....some things i would appreciate people to lay low. cause i am indeed embarass now. i dont keep secrets. but if this means ill loose my face to someone or loose my freedom of acting n speech. ill lay low from now. no more telling secrets to ppl. let me be the one listening to ppl for a change. ill turn the table around for awhile. till i gain my strength back. im tired, im sick and i have headache. ill push it away now before i grow nuts. now i understand why sue n kuhaz are secretive. i like that way more now. ill have to ask them for advice and learn how to be discreet. toodles for now. off to class in awhile. hugs everybody. i love....

p/s: to wandy, if ure reading this dont be sad. im expressing. no confirmation. i love u.

Lots of love,
Nina

memories

"I have great hopes that we shall love each other all our lives as much as if we had never married at all."

-Lord Bryon

i wonder what this quote indicates for my future life. still wondering and will never stop. do i stay to dwell or i leave and never turn back? clock is ticking hard and yet i couldnt solve it.........

Second Week of Lecture

Ok ill start off with ALOHA! Yesterday was a public holiday for the whole Selangor due to the Sultan's Birthday. Because of that, me and my immediate family went for a road trip to kuantan and terengganu during the weekend. It was fun despite the moments i have to go to the toilet every hour because of my over-flowing period. Well, talking bout bad timing to go travelling. So i would like to advise anyone with the same problem like mine to walk around as much as u can before entering the car. Cause the more u sit the more painful n over-flowing it is. Ok, enough of those gross detail. I came back around 730 last night and just started my assignment. I was lucky to be able to finish it at 5am this morning.Thanks to syeeq that accompanied me all night so i can stay awake. If not ill surely cry with deep shit. Yesterday also wandy called saying he's heading for Brunei and maybe will be in sabah for a few days after.Im happy for him as i bet he is enjoying every bit of his holiday. Will be seeing him again for new year. that wont be long. but ive already missed him so much. i guess ill just have to be patient. Anyhow, classes starts full blast today. Met Dr Spahic Omer, my Quran, Sunnah n built environment lecturer. He is adorable. I don't understand why people say his class is boring. I like his lecture. makes all the sense in the world. so i can say i like him la. cool kan? i finally have a foreigner as my lecturer.

Ermm what else to write? i dunno la, the ironic of all situation is i talked to hafiz, wandy's nephew aka my old friend in MRSM yesterday. It felt so weird knowing that i have a crush on him long before i know wandy. And now im having a relationship with his uncle (sounds so old la the word...but same age la)? so weird. even talked to isz, my classmate in MRSM and also a relative of wandy's. what a small world after all.

to wandy : if u come across this post, i just wanna say i miss you and i love you. hope ure having the time of your life and do take care. simpan your passport properly.dont want it to go missing again do we? send my regards to everyone and keep on missing me ok? i love you so very much. mwahs mwahs mwahs *hugS*

to everyone else...this is the end. im ending this so i can go to the cafe to meet my friends. they are having lunch now. so till later. toodles!!

Lots of Love,
Nina

Represent, represent Cuba!

ok, im currently listening to the songs from dirty dancing ost. nothing much to report this time of the month. its december and i dunno what to write. spent time with wandy and family mostly. my parents finally met wandy and didnt complain much. mayb his charm? i also dunno. no comments. other than that, nothing interesting happened. what ever me and wandy do on our first real date is for us to keep as memories. i didnt imagine i could do that EVER! but it did happen. dont get me wrong. nothing disgusting happened. just a stroll and fun-ish (if there's such a word) doings. to sum it up, it went well till he had the stomach cramp attack again. but he's ok now.

2moro ill be going back to campus and here starts the hectic life of mine. results was ok, but could've done better. will be seeing my friends again. Miss them la actually. plus my whole family is going for our yearly trip and im left out. as usual, duty calls. sad aint it?? oh ya before i forget, today my 2 close cuzz nong n zuki went to this explore race thingy. cross-fingers and hopefully they go thru it? its the second round anyways. so mayb we could catch them on tv.

dah la, im board of writing. ill keep my pencil down now. bye everybody. *hugs*

Love,
Nina

JUMPY

well, im just counting the hours to finally pick wandy up from the airport. He's coming today!!! and i dunno if i should feel excited or sad or happy or anything. i feel numb now. i dont want to feel so comfortable with him as i know ill be sad when he has to go. damnit! im so emo. but ill be happy for awhile now. Wish me Luck!! *hUgS*

Nina

Gedong Trip

hello again people of the world! (hah..it sounds like im a president or anything...funny larr!!)

anyways, yesterday, sunday 20th Nov 2005. I finally went back to Gedong after a long time (last time i remembered visiting was, at the age of 9 or 10), "Kampung Keluargaku" that is situated 50km from Kuching City. It was one hilarious journey. There were in total 24 of us and i must say, i cherish every moment we spend with each other. From the delay-daly of what time we should start going, the overtaking each others cars session on the road, funny noises made by our(me and my immediate family) borrowed car (thank god we went and came back in one piece), and also when we arrive Gedong before 12 and finally sat down to eat. We were served sup tulang, kari daging, pucuk pisang (i think!), sambal goreng perut, sayur midin (one kind of paku pakis only found in our region) and white rice. The beef is so tasty and tender because it is freshly slaughtered the night before. I must say its a kind of luxury for the Kampung people to have this kind of food. But the best part of all is, we get sup tulang one big bowl each. You will never get this anywhere else in the world. Seeing their faces(with the "wondering face" per what we are thinking) when we arrived and when we seem to enjoy the food they provided, gives them a sense of relief. I am sure in their little minds they are just waiting for a any of us to complain bout the food or anything else. But till the end, we genuinely felt comfortable and happy. I know i have. Kampung area brings back nostalgic feelings to me.

"I was flipping through the old pictures they brought out after makan, seeing the faces of my young grand-dad and grand-ma, and my older aunties and uncles posing beside their old car, make me feel all sappy AGAIN!? Sometimes i wish i could have that moment alone with my grand-ma, just to say i appreciate her and truly love her. I know she knows i love her dearly but everything i feel now would be different if she was here. All conflicts will be settled without even going far. I like that aura she posesses and taking control of other people's action. Cause in the end i know what she did is for the very best. I miss her...Al-Fatihah to my late Grand-Ma...I love you nek mak!"

On our way home, the car we borrowed made funny noises again. I seriously felt like i was in an airplane cause it sounds like one. So loud. And even as the speedometer goes up till 4ooo but the km/h only goes up only till 70. How funny can that be? And with my dad pretending to be a speedracer, i guess this is a perfect example of a malay phrase,"mimpi tinggal mimpi." Even if we have driven further enough than the rest of the family, they could still catch-up with us. This is what we will encounter when driving an old car! But i love it in many other odd ways. I like the comfy cushion seats and the endless bumpiness feeling i get whenever it goes on rocky roads. So its just another fun experience travelling in an old car towards our kampung. Maybe i would do it again someday. So much energy taken for it. For laughs, jumping, walking on wooden planks and etc. So to sum it up, it was a hell of fun! im glad to be born a Sarawakian.

*My Sarawakk...*

Cheers,
Nina

Oh Blimey!

Dearest readers,

today was a whole remarkable day than any other day. Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire came out in cinemas today. I havent seen anything like it. Never expect just another expecto patronum spell. But the whole movie was just so incredible to even be describe. need to see for yourself. so magical. from the merpeople, the tournament, to the last bit of each character. I simply love it to the max. i was actually keeping my fingers cross for the movie. i thought it would be a dissapointment like the third movie but it never did occur to me even once as a failing movie. i love and enjoy every bit of the screening. Victor Krum is totally hot! Even if the book describes other wise. And my sit in the cinema is also the best ever! This whole journey into the movie is so tiring because i was so involve with it. It makes me feel im part of the character myself. Wondering what other obstacles will i face afterwards. I came back home tonight with a joyous feeling. And i did watch the first show today! Im a happy lady. Spoiling everyone's mood by giving out the detail ofthe movie is unfair to those who havent watched it yet. But i must advice you to watch it. Cause im about to embark into the land of fantasy n magic again tomorrow. So if im watching for the second time...you can imagine how good it is...im mesmerized with everything. Even the goblet is so pretty. Blue fire....how inspiring.

Till later...ill give this a rest first and dream all the magical things. May all of us be happy in this fantasy world! Accio bed!

Love,
Nina

Writer Rave

well hello again everybody.

honestly, i havent decided what to write in this post but i just want to state out that i would love to speak the elves' language. so mysterious yet with a very humble-like sound to add on. anyway, this fantasy yet again, came to me while i was watching Lord of The Rings for the zillion time already just now. I have forgotten how incredibly handsome Legolas may seem. Ive totally forgotten that ive once was so smitten over him. well actually its just trying to forget something for old time sake. but now the movie has helped me recall back sweet memories. damn everyone should see me everytime i see this face. i go all excited. well who doesnt if in front of me is someone so dashing, adorable and most important GORGEOUS! ok enuff, smitten aint smitten, i just have to put an end to my endless fantasy. i know i would never get a guy like him. even in a million years. but i have to admit i do have a studio mate that looks just like him. my god. first impression of him was, "GOD! i found my true soulmate.." but after knowing him, he is even better! ahahhaha (i bet everyone tot i would say his bad...ermmm) but thats just another fantasy ey? this couldnt be possible cause we're just friends. its fun that way! as this will prevent myself to end up being the super jealous girlfriend if i ever hook up with him. so pathetic. im fantasizing again! owh blimey! im going to stop. may i get a good night sleep tonight cause Harry Potter is coming out 2moro and im watching the first show!!! yeeehaaaaaaaaaaaa....congrats to luck! love 'em, eat 'em. Toodle doooo....

Love,
Nina @ Mrs Legolas (sh*t!)

ramblingsss

well, Virgil said "love conquers all"....from my "quote of the day" section la (from my blog? havent u notice?? iskk). what bullshit? i would want to rephrase it as money conquers all.... hah! im going to be nuts.

just like heaven is cool. i wanna be like reese whiterspoon. so glamourous, so smart, so cute, so everything la. but i want a different husband. can?

watched zorro today, weird zorro. i never recall it's cartoon or legend that he has a son and is married. or maybe im wrong?! but where did his companion aka bestfriend rider go? cant remember his name even. but his kid is cute thou. ehehhe.

bought books yesterday, cost me 120 for only 3 books. oink oink. but im loving it. damnit. i feel itch all over my body now. better mandi. i dont want to get sensitive skin all of the sudden. shit. to hell with it.

im outta here. chalo everybody. buenos tartes....

love,
Nina

Hari Raya at Syeeq's n today's

hello again.... second post on raya holidays.

yesterday after having dinner with my aunt, i rushed to syeeq's house for raya visiting. yeah, everything went well until the time we(me, daydeck n jule) were invited to play fire crackers [or wadeva it is called. (in malay its mercun la..)] with syeeq and his brothers. on the way out, walking on the garden pavement, something kinda embarassing happened. i fell. can i imagine that? in the garden? my baju kurung skirt was dirty. but thank god only one patch. so i was actually lucky enough to NOT dirty the whole skirt or NOT sprain my leg. cause that would seriously lead to bone fracture. well, sad to have fragile bones like mine right? owh well....

today, another session of dinner with my whole family. eating. eating. eating. what else is there more to do? im growing so fat now. i can feel my bone hurts. kesian my bone. damn it! anyway, whole point is to tell you guys, i went visiting yet AGAIN today. so some psycho person's house. i swear not to mingle with him again. so sial la. and embarassing. ishhh...cannot express in words. ill explode. so yea...till later la... i annoyed already. SHIT.

good bye!

cheers,
nina

My Hari Raya

Assalamualaikum Everyone....

finally puasa is over. raya just had to be the bomb. i have waited for raya since a monh ago. and its been a wild ride. i actually had fun arranging cakes, biscuits and the rest of the ornaments. i didnt even get tired with my big family that came this year. around 69 immediate family and the rest are family cousins n relatives. so cool. everyone was wearing the same colour tone. turqoise for the 1st day, lilac for 2nd day, rust for 3rd day. wow. we look fantastic. its so easy to differentiate our family members with other people. i love. i love.

talking about raya, i had my hair done for hari raya. i turn into rogue but with red tone. so yeah....i finally like my holiday. and having everyone compliment my hair was the bombarnesss...if there's such word la. this is another thing i love. cooolll la. cant stop talking bout it. even one of my cousin was pissed at the hairdresser that did my hair. she said when she wanted to do the hair i did, last time at the same hairdresser, the hairdresser said she didnt have the colour. so yeah...i was the lucky one la. its so rich!

people came like ants at my late grandparents house. more than a thousand came for the first day, 2000 over 2nd day and nearly a thousand for the 3rd day. who will not say raya was hectic? i mean it was busy but its the best! nothing can beat raya with family. i even made few new friends from unimas (zahie's classmates). pity them. they cant go back for raya because exam was due on monday (the following week). so brought them back to my place to feel the real raya. so, it when well. nothing could be done differently to make things better. to me it was perfect! the whole idea of having everyone down for raya is a wonderful success.

i love my family. even if wandy is not here with me to share this, deep down in my heart i know he had his great time over in japan too. so syg, once ure settled n thinking of coming back to finally feel this experience with me, i will be here greeting u with open arms ok? i love you! *mwahs*

to friends and family that made my raya meaningful. thank you very much. i simply love this togetherness we have since long before.

to check out my raya pictures please go to qu33n.multiply.com/photos

enjoy n have a nice holiday!

lots of love,
Nina

set me free

ok ok...dont think i need to be set free or anything due to unhappiness but this is just merely the title of a written graphic on my new t-shirt i bought from zara. so nice!!! its so vintage. i want more of this. serious. more and more. ill go to F.O.S tomorrow to get more tshirts. im just obssesed with it now. and yeah the combat pants in DP. and DKNY delicious perfume. casio newest funky digi cam, w800i and my shopping list is never-ending. so, now the crave of shopping is here.ehehe and i so like puasa cause my jeans all longgar due to flatten "a bit" stomach that i have now. despite everything, i can say im finally breathing 70% for real after monday's paper. just need to study for the last one and ill be free for the next whole month. how cool!!! im so looking forward to it. going back to kch, meet the same old people, taste similar food and most of all my loving family. i miss everyone. and all raya wishes i get all around makes me all sad and sappy. so yeah....just 4days to go for the final touch down in kch airport. ill kiss the airport floor, my house floor and all the walls. lie on my bed and never get out of it until break fast, watch movie from the big screen, go jalan jalan in kch and etc. wow i seriously miss home!!! cant wait cant wait. aiyer....ok ok im stopping now. bye!!! happy finishing puasa and happy coming eid everyone!! mwahs *hUgS*

p/s: if ure wondering how i did my exams, well i can say i did pretty well. but dunno how the markings will come by la. so keep praying for me! thanks!

lots of love,
Nina

world of today

i dont know actually what to write. but as everyone here are updating their blogs. i wont want to be left alone. so here's the crappiness of it la.

just finished bm exam to day and as a conclusion...it sucks!!!!

will be having geomatic on sunday. and monday is declared a public holiday but i dunno if uia will postpone our exam on monday. i guess not.

now all of them are asking me to watch "closer" with them. so im going to watch it now. buhbye journal.buhbye love. energy is falling out of the line. my love life is very quiet now. so im bored. thank god i have friends over tonight. after breaking fast n taman tun bazaar shopping. everything is quite alright. i guess i have not much to complain. so yeahhh...

take care earthlings. mwahs. toodle loo.

lots of love,
Nina @ Gorgeous Creature

Syaza's 19th Birthday Pictures

*birthday girl makes a wish*

*crazy sue with 3 horns*

*sue n me smudge cake*

*melted bday cake! sorry!*

*circle of friends*

Our Suprise event for her.......these are some of the pictures. Thanks to those who made it happened.

Syaza, thanks for being naive.happy birthday girl!

Sue, kuhaz, sarah, thanks for buying the stuff. nice cake! n preparations.

ida, thanks for the music. boogie!

Nuha, areque, mira, amy, eza n spastik gangs, u guys are simply party animals. thanks for making it alive.

to myself, im such a natural. dramaqueen. hah!

good night everyone n sorry for the late post.

enjoy!

Lots of love,

Bewitching Star

Quando, Quando, Quando

Love is Life.

If you miss love, you miss life.

i miss you cause ure my love.

being my love, i need you.

when i need you, i depend on you.

to miss you feels terrible.

but to love you is the greatful feeling.

thanks for being the one for me.

i miss you.

i love you.

and i want you.

sweet love of mine.

Sleepy Saturday

oh well....despite the sleepy saturday, here's what i have in mind.....

love quote of today is "happiness is like a kiss, you must share it to enjoy it.." what i can interprate is that, a kiss cant be done alone. you must have a partner to feel it. same goes for fun. fun alone aint fun at all. cant beat the fun u have when your friends and family are around. or mayb fun with enemies. its highly useable. for me, being alone is not fun. its lonely, and i feel like shit whenever this happens. especially with being far away from home. over the south china sea. to some people it could be near but for me, any distance involves extracting me from family is miserable enough. thank god i have friends. even if we do have some misunderstanding here and there. but we manage. having cool cousins are like jewel also. it makes everything less miserable. wandy, is someone that often gets sacarstic remarks from me. pitiful. sorry darling. but he makes everything worthwhile sometimes. perfecto. all this could be sum with one word. LOVE. without love in this world. i bet the entire human population would be sad all the time. and talking bout sad. its gonna be so fucking irritating to not feel the happiness or agony of love. so yeah you guys, appreciate it while u can feel it. and dont take anything for granted. its the least u can do.

Hope is a beautiful thing. having to hold to something beautiful is sane. hoping, wishing is what makes us excited to move forward to make things better. Look back as it is a lesson, look now as an achievement and forward as excitement and something to explore. Keep faith and we will be alright. I love everyone in this chapter of my life. Thanks a million.

Cheers!

Nina

Freaky Friday

ALOHAMORAAAAAAAAAAA!!!

ok, last monday i finally had my gum removed from on top of my wisdom tooth. shit. it hurts! thank go i have pain killers. if not i cant imagine myself eating. it would surely be pure pain! i couldnt speak for like nearly one day the other day. suffer from non-verbal communication is really sick. especially when i have to consult my lecturer bout my layout. u should see me signaling. my lecturer made fun of me(really laughing!) as im noted to be the loudest of them all in class? so its a change of atmosphere all of a sudden. people kept asking me to explain what happened. cant they understand? that i cant speak? ehehehhe. its kinda funny la jugak. laughing stock of the month.

last night, while drawing a new layout for my project, i was directed to watch freaky friday that i guess everyone have watched it. an old movie? i was sure i havent. people keep talking bout that movie and yesterday, i finally saw it. how cool? cool kan? such a pity.

now im sitting in front of my lap top AGAIN! doing my neverending assignments. hate 'em. take it away from me!!!! arghhhhh!! yeah, before ramblings come to live again from my typings, i better get over and do my assignments back. so ill write what happens 2moro in the diary life of mine alright? need to get some sleep too. Class is at 10am 2moro. Auto-Cad. simply love my lecturer. so cuteeeee.

toodle looo everyone. Cheers!

Lots of love,
Gorgeous Creature

Wisdom Tooth

hey its me again! i love weekends. dont you? ive been lazying around a lot. and i mean A LOT. im getting fatter within days. inches by inches. shit. how to fit into baju kurung raya!! iskk..need to kurus by then. cross-fingers. owh ya, im getting my gum remove from on top of my wisdom tooth tomorrow morning. it hurts so bad yesterday that it was swollen and i had to stay in bed the whole day. i hate it. but excited to go for the procedure 2moro. my first treatment at a dental after lets say 10 years? ehehhe. and my teeth is going strong. so screw dentist. u just need them when wisdom teeth comes out. or similar to it. ahahahha.

owh ya, tonight nong will be coming back from america. cant wait. i miss her so very much. mayb if i get to know what time she is coming ill go pick her up. so yeah...sitting, waiting and hoping. may she come back safely. amin.

ok la...im going to go eat now. tired of the screen already. ill update this blog later! toodle loo! and have a nice life everyone! *mwahs*

cheers!

Lots of Love,
Nina

MY LIFE

Aloha.....

i think somethings wrong with me. im so in deep shit. projects byk gila babi! and i hate it. why did i enter this course in the first place? i should have stick with modelling. ahahaha. malaysia's top model maybe? ahahhahaha ok then. im sick n tired. i need bed n tv now. toodle loo...

p/s: I miss kch!! the people, the food, my FAMILY upmost. mwahs

Lots of Love,
Nina

completely pointless

greetings...

im not complaining, nor am i happy with anything. life has been the same ever since my boring campus life. it evolves around work i don't love. where are the people i love? i need back up. i need support. i need to straighten my life back. who cares if im a whore? a bitch or any kind of crude words there are to describe it. but i was happy with it. now? hypocresy, butt rubbing and stuck up the nose trauma everywhere. people are such nosy people. from back then and now. sometimes i wish i could tell things about myself to people. the real me and leave out the negative judgements in the end. someone i love once said, "i love this other girl too much to leave her for u." but in actual fact. its me who was there first. how could he. how could he? comforting moments are beyond reach nowadays. even if u think ure in the comforting zone, think again babe. ure NOT. people say miracles happen. without doubt some wishes do come true. only thing u need to have is faith. but im too tired to think about miracles or come true wishes. im too tired and half hearted to even think of beautiful things around me. i see ugly faces, i see ugly scenery, i see the ugly me now. if anyone could see the end of the road and what ever will happen to you personally, i wish u all the happiness u might or might not need. im too depressed to figure anything out. failure of heart disease, blood vessels pops, sugar level increases...those are diseases that could be cured. what about the matter of the heart? can it be back as normal like the sugar level? or will someone just die and never breath as normal as it may seem few moments backwards. im sitting here, thinking of ideas to create a new environment for myself. wishing everything was as it is back 10 years before. no hassle, no worries. just few injuries. if one day, someone turns me down and i dont cry. i want who ever knows about this to capture that moment. that moment mayb the last in my entire life. its a sign of me collapsing of time. of me going away for good. or mayb im just really really tired and sick to care. if this time comes. watch out for me ok? i might do hideous things. i love my life. but i hate it at the same time. stars seems very dim to me now. everything dull. so, dear friends, find your happiness. dont be like me. im an old women in a young lady's body. see ya in heaven or hell.

lots of love,
Nina

SUCKY SUCKY SUCKY

hello earthlings that i love! greetings from another earthling that is annoyed by UIA/KAED's computer lab. Its not just inefficient but trully unreliable. we cant even have a decent online session in this lab. its either there's something wrong with the computers or the connection. The problem is, most of the comp are not useble. How are we suppose to be very technology intact without cyberspace? sucks aint it? well enough of that.....it was just to express anger. hah! sian radhi....

its been a very busy week this week. projects, datas, analysis, mapping, and etc. what else is there? lotsa things have to be done. presentation is on friday, and too much stress in the air. start screaming! shouting! crying! stop! im rambling without notes.....shit. i hate this feeling.

well enough of everything, im going to browse around to make sure i occupy my time before the next class with something fun.

take care everyone. ill update everyone with the latest news from the suburbs here (well imagine UIA la). sharks! toodle loooooooooooo...

Lots of Love,
Nina

Blues Terengganu Kita

ok, i dunno what to write. but the title of this post is taken from a title of a malay song im listening to right at this moment. its kinda funny cause who ever thought of writing a song with lyrics like "tengok penyu bertelur.." and chorus thats sounds so pathetic like ganu kiteeee. ill sing the tune later if i meet anyone of u that is curious of how it sounds like. alright?

what else did i do today? woke up very early...to me la. around 9. did nothing but watch tv till noon and called wandy up. fell asleep afterwards and re-decorated my room. to those who has been to my place, no more old arrangements guys!!! so cool. now have to get the bed and cushion covers. anyone interested in tagging along? suppose to do that earlier today but my bestfriend daydeck was sick. had to go to the hospital. talking bout this, i havent check on her. better do it soon.

so alright then, im going to continue my work now. tons to do and read. have a nice life people!! im so much in love now. and miss my cuzz so much.

p/s: come back la pokkk....so lonely la without u around. dah la have to stay 3weeks alone. sial seh. take care of yourself there ok pok? *hUgS* dont forget disneyland!!!

Lots of Love,
Nina @ Im Gorgeous

typical

monday was a tiring day, and today is a typical plain ordinary day i go through any other day in my life. monday was bentong trip. today is just lazying around. mayb gonna change my bro's jeans in zara. but so lazy man!!! and yeah, im like sakit perut now. so toodle loo everyone. mwahs.

hugs n kisses,
Nina @ Gorgeous Living Creature

HaH!

sUndaY

journey of the day.....

i finally went shopping for new cloths today!! yeah..so happy. bought lotsa cool stuff. but there's like more to buy. bought 2 new jeans, overwhelming tops that i can imagine how im gonna dress it up. and all sorts. im a happy lady today. spent lots i can say. thanks to mama. mwahs mwahs mwahs

ate at mdm kwan's today. it was delicious. not entirely the best for me but it was as delicious as the price la. so worth paying. later today we ate at marche for dinner. i can say this is my fav. place to be. even thou my fren gunt wont agree to this. he said its way too expensive to eat. i have to agree. but im hooked by its yummy, mouth-watering waffle. so nice! yes...and not forgetting i saw one hot guy. an arabian guy kot. not sure.

owh while at midvalley, i also tasted this healthy drink from the juice bar. it is called berry burst or something. so nice. ive never liked fruits but this is entirely different. it tasted like rainbow-ish. even if ive never tasted rainbows. ahahha. just a thought. yikes!! plus i cant stop looking at the guy behind the counter. his english...aiyo. so best one...plus with the looks and attitude? i vote him as the next malaysian best bachelor. ahahha. so ive met 2 gorgeous guys. how ah? aiyer...too ugly to try out la.... :(

ok, to sum everything up. i had a wonderful day despite any other dreadful things that comes around. plus i wanna talk to daydeck now. love story seh....yes!! *cuddle with my mashi maro*

p/s: missing the person that gave me that. mana you ah syg?

lots of love,
Nina

dAyS

Friday - Mama and Amyrah arrived in KL at 9pm. went strait home. unpacked. realised kak tina my beloved maid sent home-made apam from kuching. ~yummy~ its been ages since i ate those. even writing this blog makes me want it. chatted with mama for awhile. need lotsa catching up to do bout the family. everyone is happy.

Saturday - woke up earlier than any other weekend. mama made american breakfast for MOI but she, my dad and my sis ate nasi lemak. how weird is that? i have my usual mama's fine scramble egg, baked beans, hotdogs, hash brown and toast. afterwards, all of us went to jalan tar to get my rust coloured saree for raya. this is due of my previous saree was too grand or wedding like for raya. ehehehe. after a bit of shopping here and there... well we actually ventured going to genting highlands. but because it was 330pm when we finally drove there, we only stayed till 530. about an hour up there before coming down again. tot of bringing my sister on those rides but too little time for fun. so we decided to come again the following day thats is 2moro. on the way down, we bought lemang and rendang. it was ok la. id prefer my mom's receipe. not being fussy. just that, my mom is here...so why wanna eat out if u can have home-cooked meal? eyh? so, ending of the day whole family had to watched VMA on tv because i was watching it till the very last minute i changed to BBC to watched the true story of the Besians children. so sad. i cried ok!! so if anyone have watched it, they'll know.

so here i am writing this blog now. nothing else to do. and next thing, ill call wandy. been missing him since yesterday. havent heard from him. so yeah. better call before i go nuts. till later...

Sunday - Brand neu day, full of suprises. is it the shopping spree or genting again? most propably shopping because my sister fell ill just now. kesiannnn.. 2moro is something to look forward too...yes yes yes!!!

ok la...hugs n kisses everyone. good night!

Lots of love,
Nina

What happened?

errmmmm....

here we go again. today, woke up late as usual. the sleep pattern ive come accustom to these few days. who can say anything. i need quality sleep what. i didnt do anything extraordinary today. just laze around the house and watch tv. programme after programme. kinda sick of everything already but loving it at the same time. so how ah?

today also is the end date for UPSR (ujian penilaian sekolah rendah) for those who doesnt know this yet. happy for my lil sis, myra, as she succesfully finished answering all the papers but waiting for the results would be another headache not to my sis alone but my mom will be very stressfull. mark my word. which mom wouldnt kan? so, as the rest of the world is enjoying their lifetime at this right moment. my whole family is like praying n wishing for the best outcome we could get. not saying that my sis didnt work hard for it but public exams sometimes has this thing for luck. we would be suprise that some people dont get grades they deserve. so im not going to say anything more but be there for her n pray for the best results. maybe she could beat my result? who knows for sure?

owh, and this evening i called wandy up and we had our usual daily talks. but he said something that suprises me. he said my voice is sweet today! how flattering can it get kan? but couldnt manage to get hold of new idd to call him tonight cause with daddy around, its very hard. questions after questions and i just hate answering them! plus can u believe there's none at 7eleven? sharksss...

today is also ganesha vinaiyagar sadhurthi, a day for the elephant god for the hindus. went to brickfields just now thats why i got to know of this festival. everyone was dress in their full indian suits going to the nicely decorated temple and there's even an elephant earlier that has attracted lotsa kids around that area. the chariott passed just before we arrived so we didnt see any la. the next one will be around 330am. couldnt wait that long..so i headed home after visiting my aunts and dinner.

so here i am, at home listening to punjabi songs, the songs ive heard over my parents wedding a year ago. so yeah, its kinda weird to have punjabi songs in my laptop but i dont care...im uploading it into my laptop. its kinda fun to hear bhangra and makes u want to dance. i guess i am attracted to indian elements. people can even give me a saree for bday and ill like "wow...geez...urghh" speechless but in the end id always say "thanks...i really like it.." to happy to continue. ehehehe..but if lengga or punjabi suits, ill like go wild and scream thank you. its kinda exotic dont you think? colourful materials, beautiful accessories and etc. i just love the make up! look at aishwarya rai's make up for instance. so sharp and nice. ok la, im going to stop babbling bout this. this thing is too much for anyhone else to endure. ok ok...stoppping....toodles!

till later....enjoy!

Lots of love,
Nina

AiShhhhh.....

**me and sarah on the way home**




*my funny looking socks*

Pixma

Fuhhh...its been a long time since i wrote things in here. Seriously, my time is too caught up with work. pathetic work and not mentioning boooringgg. wished ive chosen another course...sHisH!! ok ok, now lets get down to business.

since wandy left, ive been keeping myself busy with trying to finish my assignments as early as i can or ill occupy my hours with sleeping. yeah i know its not good but i just don't want to think of him. to not have him around me just hurts. cant cope. so ive indulge myself in work, work, work and more work up till now. it isn't all that bad la for these past few days cause my short holiday have started. and coming to the end already. hah! stupid uia.

ok, the real story is, i went to midvalley today with sarah. it was ok la...nothing fancy. just 2people chilling and being miserable when we cant afford to buy the things we wanted. well, what do you expect? every single price has gone up as the sales are just over few days ago. so u can imagine how we were. but yeah, despite everything, i manage to buy myself a pair of dorothy like shoes. its pink n black so cute and nice! i LIKEEEE....


*my new shoe!!!!*

to some people, maybe uve seen this somewhere in the local store...so yeah!~ i got it. ahahhaha so funny but im loving it. and i bought some new funny looking socks from sox world. all foot wear. next ill go buy my jeans and tops n skirts n the list goes on....so here comes the never ending.....bla bla bla

we even saw alia and haniza in mv. and it was a lovely suprise. so as usual we did nothing interesting but head home and do nothing till just now i went out with my dad to eat at fatty crab. the must go place to eat. i ate A LOT. so figure la how tasty it is. and with this i end my post....toorah!!!

pop ye ye!!

Lots of Love,
Nina

TravelMate

27/8/2005 - What happened in my world of today? yesterday midnight i had to see wandy go. he left kl for Japan after a week here with me!!. I thought i wouldn't be sad to see him go but the agony of watching him walkaway towards the departure hall and knowing it will be long till he comes back to visit is just so hurtful.

*...im sorry for what i did as i seriously hope he will come back very soon...*

i drove with a downpour in my eye. feeling that the time we've spent together was so short it was barely enough. would i want to make it right, and have the power, ill turn back the time and toil around to make his visit the bomb. but i know this is possible as no one could change or take back time.
as im writing this, my stomach begins to churn in a way that my hands are to nervous or "bergetar" to type anything. ill stop here before my heart bleeds n my eyes go watery. i love n miss the atmosphere. LOVE LOVE LOVE!!! u know who u are...

Lots of Love,
SAMBAL BELACAN LOVER

Ta'aruf Week

Well hello again everyone who's actually given a shit to read my entries. well ure the best!! Ta'aruf week or commonly known as orientation week has been over 2 weeks ago for me. To tell you in one word, IT SUCKS! he he he. when has orientation week been great? as far as i can remember it has never been great thru out my life. for the first day there was buses to bring us back n forth from the mahallah(hostel) to the place we have to go. but after that, all is for walking.its like 15mins walk from our hostel to our main hall where everybody is susppose to gather. sad ain't it? i guess the buses were just to impress the parents on the first day that we are given the best facilities. BULLSHIT! the commitees are like diktators. and the most painful part for me is i didnt get to mandi for like 2 days.can u imagine that we can't even go back to our respective mahallah to bath? silly la!! how more gross can that be kan? and they expect us to pray. isn't praying in islam means being clean as well? aiyer...this is a whole lot disaster that i couldnt wait to end. not forgetting the taking oath rehersals n the ceremony itself. nothing can be more irritating than that. despite the singing the uni's song la. thats the only way to sing our heart out after lotsa dissapointment. and you should see how we mock the mcs' *salah sikit sebutan alu kenak la..* but somehow coming to the end of the week it became better where we had our cultural night combination of 2 faculties in each group to perform that night. and we were stuck with BAR students. give a guess whats that? (Bachelor of Arabic students!!!) so give your mind something to figure. we even have to create our cheer. so u can say we were the best! our cheers are loud n energetic, but our performance are last on the list la. but we had fun. ha ha ha. but our males got 1st place for their performace. so its balance!

p/s: forgot to tell you, within the first 2days of orientation i found myself 3cute guys. so there should be a fun thing about it also kan? ahahaha.

lots of love,
SAMBAL BELACAN LOVER

HOMECOMING

Greetings perfect earthlings of my life!! howve everybody been since my last post? Moi have been fine except when i got the UIA registeration date a week ago. yea, sure like HELL! today is 1st of july, what will be happening for me all day today? ill be traveling across the south china sea in a little while leaving my dearest home sweet home. my feelings? hush hush baby dont i cry! go figure... later tonight we'll be having this suprise party for my cuzz. looking forward to it and have to check out my cloths! hah! glamourous chic coming right up! *biatch*

~~*INTERMISSION*~~

for the whole week, nothing magical has happened to fit into my small fairytale world but yesterday i met few old friends back in MRSM kch. its kinda odd having all of us gather back again even if its like only 9 of us. maybe 4 years from now we could do something more until we can fly everyone in our batch from all over the places to come n have a real gathering for a change. how's that sound? that would be the day ill be waiting for. to see what everyone has become.

Even as i am saying this, i can say that yesterday has lots of changes to offer not mentioning the gorgeous Aqiss has learnt how to break free. she's turned into the glamorous rock chic. with her pink hair and her gothic-ness. its fun to see her after all those years. she's a changed women. for zahie n shaz my oldest friend of all, nothing have really change for them as i often see them all year round..so that explains it kan? anne, my dearest niece to some who would know her from UIA or mayb around kuching, she hasn't change much too (or mayb im just use to her..) but she was our vanessa carlton for the day (shoot arif for this!). talking bout arif, he was once known as a sissy person but everyone should see how changed he is now. not a total hunk la if you know what i mean, but he looks great! VOILA! owh ya before i forget, it was also Ashairi's bday yesterday, he is slimmer now!! no more old ash just the new improved one. an english teacher becoming. ermmm..who else did i miss out? yeah its neela n asmida. at first i forgot their name..(sorry tak org..) till zahie refresh my memory but i still pronouce asmida's name as amidala. geez, thanks to star wars that is! didnt really talk to both of them but they look fine. who's the last person? owh how stupid of me...its MOI!! well you guys know me..so no need details...ahahaha...im not going to give details bout what we did or eat or talk but we sure had some fun yesterday. thanks for a lovely lunch u guys! *hUgS*

~~*bAcK*~~

ok...so thats the story of my so-called "perfect life" for at least yesterday la. and yea gotten news from my cuzz that my friend who met with a car accident last sunday morning is getting better than the last time i visited him on tuesday. he still needs fisiotherapy and still postponing his spm till next year, but im glad his alright except mayb his feelings : that..i am not sure after losing his bestfriend.

So, let us all sedekah Al-Fatihah to Abg Ermanwira. May he rest in peace. To amon, hope u get well soon kiddo.

Lots of love,

Nina

I PASSEDDD!!!

well hello again people!!! this is the beginning of another dream come true. no more fairytales or fairyland. IVE PASSED MY ARAB EXAMSSSSSSSSS!!! didn't know arab was effecting me so much. i barely could talk when i saw what i got. b+ for god's sake!!! OMG!! i was jumping around and my mom just said "owk tedahh...macam sik pernah pass anything jakk"...to some people u wont understand what my mom meant but who cares? i passed seh!!!! blimey cool! but the only thing im trouble dwith now is the offer letter. its still not coming. im sitting, waiting patiently now....so come already!!! guess thats the first part of today...write something else soon! toodledoooo....

p.s: happy happy happy!!! smurf smurf.....yeehaaaaaaaaaaa

lots of love,
Nina

Here I Am

whats the date today? its 20th of june and its my cousin, kak mimie's birthday. but she celebrated yesterday at this place called JAMBU. some new place in kuching. i decided not to go cause i was too tired to even get dress, so in the end my mom went alone. as what everybody told me today, nothing great happened that night cause everyone was just sitting there having a few drinks and laughing. similar to lepaking at home. despite the dressing up la!

This is among the usual things we do among our family members to keep the bond strong. Even among the cousins we will organise parties or any events so all of us can get together and remind ourselves that nothing beats the love we have for each other. just to keep the knot tight. this is the rutual thing. you can say we dont need anybody else to get the party started. its what we do best! even the aunties and uncles are so cool about it. there will also be annual holidays for the whole family. so you can see at certain time of the year, they will be around 70++ of us gathering at the airport to catch the flight.

nothing can beat this happy moments. and yea, we do have fights here and there. you can hear screaming and shouting from parents when the kids does something wrong, babies wailing their voices out to get attention and the adults getting all tensed to just prepare everyone. its a lot of hassle but theres always a nice ending to it especially when it comes to shopping. you can see all sort item being purchased. just say the magic word to us "juh gi shopping juh!!" everyone will like quickly assemble themselves. it happens so fast that sometimes we dont realise that people dissappear in a poof! cause as usual no one wants to be left out in the spree of the moment.you should see the way we go. everyone walking so fast and grabbing what catches the eye. its so funny! i dunno how much we've spend but even how many trips we went in or how many places we've been it seems never enuff. this is what we call fever of shopping! guess it runs in the family!!! *LOL*

At the end of each holiday we will encounter the same old problem. LUGGAGE EXCESS! well, what do you expect when people shop too much?? you will see some trying their luck with the ground staff just to get the excess luggage in. some paid the excess fees thou and some just become luckily unnoticed! hows that?

This doesnt happen only on holidays, all sorts of things happen to us all thru our lives, ups and downs of us...from raya celebration to holidays, weddings, and did i mention we kinda celebrate all the celebration there is in Malaysia? this is the uniqness of the Marzuki family. Im happy and glad to be born in this multi-racial superb family! I love my family to the max! And proud of us every bit.*cheers love!

p.s: dedicated to every family members tat has touched my life in all aspects especially to the elders who have made our lives (the younger ones) a living heaven! ~a.norlia,u.osman, a.ya, u.khalid, a.janah, a.nora, MAMA, and a.baini. i appreciate all the efforts *hUgS*

p.p.s: specially to all my cousins who are too long a list to mention, i love u guys too.. and *nong, ure the bestest cuzz n friend i could ever wish for!

lots of love,
Nina

LINK 102

the beginning of world today. dedicated to lots n lotsa sleep. coz as usual didnt sleep till 6am this morning. was woken up by mama at around 1230 coz she dislike the idea of me sleeping until noon. blotted she says. so i woke up with all kind of garis garis on my body. so i was like.."how did this happen?" but being me, i couldnt care much so i just pick my towel up n go strait for a joyful bath. not knowing much tat my plumbing system in the bathroom has gone wrong. my feet was particularly soaking wet up till my ankle. so gross!!! so after conditioning my hair n scrubing my body, i quickly rinse so i can get out of tat stupid shower room. seriously need repair!!! to my suprise my cousin, kak rina was at my house already by the time i got out of the bathroom. its been a long time since i met her. a month maybe? so i got dressed and sat at the table to eat lunch with everybody. so now the whole world can know im a lazy bum who only gets up by almost 1 o'clock. ShiSHhhh! Lost my appetite again, only ate my sambal belacan, rice n veges. the best items for a meal! so my mom was constantly asking why am i not eating and all? i just said im full. what is there to say? needless to mention that my mom gets worried nowadays to see how i eat. so little not like the normal me.

as i am sitting here, i just got back from KLiA to put our box for storage till we check in later tonight. going back to kch for few weeks. cant wait to get on with holidays with fitness first! run on the traidmill and the ab toner. all at the comfy of my own gym at home. no more flabbiness and aloha new image of a stunning lady? i presume? ahahhaha. just hope im not arse lazy to do it la. *cross-finger* the funny part of the drive to the airport was, i slept AGAIN! full 3 hours sleep, my dad had to wake me up so i can go down n buy dunkin donuts for my siblings. i was totally pulling my baru bangun tido look. i guess the cashier saw tat one coming. so i settle for the 12 pieces free 3 pieces of donuts. thats a hell of donuts to spare for the whole household. unless my brother gobbles everything up la. but i highly recommend people to try the peanut, butter and jelly donut. its so damn nice seh!! the true pleasure of donut! check it out n try one alright? im going to go now, this blog has became one long blog already. i bet whoever is reading it will be so bored. so toodleloooo! have a fun and exciting holidays ok you guys? esp. to the cat lover, cheese lover, veggie hater, love lover, n tomato lover? i stil cant get that one person right. damn! bye bye!! off to kch! yeaaaa.....

p.s: so sarah, tell me what u really like k? so i can dedicate you the real thing. *hUgS*

Lots of love,
Sambal Belacan Lover

flirty day

Assalamualaikum...

wow..im actually giving salam after a long time not doing so. dont be so shocked...im just in my goodie girl mood. anyways, what happened to me today? i went out with my parents to jalan tar to get my material shopping going. so now i end up having four pairs of sarees to make into baju kurung or mayb just the three of them and the other one ill use it for deepavali? what u guys think? i so love my rust colour saree. its so unique n nice. to me tat is. we actually walk all around jln tar for a start. KL has turn hot all of a sudden. the government should consider planting more trees in tat area. the sun was striking my skin and honestly boiling my blood above 100 degrees. well imagine tat. my mom was sickly having headache after the spree and we had to dash home so she could take her bath and get some rest. being my mom tat couldnt stand any sunshine. perfect sunshine! hah!

the funny part was, even in all those rush i could stil squeeze moments for question time. oh boy did my mom get annoyed but she was a good sport for it in a way. (thats what mother are for kan?)

me: ma, pa just a tiny question.

mama: what?! (annoyed tone)

appa: yes darling... (this is more like it la!! ahahahha)

me: well actually, im just wondering what if any of your children
fall in love with someone from a different race?

mama: do you need this answer urgently?

*i was like...duhh ma! its not an exam question...just answer la! but my dad was being cool and answering the question...didnt know he's like tat thou!

appa: of course not darling. people fall in love with different type
of people everyday but the most important thing is that person
has to have good attitude.

me: i just said...ohhhh! like tat ka?

*then my mom answered..

mama: well obviously i dont mind at all...see what race your dad is?
silly cow! and our family is so multi-racial. ishh...

me: i was laughing so loud but what my dad asked after tat was a bit shocking la cause he is never like tat.

appa: why did u ask all that huh? you have anybody in mind ke?

me: (in my mind) aiyer...how to answer this! i was shy so i finally shut up and just smiled sheepishly.

this continued until we got home. so my dad never pursue anymore cause he knows how i feel.

so, what im trying to say is...i have brand new parents who i could open up to. before i use to be scared to tell them anything. even to ask if i can go out also i takut! now its just like a big happy family with lotsa love around. i like!!!! all started when i finally confessed to my mom few days ago, tat i did have a boyfriend before and broke up with him few weeks back. now im currently available for anyone to kacau! ahahaha...

so, as tomorrow is approaching, im leaving kl for kch. having holidays and going to rest and be lazy all the time. before those hectic time in uni comes again. but surely motif one is to loose few more pounds so i can look stunning! healthy lifestyle the key to happiness!!?

p.s: i love love love my life now....yeah!!

lots of love,
sambal belacan lover

the cool dude

ive never been completely honest with myself. ive always on the bound whereby im obssesed for "other peoples' feelings are more important than mine." i get confused n it sucks! this happens to me allllllll the time! even in this emotional crisis. someone loves me but im not sure i how much my love for him is. then there's this one person i am finally considering to like but some shitty problem comes and gave me a hard time deciding. i know people will say no one is asking you to choose but matter of fact im sick of all this. pushing n telling me the right thing to do. whats more important is what i want right? cant people just leave me alone to decide than mingle around to make me more confuse? shishhh...even on my birthday (that is 2 days ago-hah im 19!! ehehehe) that particular someone did all sorts of things to hurt me even if its not planned. but on the other hand an angel came to be someone particularly cool. how can i ignore this liking feeling when im in deep shit than someone than feels good comes around? mayb i need therapy. so those interested to have a glimpse at my problem feel free to signup for the corrective session. ok? i seriously need helpingsssssss....see those sssssss? thats how serious this goes. and a piece of advice to all, never get involve in a relationship when ure not ready. USE YOUR BRAIN! USE YOUR BRAIN! this is what i get by not using my brain....shit! good night chocolate lover, cat lover, art lover, veggie hater, love lover, and rock lover. im going to get some shut eye before i go crazy! Love you guys tops!

lots of love,
Sambal Belacan Lover

Open Entry

Ive just came back from Aroma (this "hip" cafe students like to go for dinner mostly esp. when it means u can see people! aha?) and now at the cc still wondering why im online and not studying? Arab exam is less than a week's time. Well for lotsa obvious reasons i have friends who is corrupting my mind into doing all this things. yes? (oppsie...no hard feelings guys!)

owh yea, talking bout friends, my friend syaza just built her own blogspot area for us to kutuk her and have this all-u-can-read page about her pathetic daily routine. *grin* anyhow, is kinda weird having people liking this kinda thing plus its becoming so famous now!!! aiya...

ok my blog is lacking of cool ideas as i dunno what else to write. i tot of so much before coming in today but forgot it the second i got in front of the pc. damnit! mayb i was still too shock seeing this particular embarassing picture of my friend. i hope that person will come back to his senses to keep his words. sheeshhh im annoyed.

ok la...im off..swishh wooofff! toorah n good night...LATERRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!

Lots of Love,
Nina

He is Just Not into You

ok, last sunday i went to popular with the rest of my kiddos and found a book titled "he is just not into you". Its a-must-have book for girls who just think tat they are not good enuff for jerks out there. reading it has given somekind of a new perception to me about relationships and how it should be. not with having your boyfriend abbusing you, not calling cause he's too busy (yada-yada), the not ready excuse nor the cheating part of them.

we as females, women,girls or wadeva we call ourselves have to hold on to our dignity and nothing beats the love for ourselves. why sell ourselves for someone who's not worth it as u can find a hot gorgeous someone like urselves, the HOT STUFF!

if u let me brag about this one, i guess even the whole page is not enuff to write all in cause lotsa comments for it. just grab the book and read it for urself. i bet u will like it. just a help book to be kept.

p.s: no offence guys!
p.p.s: i love someone!! and i know he's worth it.

lots of love,
Nina