typical

monday was a tiring day, and today is a typical plain ordinary day i go through any other day in my life. monday was bentong trip. today is just lazying around. mayb gonna change my bro's jeans in zara. but so lazy man!!! and yeah, im like sakit perut now. so toodle loo everyone. mwahs.

hugs n kisses,
Nina @ Gorgeous Living Creature

HaH!

sUndaY

journey of the day.....

i finally went shopping for new cloths today!! yeah..so happy. bought lotsa cool stuff. but there's like more to buy. bought 2 new jeans, overwhelming tops that i can imagine how im gonna dress it up. and all sorts. im a happy lady today. spent lots i can say. thanks to mama. mwahs mwahs mwahs

ate at mdm kwan's today. it was delicious. not entirely the best for me but it was as delicious as the price la. so worth paying. later today we ate at marche for dinner. i can say this is my fav. place to be. even thou my fren gunt wont agree to this. he said its way too expensive to eat. i have to agree. but im hooked by its yummy, mouth-watering waffle. so nice! yes...and not forgetting i saw one hot guy. an arabian guy kot. not sure.

owh while at midvalley, i also tasted this healthy drink from the juice bar. it is called berry burst or something. so nice. ive never liked fruits but this is entirely different. it tasted like rainbow-ish. even if ive never tasted rainbows. ahahha. just a thought. yikes!! plus i cant stop looking at the guy behind the counter. his english...aiyo. so best one...plus with the looks and attitude? i vote him as the next malaysian best bachelor. ahahha. so ive met 2 gorgeous guys. how ah? aiyer...too ugly to try out la.... :(

ok, to sum everything up. i had a wonderful day despite any other dreadful things that comes around. plus i wanna talk to daydeck now. love story seh....yes!! *cuddle with my mashi maro*

p/s: missing the person that gave me that. mana you ah syg?

lots of love,
Nina

dAyS

Friday - Mama and Amyrah arrived in KL at 9pm. went strait home. unpacked. realised kak tina my beloved maid sent home-made apam from kuching. ~yummy~ its been ages since i ate those. even writing this blog makes me want it. chatted with mama for awhile. need lotsa catching up to do bout the family. everyone is happy.

Saturday - woke up earlier than any other weekend. mama made american breakfast for MOI but she, my dad and my sis ate nasi lemak. how weird is that? i have my usual mama's fine scramble egg, baked beans, hotdogs, hash brown and toast. afterwards, all of us went to jalan tar to get my rust coloured saree for raya. this is due of my previous saree was too grand or wedding like for raya. ehehehe. after a bit of shopping here and there... well we actually ventured going to genting highlands. but because it was 330pm when we finally drove there, we only stayed till 530. about an hour up there before coming down again. tot of bringing my sister on those rides but too little time for fun. so we decided to come again the following day thats is 2moro. on the way down, we bought lemang and rendang. it was ok la. id prefer my mom's receipe. not being fussy. just that, my mom is here...so why wanna eat out if u can have home-cooked meal? eyh? so, ending of the day whole family had to watched VMA on tv because i was watching it till the very last minute i changed to BBC to watched the true story of the Besians children. so sad. i cried ok!! so if anyone have watched it, they'll know.

so here i am writing this blog now. nothing else to do. and next thing, ill call wandy. been missing him since yesterday. havent heard from him. so yeah. better call before i go nuts. till later...

Sunday - Brand neu day, full of suprises. is it the shopping spree or genting again? most propably shopping because my sister fell ill just now. kesiannnn.. 2moro is something to look forward too...yes yes yes!!!

ok la...hugs n kisses everyone. good night!

Lots of love,
Nina

What happened?

errmmmm....

here we go again. today, woke up late as usual. the sleep pattern ive come accustom to these few days. who can say anything. i need quality sleep what. i didnt do anything extraordinary today. just laze around the house and watch tv. programme after programme. kinda sick of everything already but loving it at the same time. so how ah?

today also is the end date for UPSR (ujian penilaian sekolah rendah) for those who doesnt know this yet. happy for my lil sis, myra, as she succesfully finished answering all the papers but waiting for the results would be another headache not to my sis alone but my mom will be very stressfull. mark my word. which mom wouldnt kan? so, as the rest of the world is enjoying their lifetime at this right moment. my whole family is like praying n wishing for the best outcome we could get. not saying that my sis didnt work hard for it but public exams sometimes has this thing for luck. we would be suprise that some people dont get grades they deserve. so im not going to say anything more but be there for her n pray for the best results. maybe she could beat my result? who knows for sure?

owh, and this evening i called wandy up and we had our usual daily talks. but he said something that suprises me. he said my voice is sweet today! how flattering can it get kan? but couldnt manage to get hold of new idd to call him tonight cause with daddy around, its very hard. questions after questions and i just hate answering them! plus can u believe there's none at 7eleven? sharksss...

today is also ganesha vinaiyagar sadhurthi, a day for the elephant god for the hindus. went to brickfields just now thats why i got to know of this festival. everyone was dress in their full indian suits going to the nicely decorated temple and there's even an elephant earlier that has attracted lotsa kids around that area. the chariott passed just before we arrived so we didnt see any la. the next one will be around 330am. couldnt wait that long..so i headed home after visiting my aunts and dinner.

so here i am, at home listening to punjabi songs, the songs ive heard over my parents wedding a year ago. so yeah, its kinda weird to have punjabi songs in my laptop but i dont care...im uploading it into my laptop. its kinda fun to hear bhangra and makes u want to dance. i guess i am attracted to indian elements. people can even give me a saree for bday and ill like "wow...geez...urghh" speechless but in the end id always say "thanks...i really like it.." to happy to continue. ehehehe..but if lengga or punjabi suits, ill like go wild and scream thank you. its kinda exotic dont you think? colourful materials, beautiful accessories and etc. i just love the make up! look at aishwarya rai's make up for instance. so sharp and nice. ok la, im going to stop babbling bout this. this thing is too much for anyhone else to endure. ok ok...stoppping....toodles!

till later....enjoy!

Lots of love,
Nina

AiShhhhh.....

**me and sarah on the way home**




*my funny looking socks*

Pixma

Fuhhh...its been a long time since i wrote things in here. Seriously, my time is too caught up with work. pathetic work and not mentioning boooringgg. wished ive chosen another course...sHisH!! ok ok, now lets get down to business.

since wandy left, ive been keeping myself busy with trying to finish my assignments as early as i can or ill occupy my hours with sleeping. yeah i know its not good but i just don't want to think of him. to not have him around me just hurts. cant cope. so ive indulge myself in work, work, work and more work up till now. it isn't all that bad la for these past few days cause my short holiday have started. and coming to the end already. hah! stupid uia.

ok, the real story is, i went to midvalley today with sarah. it was ok la...nothing fancy. just 2people chilling and being miserable when we cant afford to buy the things we wanted. well, what do you expect? every single price has gone up as the sales are just over few days ago. so u can imagine how we were. but yeah, despite everything, i manage to buy myself a pair of dorothy like shoes. its pink n black so cute and nice! i LIKEEEE....


*my new shoe!!!!*

to some people, maybe uve seen this somewhere in the local store...so yeah!~ i got it. ahahhaha so funny but im loving it. and i bought some new funny looking socks from sox world. all foot wear. next ill go buy my jeans and tops n skirts n the list goes on....so here comes the never ending.....bla bla bla

we even saw alia and haniza in mv. and it was a lovely suprise. so as usual we did nothing interesting but head home and do nothing till just now i went out with my dad to eat at fatty crab. the must go place to eat. i ate A LOT. so figure la how tasty it is. and with this i end my post....toorah!!!

pop ye ye!!

Lots of Love,
Nina

TravelMate

27/8/2005 - What happened in my world of today? yesterday midnight i had to see wandy go. he left kl for Japan after a week here with me!!. I thought i wouldn't be sad to see him go but the agony of watching him walkaway towards the departure hall and knowing it will be long till he comes back to visit is just so hurtful.

*...im sorry for what i did as i seriously hope he will come back very soon...*

i drove with a downpour in my eye. feeling that the time we've spent together was so short it was barely enough. would i want to make it right, and have the power, ill turn back the time and toil around to make his visit the bomb. but i know this is possible as no one could change or take back time.
as im writing this, my stomach begins to churn in a way that my hands are to nervous or "bergetar" to type anything. ill stop here before my heart bleeds n my eyes go watery. i love n miss the atmosphere. LOVE LOVE LOVE!!! u know who u are...

Lots of Love,
SAMBAL BELACAN LOVER

Ta'aruf Week

Well hello again everyone who's actually given a shit to read my entries. well ure the best!! Ta'aruf week or commonly known as orientation week has been over 2 weeks ago for me. To tell you in one word, IT SUCKS! he he he. when has orientation week been great? as far as i can remember it has never been great thru out my life. for the first day there was buses to bring us back n forth from the mahallah(hostel) to the place we have to go. but after that, all is for walking.its like 15mins walk from our hostel to our main hall where everybody is susppose to gather. sad ain't it? i guess the buses were just to impress the parents on the first day that we are given the best facilities. BULLSHIT! the commitees are like diktators. and the most painful part for me is i didnt get to mandi for like 2 days.can u imagine that we can't even go back to our respective mahallah to bath? silly la!! how more gross can that be kan? and they expect us to pray. isn't praying in islam means being clean as well? aiyer...this is a whole lot disaster that i couldnt wait to end. not forgetting the taking oath rehersals n the ceremony itself. nothing can be more irritating than that. despite the singing the uni's song la. thats the only way to sing our heart out after lotsa dissapointment. and you should see how we mock the mcs' *salah sikit sebutan alu kenak la..* but somehow coming to the end of the week it became better where we had our cultural night combination of 2 faculties in each group to perform that night. and we were stuck with BAR students. give a guess whats that? (Bachelor of Arabic students!!!) so give your mind something to figure. we even have to create our cheer. so u can say we were the best! our cheers are loud n energetic, but our performance are last on the list la. but we had fun. ha ha ha. but our males got 1st place for their performace. so its balance!

p/s: forgot to tell you, within the first 2days of orientation i found myself 3cute guys. so there should be a fun thing about it also kan? ahahaha.

lots of love,
SAMBAL BELACAN LOVER

HOMECOMING

Greetings perfect earthlings of my life!! howve everybody been since my last post? Moi have been fine except when i got the UIA registeration date a week ago. yea, sure like HELL! today is 1st of july, what will be happening for me all day today? ill be traveling across the south china sea in a little while leaving my dearest home sweet home. my feelings? hush hush baby dont i cry! go figure... later tonight we'll be having this suprise party for my cuzz. looking forward to it and have to check out my cloths! hah! glamourous chic coming right up! *biatch*

~~*INTERMISSION*~~

for the whole week, nothing magical has happened to fit into my small fairytale world but yesterday i met few old friends back in MRSM kch. its kinda odd having all of us gather back again even if its like only 9 of us. maybe 4 years from now we could do something more until we can fly everyone in our batch from all over the places to come n have a real gathering for a change. how's that sound? that would be the day ill be waiting for. to see what everyone has become.

Even as i am saying this, i can say that yesterday has lots of changes to offer not mentioning the gorgeous Aqiss has learnt how to break free. she's turned into the glamorous rock chic. with her pink hair and her gothic-ness. its fun to see her after all those years. she's a changed women. for zahie n shaz my oldest friend of all, nothing have really change for them as i often see them all year round..so that explains it kan? anne, my dearest niece to some who would know her from UIA or mayb around kuching, she hasn't change much too (or mayb im just use to her..) but she was our vanessa carlton for the day (shoot arif for this!). talking bout arif, he was once known as a sissy person but everyone should see how changed he is now. not a total hunk la if you know what i mean, but he looks great! VOILA! owh ya before i forget, it was also Ashairi's bday yesterday, he is slimmer now!! no more old ash just the new improved one. an english teacher becoming. ermmm..who else did i miss out? yeah its neela n asmida. at first i forgot their name..(sorry tak org..) till zahie refresh my memory but i still pronouce asmida's name as amidala. geez, thanks to star wars that is! didnt really talk to both of them but they look fine. who's the last person? owh how stupid of me...its MOI!! well you guys know me..so no need details...ahahaha...im not going to give details bout what we did or eat or talk but we sure had some fun yesterday. thanks for a lovely lunch u guys! *hUgS*

~~*bAcK*~~

ok...so thats the story of my so-called "perfect life" for at least yesterday la. and yea gotten news from my cuzz that my friend who met with a car accident last sunday morning is getting better than the last time i visited him on tuesday. he still needs fisiotherapy and still postponing his spm till next year, but im glad his alright except mayb his feelings : that..i am not sure after losing his bestfriend.

So, let us all sedekah Al-Fatihah to Abg Ermanwira. May he rest in peace. To amon, hope u get well soon kiddo.

Lots of love,

Nina

I PASSEDDD!!!

well hello again people!!! this is the beginning of another dream come true. no more fairytales or fairyland. IVE PASSED MY ARAB EXAMSSSSSSSSS!!! didn't know arab was effecting me so much. i barely could talk when i saw what i got. b+ for god's sake!!! OMG!! i was jumping around and my mom just said "owk tedahh...macam sik pernah pass anything jakk"...to some people u wont understand what my mom meant but who cares? i passed seh!!!! blimey cool! but the only thing im trouble dwith now is the offer letter. its still not coming. im sitting, waiting patiently now....so come already!!! guess thats the first part of today...write something else soon! toodledoooo....

p.s: happy happy happy!!! smurf smurf.....yeehaaaaaaaaaaa

lots of love,
Nina

Here I Am

whats the date today? its 20th of june and its my cousin, kak mimie's birthday. but she celebrated yesterday at this place called JAMBU. some new place in kuching. i decided not to go cause i was too tired to even get dress, so in the end my mom went alone. as what everybody told me today, nothing great happened that night cause everyone was just sitting there having a few drinks and laughing. similar to lepaking at home. despite the dressing up la!

This is among the usual things we do among our family members to keep the bond strong. Even among the cousins we will organise parties or any events so all of us can get together and remind ourselves that nothing beats the love we have for each other. just to keep the knot tight. this is the rutual thing. you can say we dont need anybody else to get the party started. its what we do best! even the aunties and uncles are so cool about it. there will also be annual holidays for the whole family. so you can see at certain time of the year, they will be around 70++ of us gathering at the airport to catch the flight.

nothing can beat this happy moments. and yea, we do have fights here and there. you can hear screaming and shouting from parents when the kids does something wrong, babies wailing their voices out to get attention and the adults getting all tensed to just prepare everyone. its a lot of hassle but theres always a nice ending to it especially when it comes to shopping. you can see all sort item being purchased. just say the magic word to us "juh gi shopping juh!!" everyone will like quickly assemble themselves. it happens so fast that sometimes we dont realise that people dissappear in a poof! cause as usual no one wants to be left out in the spree of the moment.you should see the way we go. everyone walking so fast and grabbing what catches the eye. its so funny! i dunno how much we've spend but even how many trips we went in or how many places we've been it seems never enuff. this is what we call fever of shopping! guess it runs in the family!!! *LOL*

At the end of each holiday we will encounter the same old problem. LUGGAGE EXCESS! well, what do you expect when people shop too much?? you will see some trying their luck with the ground staff just to get the excess luggage in. some paid the excess fees thou and some just become luckily unnoticed! hows that?

This doesnt happen only on holidays, all sorts of things happen to us all thru our lives, ups and downs of us...from raya celebration to holidays, weddings, and did i mention we kinda celebrate all the celebration there is in Malaysia? this is the uniqness of the Marzuki family. Im happy and glad to be born in this multi-racial superb family! I love my family to the max! And proud of us every bit.*cheers love!

p.s: dedicated to every family members tat has touched my life in all aspects especially to the elders who have made our lives (the younger ones) a living heaven! ~a.norlia,u.osman, a.ya, u.khalid, a.janah, a.nora, MAMA, and a.baini. i appreciate all the efforts *hUgS*

p.p.s: specially to all my cousins who are too long a list to mention, i love u guys too.. and *nong, ure the bestest cuzz n friend i could ever wish for!

lots of love,
Nina

LINK 102

the beginning of world today. dedicated to lots n lotsa sleep. coz as usual didnt sleep till 6am this morning. was woken up by mama at around 1230 coz she dislike the idea of me sleeping until noon. blotted she says. so i woke up with all kind of garis garis on my body. so i was like.."how did this happen?" but being me, i couldnt care much so i just pick my towel up n go strait for a joyful bath. not knowing much tat my plumbing system in the bathroom has gone wrong. my feet was particularly soaking wet up till my ankle. so gross!!! so after conditioning my hair n scrubing my body, i quickly rinse so i can get out of tat stupid shower room. seriously need repair!!! to my suprise my cousin, kak rina was at my house already by the time i got out of the bathroom. its been a long time since i met her. a month maybe? so i got dressed and sat at the table to eat lunch with everybody. so now the whole world can know im a lazy bum who only gets up by almost 1 o'clock. ShiSHhhh! Lost my appetite again, only ate my sambal belacan, rice n veges. the best items for a meal! so my mom was constantly asking why am i not eating and all? i just said im full. what is there to say? needless to mention that my mom gets worried nowadays to see how i eat. so little not like the normal me.

as i am sitting here, i just got back from KLiA to put our box for storage till we check in later tonight. going back to kch for few weeks. cant wait to get on with holidays with fitness first! run on the traidmill and the ab toner. all at the comfy of my own gym at home. no more flabbiness and aloha new image of a stunning lady? i presume? ahahhaha. just hope im not arse lazy to do it la. *cross-finger* the funny part of the drive to the airport was, i slept AGAIN! full 3 hours sleep, my dad had to wake me up so i can go down n buy dunkin donuts for my siblings. i was totally pulling my baru bangun tido look. i guess the cashier saw tat one coming. so i settle for the 12 pieces free 3 pieces of donuts. thats a hell of donuts to spare for the whole household. unless my brother gobbles everything up la. but i highly recommend people to try the peanut, butter and jelly donut. its so damn nice seh!! the true pleasure of donut! check it out n try one alright? im going to go now, this blog has became one long blog already. i bet whoever is reading it will be so bored. so toodleloooo! have a fun and exciting holidays ok you guys? esp. to the cat lover, cheese lover, veggie hater, love lover, n tomato lover? i stil cant get that one person right. damn! bye bye!! off to kch! yeaaaa.....

p.s: so sarah, tell me what u really like k? so i can dedicate you the real thing. *hUgS*

Lots of love,
Sambal Belacan Lover

flirty day

Assalamualaikum...

wow..im actually giving salam after a long time not doing so. dont be so shocked...im just in my goodie girl mood. anyways, what happened to me today? i went out with my parents to jalan tar to get my material shopping going. so now i end up having four pairs of sarees to make into baju kurung or mayb just the three of them and the other one ill use it for deepavali? what u guys think? i so love my rust colour saree. its so unique n nice. to me tat is. we actually walk all around jln tar for a start. KL has turn hot all of a sudden. the government should consider planting more trees in tat area. the sun was striking my skin and honestly boiling my blood above 100 degrees. well imagine tat. my mom was sickly having headache after the spree and we had to dash home so she could take her bath and get some rest. being my mom tat couldnt stand any sunshine. perfect sunshine! hah!

the funny part was, even in all those rush i could stil squeeze moments for question time. oh boy did my mom get annoyed but she was a good sport for it in a way. (thats what mother are for kan?)

me: ma, pa just a tiny question.

mama: what?! (annoyed tone)

appa: yes darling... (this is more like it la!! ahahahha)

me: well actually, im just wondering what if any of your children
fall in love with someone from a different race?

mama: do you need this answer urgently?

*i was like...duhh ma! its not an exam question...just answer la! but my dad was being cool and answering the question...didnt know he's like tat thou!

appa: of course not darling. people fall in love with different type
of people everyday but the most important thing is that person
has to have good attitude.

me: i just said...ohhhh! like tat ka?

*then my mom answered..

mama: well obviously i dont mind at all...see what race your dad is?
silly cow! and our family is so multi-racial. ishh...

me: i was laughing so loud but what my dad asked after tat was a bit shocking la cause he is never like tat.

appa: why did u ask all that huh? you have anybody in mind ke?

me: (in my mind) aiyer...how to answer this! i was shy so i finally shut up and just smiled sheepishly.

this continued until we got home. so my dad never pursue anymore cause he knows how i feel.

so, what im trying to say is...i have brand new parents who i could open up to. before i use to be scared to tell them anything. even to ask if i can go out also i takut! now its just like a big happy family with lotsa love around. i like!!!! all started when i finally confessed to my mom few days ago, tat i did have a boyfriend before and broke up with him few weeks back. now im currently available for anyone to kacau! ahahaha...

so, as tomorrow is approaching, im leaving kl for kch. having holidays and going to rest and be lazy all the time. before those hectic time in uni comes again. but surely motif one is to loose few more pounds so i can look stunning! healthy lifestyle the key to happiness!!?

p.s: i love love love my life now....yeah!!

lots of love,
sambal belacan lover

the cool dude

ive never been completely honest with myself. ive always on the bound whereby im obssesed for "other peoples' feelings are more important than mine." i get confused n it sucks! this happens to me allllllll the time! even in this emotional crisis. someone loves me but im not sure i how much my love for him is. then there's this one person i am finally considering to like but some shitty problem comes and gave me a hard time deciding. i know people will say no one is asking you to choose but matter of fact im sick of all this. pushing n telling me the right thing to do. whats more important is what i want right? cant people just leave me alone to decide than mingle around to make me more confuse? shishhh...even on my birthday (that is 2 days ago-hah im 19!! ehehehe) that particular someone did all sorts of things to hurt me even if its not planned. but on the other hand an angel came to be someone particularly cool. how can i ignore this liking feeling when im in deep shit than someone than feels good comes around? mayb i need therapy. so those interested to have a glimpse at my problem feel free to signup for the corrective session. ok? i seriously need helpingsssssss....see those sssssss? thats how serious this goes. and a piece of advice to all, never get involve in a relationship when ure not ready. USE YOUR BRAIN! USE YOUR BRAIN! this is what i get by not using my brain....shit! good night chocolate lover, cat lover, art lover, veggie hater, love lover, and rock lover. im going to get some shut eye before i go crazy! Love you guys tops!

lots of love,
Sambal Belacan Lover

Open Entry

Ive just came back from Aroma (this "hip" cafe students like to go for dinner mostly esp. when it means u can see people! aha?) and now at the cc still wondering why im online and not studying? Arab exam is less than a week's time. Well for lotsa obvious reasons i have friends who is corrupting my mind into doing all this things. yes? (oppsie...no hard feelings guys!)

owh yea, talking bout friends, my friend syaza just built her own blogspot area for us to kutuk her and have this all-u-can-read page about her pathetic daily routine. *grin* anyhow, is kinda weird having people liking this kinda thing plus its becoming so famous now!!! aiya...

ok my blog is lacking of cool ideas as i dunno what else to write. i tot of so much before coming in today but forgot it the second i got in front of the pc. damnit! mayb i was still too shock seeing this particular embarassing picture of my friend. i hope that person will come back to his senses to keep his words. sheeshhh im annoyed.

ok la...im off..swishh wooofff! toorah n good night...LATERRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!

Lots of Love,
Nina

He is Just Not into You

ok, last sunday i went to popular with the rest of my kiddos and found a book titled "he is just not into you". Its a-must-have book for girls who just think tat they are not good enuff for jerks out there. reading it has given somekind of a new perception to me about relationships and how it should be. not with having your boyfriend abbusing you, not calling cause he's too busy (yada-yada), the not ready excuse nor the cheating part of them.

we as females, women,girls or wadeva we call ourselves have to hold on to our dignity and nothing beats the love for ourselves. why sell ourselves for someone who's not worth it as u can find a hot gorgeous someone like urselves, the HOT STUFF!

if u let me brag about this one, i guess even the whole page is not enuff to write all in cause lotsa comments for it. just grab the book and read it for urself. i bet u will like it. just a help book to be kept.

p.s: no offence guys!
p.p.s: i love someone!! and i know he's worth it.

lots of love,
Nina

SORE

Colours on the rainbow to cheer a lifetime. Cheerful notes to sing the lullaby. Few tear drops to keep a sore heart. Tossin' and turning to get things right. Pieces of jigsaw puzzle on the floor to match the empty spaces.

Im feeling numb inside, sore around me just by thinking what ive done. But one thing for sure is my shield havent collapse to make me regret what ive done. maybe when the storm outside has gone, the sunshine will come out and greet me cheerfully! Selamat Pagi Dunia!

Brand neu Day

Came back from kl last night, now enjoying the every minute i will be getting in kch. going to watch star wars after this! so coooollllllllllll... anyways, didnt know what to say more. was just excited to come home but was suprised to hear from my mom that a friend of mine got married few weeks back and gonna have a baby soon! so cool la....i bet the baby would be so cute and adorable like the mommy n daddy kan? wont it future parents? happy happy thing for you guys!! *much love*

AFTER EXAMS

today is the day of fun. exams are over, i have a great weekend that i dedicate to absolutely nothing but rest my head after a long week studying for arab midterm. something tells me that its worth it but yea sure to hell im nervous of the results. im not gonna think i failed or anything but im just gonna keep thinking ive passed! yeay?!!

i tot of going back home today but i guess i cant do anything when my dad is off meeting doctors right? feel sad all of a sudden now. i want back!!! *pause*

ok im back...a bit down but cheerfully smiling. how weird? let me share something with all of you. *hssshhh* i confess something to someone and felt weird bout it afterwards but can i seriously be blamed? i dont think ive ever felt the same way. not now not never. true la if people say true loves esp the first would always stay as sweet memories. you may have lotsa partners within the duration of finding one but when the first true one comes you'll know.

owh well my blog has become something so "jiwang-ish". im gonna stop cause i feel like i wanna puke when i re-read it. so till later..toorah!! *hUgS*

F*cking Idiots

ok i know im not suppose to use all the nasty words there is but im so freaking annoyed!!! something tells me people can be so horrible to another. this is a moment of truth whereby i hate being myself and just feel like running away from this pathetic life n circles of people. im hitting around the bush i know. coating n under coating. sh*t. this is why i hate making friends and being too good to people. once they know they can stab they'll stab hard leaving you no space to breath. why i feel all this? cause people are so selfish and yet want to potray otherwise. this is so much hypocrisy for a lifetime!!! i wish im back in my hometown, even laid back but at least no one shuts me out like rubbish! city lifestyle? everyone is cruel...look out for yourself and never never never give in if u dont have to. one thing i learn to even survive in this cruel water channel. aggresive is bad but being submissive? knowing people can toy you around? go to helll to those who feels they greater than others. my word of advise to people out there, please please think of how people would feel if u hurt their feelings. especially if u do that to your own friends. have sensitivity in yourself. arghhh this is a waste la. no one will change because of this...ill sleep now!! good night blog...my forever loving space! *mwahs* *hUgS*

p/s: i love my familyyyy!!!! nong, if ure reading this i just wanna tell im fed-up and miss home!!!
p/p/s: syg, i also wish ure here to cheer me up!