life goes around

once upon a lifetime i use to say everything will end up ok. i know it does. i know it will. but when it comes to special moments that u need a break from positive solutions or things that doesnt have solutions....i guess thats when problems comes. u just cant live through what we call LIFE. thats when people start backbiting, killing themselves, and threaten to have suicide notes.

ive come across my friend's blog, and she said she loves all kind of fairy tale that we know doesnt exist. but believing is making it into a reality. i believe in all that. i love what u love Aqiss. maybe we are sadist but that doesnt mean we are uncool kan? lets make a vow, we are to be cooler. ahahah and to remain as gorgeous as now. ahahhaha

life for me goes around. bad or good. its still cool. i guess thats the fun in it. im trying to focus making my layout a bomb. and i better get back to it. i like....layout here i come. love!

Love,
Sambal Belacan Lover

orlando bloom

im trying to figure out who is the hottest of the hots. guys la i mean. well, actually i have decided. and only one name rings in my head now. dearest orlando bloom. he is so hot and that smile is so captivating. ok, some of my friends wont agree to this. as a friend of mine likes adam brody, then there's keanu reeves and the phantom planet lead singer. so yeah...i actually am expressing what i think. i think orlando is perfect. if i find someone like him near me. ill be sure to grab him. unless he is owned by someone else that is. i likeee....

dearest orlando bloom, i love you.....i wish to meet you some day.

Love,
Nina Liyana

sunday morning...

good morning my fellow mates. its been weeks since i last updated my blog. i guess, time is quite limited for us Urban Planning students due to massive workloads. anyhow, just a quick recap of what ive been doing the whole week.

monday - had my design crit session. it was approved! yeay! but lotsa things to re-do la.

tuesday - had to prepare for principles of urp assignment.

wednesday - havent slept yet and submission of principles here!

as for thursday - i was moody and down. i helped the planmic committees to prepare for the seniors' graduation dinner and had to rush to finish up bm essay writing and my car got into an accident. kesian cookie. thank god nothing serious.

friday- the actual dinner. skipped studio that morning and my lecturer got so emo cause we cant be bothered with class. shit. things went smoothly. and the funny part is, i wasnt moody at all.

saturday - cut my hair really short. and i like it. i feel so free!!!

sunday - currently working on my landscape assignment.

to those who are lazying around at home...keep it rocking! i envy you. and may God bless everyone. love! peace!

Sambal Belacam Lover

Another Valentines in My Eye

remembrance of the day in the past when i was a little girl...one song rings in my head. the "que sera sera" song. "what ever will be will be" this is what some people may say. but i know thats the least i want to happen. topic- valentines day. indication of? obviously LOVE. what do people know about love? im writing this post and i know not many people will read. just the urge of expressing is there. often my mates will say, ure beautiful as you are and no need to worry about having people loving you. i know that for a fact that sometimes i think im beautiful. but thats not the whole point. i dont need assurance. but just merely need some excitement i guess...have yet to feel that in years.

anyway, valentines day this year is the same as any other year. spending it alone. its not a sad thing and i dont need pity. LOVE here still remains. even with or without a partner. its a day for giving love to EVEN your friends & family. i have both around me for now. im happy. full stop. if people are to always judge this day as only for lovers. they are demolishing the value of love. u dont live with only your partner. u dont devote yourself entirely to them. i know i dont. and guys always see that as my strength and something that holds them back to come near me. i guess some guys just want a girl that could be their display doll. some trophy. or someone they can overpower. im not like that at all. maybe born with a conservative dad and a modern thinking mom,i grow up into a balance child that knows how to stand up for myself. if ure searching for a girl that would just say YES to your every say, uve come to the entire wrong page. im an ordinary girl with dreams. i talk for myself. and have the mind of my own. im not rebellious. but i want things to be equal. i guess that fair aint it?

talking again on the subject valentines. a friend sent me this msg of LOVE. its says, "love is not only made for lovers; its also for friends who trust each other better than lovers. HAPPY VALENTINES DAY!" so have u got that kind of friend? if u do, i presume that your valentines is complete. dont go thinking your valentines sucks just because you dont have a partner. love is subjective. its given to everyone with the kind heart. arrogance will destroy this. u have the heart to love? love people around you. someone special will come eventually. no need to search. naturally it flows like water. if it gets stuck at the rock cause by any obstructing cause. then mayb he/she is yours. its called fate. just have faith. we will flow thru. respect yourself before embarking into this journey. if you dont. ull sail into the doomed.

take care you people....and have a VERY HAPPY VALENTINES!! i love you....

Lots of Love,
Sambal Belacan Lover

a day in my shoe...

my shoe stinks. ahahahha NOT. its just some amusing facts i do to myself when im bored. today out of all the day i feel so crammed and tired and bored. had lectures from the lecturer on various topics. this seldom happens in the studio. cause u see, studio is a place of fun. where u minggle with the rest of your mates and completing your work. i like the atmosphere of that but not today. after the holidays, the studio seems dull in a way. it wasn't as cold as i remembered. maybe the day was too hot. or maybe its just me feeling weird. i dunno. its my inner thoughts that is playing with me again today. hello "thinkabelly!" thats another nick for my thoughts. HA HA HA HA HA.

got a msg from wandy this morning indicating he did well in the interview. what else does a girlfriend need right? is to have her boyfriend get what he wants. im proud of him. and i bet his parents are too. they should be. he's all good. still good. he told some good news also. he may send in money for my ticket to NZ. so cool kan? i wish im having holidays now. i know ill immediately go. well, thats me! over excited bout stuff at the beginning. ahh...enough of that!

guess...there's nothing else to complain...i just need to finish up my 2 assignments for the moment. QSBE and my design concept. i hope ill succeed. i know i will. cause im the SUPERSTAR! ahahahha...toodle loo everyone. *hUgS*

p/s: that was short for a day in my life. ehe ill update tonight! if la..

Love,
Nina

i wonder.....

at the very last moment u always wonder what it would be like if u had done something differently. i always do. im in the central of emotions now. i preach about love and how to handle it in a proper way but i dont act as what i preach. I guess being a preacher aint that easy huh? yesterday was a mark of victory... manage to persuade something to do something. but dont ask me what's the something. im never telling. relationships for me are going strong. love each other so much. yet lotsa hassle bassle along the way.

what i wish? something good in return for what ever sacrfices ive met. rollercoaster going round and round and i feel dizzy. but yet im alright. things are mounting up. piling every day per inch. im drowning in my own thoughts. i know this post sounds depressing. but i know also that im not depress nor unhappy. im just being normal. trying hard to express in a way that my thoughts doesnt hurt myself nor others. i love life. i thought its sucky. but for real, its full of miracle and magnificent things that has yet to be explored. see the sun, we only use the effect of light and heat..but the particles? its beyond reach. the moon shines so brightly every mid-month and lovers intwinned themselves towards it. a mark of love n embrace. how i wish my days are full of that. but im happy as it is. i dont need changes if it isnt for the best. i just need love. its spelled easily but to obtain n cherish it will be one mighty job. i guess i have never appreciate love. not in my life before or now. i take things for granted. but im happy.

so who's selfish? i am. no other people can match that up. i keep loosing..but i gain. that is what makes me confident everything can be earn over and over again. i guess i just realise my mistake when its actually gone. when the love never shines anymore, when the sweet melody dreads the song, when the birds stop chirping to the sun, and when the moon seems so dim for the first time. Have u ever felt that way? i know i did. i know i got depress over it. i know i cried. but one thing i do not know...will i change for that matter?? people often say they will. but do they actually do it?

life's so short to wonder and look at the past and regret everything uve done. what we really need to do is grab chances and do our best. walking on a field of corn, u should pick the best corn u see and u can never turn back. so the similarities to life is..once uve missed that special chance of getting the best as u always delay daily the encounter of grabbing it at that precise moment, once uve realised it. its gone. and no way we can turn back and say to life, i just wish i could have gotten a second chance to do it all over again. real life doesnt work that way. thats why humans are full of regrets. live your life to the fullest. and always see your glass half full.

let people love u, care for u, cherish u but never take them for granted or not be appreciative. remember, the cycle of life goes around and may not come back to the very beginning. we may die in the duration, we may have another cycle. we never know. so appreciate people around you. as i am trying my best to....

Lots of love,
Nina

human vs. animal

animals can be classified into 2. wild and tame. well, obviously tame animals are most preferrable. but i like wild. like the tigers in the jungle? those are way much cooler. i love tigers. full stop. eehehhe. no pedigree name there. thanks to sarah. well, basically what i wanna say per indications with the topic, i can say that sometimes human can act like babies but far more worst like animals. dont use their head to think. im frustrated. yes. but that doesnt mean im not rational. so to tell you the truth, i hate these type of people. act as such nothing in this world matters more then their personal wants. shit. think la. dont hurt other people just for the fun of it. rationalize. cause thats the best policy. anyway, i was saying again. i love to have a pet at home. not cats but dogs this time. that cute little puppy in the window. so brown so cute. and to tell you the truth ive been wanting it since high school. or more to say since kindi. eheheheh so, conclusion here is...human vs animals? theirs no win-win situation. its either u care for the animal...u be an animal....u act as human....or u nurture both values. i pick last. brain is a beautiful thing god created for us. nurture n protect it from harm! i love....

Lots of Love,
Nina

Awal Muharam

Tonight is the beginning of the month "Awal Muharam". A marking day of the end of the Hijrah year in the Muslim Calender. I hope my fellow muslim bros and sisters did their prayers and recite the doa of year end and beginning of the year. I hope this brand new year will change me. Not as a whole completely but bit by bit to make me a better person. As well as bring you benefits as a whole. And i end this post with a doa i got through sms earlier this evening.

"Ya Allah! grant us kindness & iman; Ya Kareem! give us Patience & Love; Ya Rahim save us from Jahannam & reward us with Your Jannah! Amin! Happy New Year 1427H"

Assalamualaikum W.B.T

Lots of Love,

Nina

Kejahilan Kita

selain daripada shark fin sup. saya makan abalone dan sayur-sayuran. makan malam hari ini sedap seperti malam kelmarin. hari ini saya rasa ingin untuk berbicara dalam bahasa melayu. telah menukarkan blog skin saya kepada ya lebih sofistikated. cantik kan? betul ke ejaan itu? BM kerjaya telah menampakkan belang nya. Saya telah mula meminati B.M. apakah itu B.M? BM atau nama panjangnya Bahasa Melayu merupakan bahasa kebangsaan Malaysia. Tetapi tidak tahu mengapa, kita lebih mengutamakan bahasa inggeris sebagai bahasa perantaraan lebih-lebih lagi dengan pertukaran sistem bahasa komunikasi di institusi-institusi pengajian tinggi. Adakah B.M tidak boleh berkembang maju? atau sekadar di ketepikan? Setelah menonton rancangan televisyen "Songket bersama SKii" di kaca tv kelmarin, saya mendapati penggiat seni melayu adalah drpd golongan Peranakan bukannya Melayu secara lahir. Kenapa jadinya begini? Tidakkah Melayu mampu untuk menjadi penggiat seni warisan kita sendiri? atau kita begitu jahil akan nya? Melihat urat-urat benang yang menghasilkan sebuah songket yang bernilai membuatkan diriku terharu akan kelembutan dan ketelitian kraftangan kita ini. Sampai bilakah Melayu harus lupa diri dan memberi jalan kepada bangsa lain untuk menjadi perintis seni warisan masa hadapan?

Ditulis oleh,
Amanina.....

p/s: well, this is only a thing i felt like writing. No offence to any race. Its just something i feel should be written. Sorry to those who i left hanging n ive offended this far. Take care now. *BIG LOVE*

goodbyeee....

have u heard the song - goodbye my lover sang by james blunt? that inspires me for this one...

its been awhile now that this has been going...i nearly lost love because of this. and i nearly gave myself because of this. way back in history it was different. things were blunt. things were happy. things were shadowy. things were sad. but anything measured to this is crap. i know you people wont understand. but only the love i nearly lost would know why im writing this. thought it was for real. i got into a confusion over this. but after tonight, its clear. dilemma, no dilemma. everything is crystal clear. emo nina no more. but fine rejuvenating nina. so here's my last goodbye, to a friend, to a lover once, to a dreamer, to someone whom i cared up till the very last drop, and to the bestest n worst thing that happened to me in those days. predict this, ure a magician. predict it not ure normal.

to the people i cherish, love and owe a lot : have a peaceful life ahead. changes in the lunar calendar n in the moon makes everything worthwhile. Islamic calender coming to an end. Celebrate it and cherish the very moment so we can pray to God for a second chance. Amin...

Lots of love,
Nina

something to shareeee....enjoy!!

Your Seduction Style: Fantasy Lover

You know that ideal love that each of us dreams of from childhood? That's you!Not because you posess all of the ideal characteristics, but because you are a savvy shape shifter.You have the uncanny ability to detect someone's particular fantasy... and make it you.

You inspire each person to be an idealist and passionate, and you make each moment memorableEven a simple coffee date with you can be the most romantic moment of someone's lifeBy giving your date exactly what he or she desires, you quickly become the ideal lover.

Your abilities to make dreams come true is so strong, that you are often the love of many people's lives.Your ex's (and even people you have simply met or been friends with) long to be yours.No doubt you are the one others have dreamed of... your biggest challenge is finding *your* dream lover.

world around me

hello again!!!!!!!!!!!~~~~

nothing to report back today. i just wanna say to everyone that i feel ancient after going to our national library today (with daydeck as usual). the place for lepaking way back in the early 2000. where ppl meet ppl and not forgetting dating...hah! i use to like going there as a teen. i mean im not that old la. just 20 but ive grown so mature that i couldnt recognise myself sometimes. instead of cuci-mata-ing like i use to back then, i was there to do a real research for my assignment. thats why i feel so lame, boring n ancient. i saw all these school kids sitting at the library with their form 3, form 4 and spm books. and i look at mine. SHIT! urban planning? town planning? laws? street design? im oldddddd...i hate the big 2-0. and i hate my campus. hate my lecturers for giving too much work to do. and most important is. i hate my life without wandy. ala syg....come back k? mwahs. i love you. ok before i get all mushi and i bet no one needs to know or read the jiwangness i have. ill let it be like that. im gonna enjoy my chat with people i love now and the rest of you...get a life! stop reading my foolishness blog. love ya! *HuGs*

Lots of Love,
Nina

what happened?

ok..i know its been a long time since i updated this little black book of mine. i love myself now. just a note. ehehhe

just a little update on what happened while i was gone form writing. its not in a correct order. im writing as and when i remember things. ok? so here goes....

my car got hit. lost my side mirror. sian cookie.wandy went back today n i cired. got a diamond dust ring from wandy before he left n i cried again.im emotional.u must know that by now.did a suprise party for my syg. it wasnt succesful but its still good.went clubbing that night too. came back at 6. my leg was hurting a week ago.limping and i feel so handicapped.thansk to friends i survived.had an incredible time doing projects with my legolas look alike. was tired the whole of last week cause of massive assignment due dates. and this list goes on...maybe ill update later?

im in a state of wreckness. my eyes are swollen n puffy after the cry. 2days in a row. and i have flu. hate it. now im going to be happy. typing all those history is very sad cause everything relates to one person. and that person is YOU. syg u so much...mwahs.

p/s: im leavingggggggggggggggg.....mwahs

Lots of Love,
Nina

im very sick

wounded...sick...all the bad feeling...i am enduring. how can i be sick at the very last moment. yummy choc cake to bake. graphic scrap to do. and tons of assignment to finish. damn im tired and all worn out. i need a break. mayb head for the beach and indulge myself with the heat n sand? or maybe what i need is a break to a spa. but im feeling great bout something else. i hope everything goes out right for me later.....btw, somebody is getting old. ole ole ole....

Love,
Nina

recoveringgg...

i bet my friends will scream when i announce this. but seriously, i dont give a damn. im sure anyone deserves a second chance. so today was my 2nd anniversary with wandy. dont get me wrong, its not 2months but a serious long winded 2years relationship it has been. i broke up with him this morning. after considering a lot of things. but suddenly change my mind after our anniversary dinner. i guess when ure in love no other thing in this world matters. people face hardship now and than. so here i am, trying to endure and accept his mistake. maybe one day he'll do the same to me. i love you syg.....happy 2nd anniversary and many more to come. INSYAALLAH. we have open a fresh chapter in our live for starters. hopefully nothing messy will come our way that we couldnt solve. if this thing happens again next time. im sure to hold tightly to my guns. so, to my lovely friends, i guess thats done huh? thanks for all your support and kind loving care. i love u with all my heart. wouldnt succeed if it wasnt for you girls. BIG HUG!

p/s: today is recovering...2moro is a blast for the future.

good night.

Love,
Nina

cookie

i finally decided to call my car cookie. its not because i think my car is delicious in any way. but i have always wanted to name one of my valuable thing cookie cause it's cute. thought of giving that nick to my future anak but i changed my mind. mayb ill come with a better on along the way. so for now on...my car is named - COOKIE. plus its all white now. u can say it has lotsa cream on it. ahahahha. so here i am naming my car cookie. hope it doesnt offend anyone. cause i likeeee....

good night everyone...hugs

Lots of Love,
Nina

my guitarist

[CELEBRATION]
hello! sitting at my usual spot again. new year was fab! went to OU street party for the countdown and it felt like a reunion as i saw my other 2 cuzz (dewi n kak marinie) celebrating there also. the rest of the gang was down at Cynna in KL. Wanted to meet up with them but then stupid things came up. but even so...i still enjoyed the very last bit. HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!! mwahs. hugs.

Hit for peterpan concert the next day 010106. that was another fab! despite the stupid things i had to go thru within the 2 days. -arrival- it was raining heavily when me and wandy arrived at the stadium. the "tanah" was so muddy. my shoe was ruined. but its worth it after seeing them perform. ahhh ariel is so damn hot. those six packs are incredible. uki is someone u would fall for too. aiya. so cheeky la me. ehehhe but its fun!

[AFTER PARTY....HEH!!!]
last night, sue played her guitar and sang for us (ppl who wanted to hear). im stuck to this one padi song..yea thanks to her. couldnt remember the name of the song but it is stuck in my head now. and did i tell you "she's fantastic?" she is..she is...i wanna learn toooo.... thumbs up for my dearest guitarist. she's so cool la. i bet if i was a guy i would feel threaten by her.boleh tackle any girl siot.mayb she was born for the stage. "another song is ringing in my head...." ok ok...no more compliments. later makin besar bontot sue. ehehhe i know she will love that to happen. eyh sue?

[TODAY]
when to class with sue cause my car is with wandy. tired of walking la. dont likeee... i miss my car already. talked to appa after class asking if he landed safely or not. he did. thank god. going to search for cheap fares later on. see la kan. nak balik kuching la!!! i feel slimmer now. suddenly jak! apa jak la. afterwards is our tourism meeting with the whole studio. i know it will be chaotic. trust me. lotsa em will never agree. better keep our fingers cross. my class too much dilemma la. later tonight will be going to mambo jambo kot...see if nong is up to it or not. mayb can get in free? ehehehe im lovin' it. ok la....

[END OF CHAPTER]
it became a long blog suddenly. so im bored. can i like stop now? ahahha...bye ppl. dont bother bout this crazy person. take care and have a nice life!

Lots of Love,
Nina

Feeeeeeling Numb

numbness is something u feel when you dont even care anymore what the situation will be. right or wrong? its halfway there. no one cares. im numb now. i dont feel a thing. only cold. alone. afraid. and despair. negative vibes are coming to me. why? imust be too tired to think. i love the endurance of projects but to finish it......you answer.

im sick now..tired to top it up and im still searching. thanks to those who made my life easier. toodles!

Love,
Nina

opps LUPAK...

hey....just wanted to say this....

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!! MAKE YOUR RESOLTUIONS RIGHT THIS TIME U GUYS.


Love,
Nina

Jom Makan?

im currently sitting in the kaed lab now after printing my landscape planning assignment.and online now. i was sleepy in QSB this morning due to lack of sleep and i slept thru break. and im hungry and wanna eat. please help me. i need to eat. i want to go to the cafe now and indulge myself in those helathy food that keeps me trim n firm. ahahhahaha. ok...i nak gi makan. hungry seh!!!!! take care everyone.

p/s: i hope sarah wants to accompany me. *gRin*

Lots of love,
Nina