Kek Lapis

Memang rahmat berjual bulan puasa nie. Allah bukakan pintu rezeki untuk semua. Alhamdulillah. Selamat Menyambut Aidilfitri. Maaf Zahir dan Batin.

Human Resource

I'm apart of this Bank's Human Resource, someone who provides them with human capital.

So, what's the latest development? I want an increment in monthly remuneration!

Daily Juadah Berbuka

Al Rajhi is the first bank that I know of; gives out kuih muih and dates to all their staff for berbuka (tak kira la you non-muslim / tak puasa). Everyday we will get 1 air kotak and a small packed of kuih each. Some may bring home, some may just eat it there and then. I think, this some what makes everyone feel equal. Maybe. Eating and drinking the same thing. It brings back good old memories of Ramadhan while performing my Umrah years ago. You see people giving, sharing and sometimes fighting to get a a little piece of Rezeki. Did you know, helping to distribute drinks and food even if its not from you, would let u gain pahala? -learnt from one of the tazkirah I went last week. Alhamdulillah. So, apart from everything else in the office, I think the best time of the day for me would be when you receive this. I've helped give them around once, and seeing smiling faces and when they say thanks is just heart warming, eventhough u know most could afford more than this. Selamat Berbuka!

Dark

A melancholic day with no strength to go through the entire day. Even the clouds are slightly dark this morning. I've yet to see happy faces around and there's no smiling greets. Just plain people doing their regular job day in day out.

Buuutttt...It's Friday! The day supposedly people reminisce the frutiful days of working and then celebrate whatever goodness come.

Buuuuuttt.....It's not happening. So many tension, so many qualms. I wonder if this would ever end for me, changing it into the rightful positive energy I hunger for. Maybe finance is just not my thang! Its feels as Dark as 1929 Wall Street Great Crash.

Spaghetti Chicken Meatball

I need to learn how to do this AGAIN because my meatball was disastrous yesterday. Thank god the sauce was delicious, so yesterday was a passable menu for Sungkey.

Work today is slow. My immediate leader went for a meeting. So now I'm back at catching up on my manual, policy and guidline readings. :)


p/s: I miss my Mom and Sister, they were suppose to come this weekend however other things made them stay in Kuching.

p/p/s: I hate that particular other thing!

Saturday and Sunday

Saturday -I successfully made Ayam Masak Lemak Cili Padi, Ginger Beef and Caramel Pudding for Buka Puasa. Among the comments I got yesterday was "Kak Nina, your daging reminds me of how Aunty Leha use to cook them"- my brother; "This is by far the best masak lemak I've ever tasted"- nabiha. I am assuming the comments are bias because duhhh, I'm the only one who will cook for you kids when you come home. *geleng kepala* However, I think my biggest accomplishment was with my first attempt to bake Oatmeal Soft Cookies (pic below). Its niceee... I swear! Sadly some got burnt, I forgot about the last tray. LOL

Sunday - Went to OU to have buka puasa with Sarah and Munshi along with Tee. I ate by far the Biggest Beef Burger I've ever seen. But I find the burger very dry though, they should hire me as their food critique. I'll advise them on how to make it taste better! *giggles* Nevertheless, it was a fun day today because I don't have to be on my feet for hours to cook~Yeay! Mission today, accomplished. Suntong tutok from Kuching also very nnaaaaiiiiccee!

Ramadhan Mubarak!

In the midst of waiting for Ramadhan to start, I would like to take this opportunity to wish all my friends especially Soraya, Kuhaz, Syaza, Radhi & Ida also including those who come across my blog, Selamat Menyambut Ramadhan!

May your Ramadhan be fruitful in terms of Ibadah and be fully blessed by Allah. Don't forget, Terawih starts tonight. Thanks Appa for reminding me. :)

p/s: Hopefully I get to eat this before puasa esok. *cross-fingers*

Need a Cooler?!

Name: Dumpster Pool. Location: Park Avenue. Idea: to create something that is environment-friendly. Final Concept: Brilliant! I wish Malaysia has this too.. *sigh*

still waiting

my cousin is stuck in the traffic since 530 to come to KL. im still waiting. when can Malaysia not have jam?

kembali pening.

the 6ers

It's exactly 6.30PM on the dot now and I'm feeling light headed. As I remembered I didn't have a drink nor took drugs however I feel just entirely that. hurmm... I blame it on the cough syrup I drank last night. Tee pre-warned me not to take em, but I was too stubborn to listen. Now 'gik rasa kau'. Dang! faster ah come my ride. I am falling asleep!


Stuck here in a non air conditioned room makes me wanna puke.



HOME! I CAN ALREADY SEE YOUUUUU.....

Rosy Cheek

It all happened when I saw him walking outside the restaurant, with his lost boyish look trying to figure out what to do next. I was washed by pity and tender loving care. So I offered a friendly wave which changes every structure of his entire face painting an angelic smile across the face. As for most would despise this but how could I? when I was too mesmerized by him? He came and sat, talked and finally cornered me into a situation where I'm left tongue tight. I could swear that my cheeks were "literally" burning due to embarassment. This goes alongside a string of questions that I just don't know how to answer. "How did you meet him?, What makes you fall in love?, How tall is he?, Does he give u gifts?, Does he listen when you say things or scold him?" ....and the conversation went on for approximately an hour. However today I knew in my heart that I have learnt something valuable. He indeed has a caring heart and he only seem mean because of his status. To uphold that status is a huge responsibility. Hence, today has changed my entire perspective about him. A beautiful ending to an O-K day. Now, time to play.

WORD

Conundrum - def: anything that puzzles

Just by that single word, it reflects the truth in ME.

Dreams

Today I woke up fresh and went to work early. I've never felt this good for the longest time. While sipping my morning Milo, I thought of the things my cousins used to tell me "once you start working, thats your life and gradually the work will consume you. Changing you either into a bad or good person". My response was simple; Bullshit! But today, I can't agree more.

In kindi - I wanted to be Sleeping Beauty; which I LOVE to do during all the free time I have now. (partly I've achieved it...LOL)
Below 12 - I wanted to be a fashion designer because that time I was an overweight kid who couldn't wear nice clothes. Than, I was determine to make clothes that fit bodies like mine. Can you believe that I thought of this when I was small? Weird much!? I think YES.
2001 - After PMR. The only dream was to get the hell out of the boarding school. Successfull - went to day school for the next 2 years.
2003 - Just after SPM: wanted to be an architect and got a chance to do so but blew it. Typical.
2005 - Registered for a different course which I think is so much better than my intial Architect dream. I was taught to design and do policies for TOWNS! I felt so POWERFUL. *evil laugh*
2009 - Graduated with a dream in Mind, U.N as my ultimate career goal and I don't care how I get there but I will be part of that.

So decided to go for Masters - applied but never left the country. I think I'm partly brain damaged.

Currently - Employed and Stuck in a foreign bank with a Boss who thinks my 2009 U.N goal is Immature because he is against Social Workers. WTF? Just a Note: That's not what I wanted to do. *Haish. He said, "I saw you as this immature young lady with extremely good potential. Thats why I hired you". I know its a compliment but I felt offended. Oh well, at first I did like my job here but now I'm just rethinking.... &

Still wondering if 2009 goal is achievable or not. Hopefully next year I really get to leave the country to pursue my education. *Cross-fingers*

Just plain old ME with Big Dreams (as usual),
+Nina Liyana+

ARB

hello. from the ARB computer.

this is the only social networking allowed. pathetic? somewhat yes. :)

so..the blue is sky! adios amigos!

Just me...

One day when i see the light ill walk to it but if i dont, ill stay where i am. No one can hurt me. No one can make me cry. im strong eventhough i know no one could understand why. ive weep but its alright. everything is fine. will they get justice? i know im pretty ugly. thanks. we are what we are.

xoxo

thursday...

"plain truth" is addictive. This is a recommendation to my friends who loves reading. The author is Jodi Picoult. Her writing is cool and full of anticipations. So if you have time, try to read it. I took 2months to finish due to the fact that working life tires me down.... so people, stay pretty, handsome, hot and cool. 143.

p/s: even how busy you are in life, put some love into gaining different knowledge out of your study scope. i tell u, its worth it.

p/p/s: BOND trading anyone?

taking back whats mine

It has always been mine, never yours. It has always been my destiny, my happiness, my pride and my joy but never yours to claim. Nothing is impossible, for only those who are brave enough could survive this agony. Agony created by an earthling called YOU.

Anguish is never a choice but it comes naturally. One day this feeling of mine will go away. One day it will change into something really beautiful. Similarly to the beauty butterflies posses at a short time span but still has an impact. Love is great, so is hate.

Therefore people, its time for us to 'bertakafur'..... good luck! Hopefully we'll make a wise choice. *full stop*

Little Mis-Concept

the concept of success is...

it is already there (in our lives). it depends on which path you take and how fast you'll arrive to the preferred successful destination.

however, my cup of tea is swirling... success is indeed somewhere inside. i know i can do it.

thanks for the gift ma, pa. i love it!

dumb dumb

i think my brain is deterorating. i think my mind wanders to every place it wants or can think of. i think my head spins too fast at times that i feel like puking. and maybe at times my brain fails for a reason. perhaps? but i can still remember the day when my brain was in good shape. is it the age or have I just stopped using it properly? oh blimey me....help the wanderer!

The Girl behind the mask

One fine day, a girl walks and cries. her heart bleaks.

what happened? she slipped and tumble. thats why.

but today she is strong and independent.

will people still judge her and will there ever be pure bliss at the end of the tunnel?

how she wish, this is not another concrete jungle leaving people to suffocate.

the timeline is ticking....the path is set. one day it will spell out victory.

so, Cheers! to the happiness awaiting. With patience, real essence and joy we shall be there.