SORE

Colours on the rainbow to cheer a lifetime. Cheerful notes to sing the lullaby. Few tear drops to keep a sore heart. Tossin' and turning to get things right. Pieces of jigsaw puzzle on the floor to match the empty spaces.

Im feeling numb inside, sore around me just by thinking what ive done. But one thing for sure is my shield havent collapse to make me regret what ive done. maybe when the storm outside has gone, the sunshine will come out and greet me cheerfully! Selamat Pagi Dunia!

Brand neu Day

Came back from kl last night, now enjoying the every minute i will be getting in kch. going to watch star wars after this! so coooollllllllllll... anyways, didnt know what to say more. was just excited to come home but was suprised to hear from my mom that a friend of mine got married few weeks back and gonna have a baby soon! so cool la....i bet the baby would be so cute and adorable like the mommy n daddy kan? wont it future parents? happy happy thing for you guys!! *much love*

AFTER EXAMS

today is the day of fun. exams are over, i have a great weekend that i dedicate to absolutely nothing but rest my head after a long week studying for arab midterm. something tells me that its worth it but yea sure to hell im nervous of the results. im not gonna think i failed or anything but im just gonna keep thinking ive passed! yeay?!!

i tot of going back home today but i guess i cant do anything when my dad is off meeting doctors right? feel sad all of a sudden now. i want back!!! *pause*

ok im back...a bit down but cheerfully smiling. how weird? let me share something with all of you. *hssshhh* i confess something to someone and felt weird bout it afterwards but can i seriously be blamed? i dont think ive ever felt the same way. not now not never. true la if people say true loves esp the first would always stay as sweet memories. you may have lotsa partners within the duration of finding one but when the first true one comes you'll know.

owh well my blog has become something so "jiwang-ish". im gonna stop cause i feel like i wanna puke when i re-read it. so till later..toorah!! *hUgS*

F*cking Idiots

ok i know im not suppose to use all the nasty words there is but im so freaking annoyed!!! something tells me people can be so horrible to another. this is a moment of truth whereby i hate being myself and just feel like running away from this pathetic life n circles of people. im hitting around the bush i know. coating n under coating. sh*t. this is why i hate making friends and being too good to people. once they know they can stab they'll stab hard leaving you no space to breath. why i feel all this? cause people are so selfish and yet want to potray otherwise. this is so much hypocrisy for a lifetime!!! i wish im back in my hometown, even laid back but at least no one shuts me out like rubbish! city lifestyle? everyone is cruel...look out for yourself and never never never give in if u dont have to. one thing i learn to even survive in this cruel water channel. aggresive is bad but being submissive? knowing people can toy you around? go to helll to those who feels they greater than others. my word of advise to people out there, please please think of how people would feel if u hurt their feelings. especially if u do that to your own friends. have sensitivity in yourself. arghhh this is a waste la. no one will change because of this...ill sleep now!! good night blog...my forever loving space! *mwahs* *hUgS*

p/s: i love my familyyyy!!!! nong, if ure reading this i just wanna tell im fed-up and miss home!!!
p/p/s: syg, i also wish ure here to cheer me up!