Sunday, September 25, 2005

completely pointless

greetings...

im not complaining, nor am i happy with anything. life has been the same ever since my boring campus life. it evolves around work i don't love. where are the people i love? i need back up. i need support. i need to straighten my life back. who cares if im a whore? a bitch or any kind of crude words there are to describe it. but i was happy with it. now? hypocresy, butt rubbing and stuck up the nose trauma everywhere. people are such nosy people. from back then and now. sometimes i wish i could tell things about myself to people. the real me and leave out the negative judgements in the end. someone i love once said, "i love this other girl too much to leave her for u." but in actual fact. its me who was there first. how could he. how could he? comforting moments are beyond reach nowadays. even if u think ure in the comforting zone, think again babe. ure NOT. people say miracles happen. without doubt some wishes do come true. only thing u need to have is faith. but im too tired to think about miracles or come true wishes. im too tired and half hearted to even think of beautiful things around me. i see ugly faces, i see ugly scenery, i see the ugly me now. if anyone could see the end of the road and what ever will happen to you personally, i wish u all the happiness u might or might not need. im too depressed to figure anything out. failure of heart disease, blood vessels pops, sugar level increases...those are diseases that could be cured. what about the matter of the heart? can it be back as normal like the sugar level? or will someone just die and never breath as normal as it may seem few moments backwards. im sitting here, thinking of ideas to create a new environment for myself. wishing everything was as it is back 10 years before. no hassle, no worries. just few injuries. if one day, someone turns me down and i dont cry. i want who ever knows about this to capture that moment. that moment mayb the last in my entire life. its a sign of me collapsing of time. of me going away for good. or mayb im just really really tired and sick to care. if this time comes. watch out for me ok? i might do hideous things. i love my life. but i hate it at the same time. stars seems very dim to me now. everything dull. so, dear friends, find your happiness. dont be like me. im an old women in a young lady's body. see ya in heaven or hell.

lots of love,
Nina

Wednesday, September 21, 2005

SUCKY SUCKY SUCKY

hello earthlings that i love! greetings from another earthling that is annoyed by UIA/KAED's computer lab. Its not just inefficient but trully unreliable. we cant even have a decent online session in this lab. its either there's something wrong with the computers or the connection. The problem is, most of the comp are not useble. How are we suppose to be very technology intact without cyberspace? sucks aint it? well enough of that.....it was just to express anger. hah! sian radhi....

its been a very busy week this week. projects, datas, analysis, mapping, and etc. what else is there? lotsa things have to be done. presentation is on friday, and too much stress in the air. start screaming! shouting! crying! stop! im rambling without notes.....shit. i hate this feeling.

well enough of everything, im going to browse around to make sure i occupy my time before the next class with something fun.

take care everyone. ill update everyone with the latest news from the suburbs here (well imagine UIA la). sharks! toodle loooooooooooo...

Lots of Love,
Nina

Saturday, September 17, 2005

Blues Terengganu Kita

ok, i dunno what to write. but the title of this post is taken from a title of a malay song im listening to right at this moment. its kinda funny cause who ever thought of writing a song with lyrics like "tengok penyu bertelur.." and chorus thats sounds so pathetic like ganu kiteeee. ill sing the tune later if i meet anyone of u that is curious of how it sounds like. alright?

what else did i do today? woke up very early...to me la. around 9. did nothing but watch tv till noon and called wandy up. fell asleep afterwards and re-decorated my room. to those who has been to my place, no more old arrangements guys!!! so cool. now have to get the bed and cushion covers. anyone interested in tagging along? suppose to do that earlier today but my bestfriend daydeck was sick. had to go to the hospital. talking bout this, i havent check on her. better do it soon.

so alright then, im going to continue my work now. tons to do and read. have a nice life people!! im so much in love now. and miss my cuzz so much.

p/s: come back la pokkk....so lonely la without u around. dah la have to stay 3weeks alone. sial seh. take care of yourself there ok pok? *hUgS* dont forget disneyland!!!

Lots of Love,
Nina @ Im Gorgeous

Wednesday, September 14, 2005

typical

monday was a tiring day, and today is a typical plain ordinary day i go through any other day in my life. monday was bentong trip. today is just lazying around. mayb gonna change my bro's jeans in zara. but so lazy man!!! and yeah, im like sakit perut now. so toodle loo everyone. mwahs.

hugs n kisses,
Nina @ Gorgeous Living Creature

HaH!

Monday, September 12, 2005

sUndaY

journey of the day.....

i finally went shopping for new cloths today!! yeah..so happy. bought lotsa cool stuff. but there's like more to buy. bought 2 new jeans, overwhelming tops that i can imagine how im gonna dress it up. and all sorts. im a happy lady today. spent lots i can say. thanks to mama. mwahs mwahs mwahs

ate at mdm kwan's today. it was delicious. not entirely the best for me but it was as delicious as the price la. so worth paying. later today we ate at marche for dinner. i can say this is my fav. place to be. even thou my fren gunt wont agree to this. he said its way too expensive to eat. i have to agree. but im hooked by its yummy, mouth-watering waffle. so nice! yes...and not forgetting i saw one hot guy. an arabian guy kot. not sure.

owh while at midvalley, i also tasted this healthy drink from the juice bar. it is called berry burst or something. so nice. ive never liked fruits but this is entirely different. it tasted like rainbow-ish. even if ive never tasted rainbows. ahahha. just a thought. yikes!! plus i cant stop looking at the guy behind the counter. his english...aiyo. so best one...plus with the looks and attitude? i vote him as the next malaysian best bachelor. ahahha. so ive met 2 gorgeous guys. how ah? aiyer...too ugly to try out la.... :(

ok, to sum everything up. i had a wonderful day despite any other dreadful things that comes around. plus i wanna talk to daydeck now. love story seh....yes!! *cuddle with my mashi maro*

p/s: missing the person that gave me that. mana you ah syg?

lots of love,
Nina

Sunday, September 11, 2005

dAyS

Friday - Mama and Amyrah arrived in KL at 9pm. went strait home. unpacked. realised kak tina my beloved maid sent home-made apam from kuching. ~yummy~ its been ages since i ate those. even writing this blog makes me want it. chatted with mama for awhile. need lotsa catching up to do bout the family. everyone is happy.

Saturday - woke up earlier than any other weekend. mama made american breakfast for MOI but she, my dad and my sis ate nasi lemak. how weird is that? i have my usual mama's fine scramble egg, baked beans, hotdogs, hash brown and toast. afterwards, all of us went to jalan tar to get my rust coloured saree for raya. this is due of my previous saree was too grand or wedding like for raya. ehehehe. after a bit of shopping here and there... well we actually ventured going to genting highlands. but because it was 330pm when we finally drove there, we only stayed till 530. about an hour up there before coming down again. tot of bringing my sister on those rides but too little time for fun. so we decided to come again the following day thats is 2moro. on the way down, we bought lemang and rendang. it was ok la. id prefer my mom's receipe. not being fussy. just that, my mom is here...so why wanna eat out if u can have home-cooked meal? eyh? so, ending of the day whole family had to watched VMA on tv because i was watching it till the very last minute i changed to BBC to watched the true story of the Besians children. so sad. i cried ok!! so if anyone have watched it, they'll know.

so here i am writing this blog now. nothing else to do. and next thing, ill call wandy. been missing him since yesterday. havent heard from him. so yeah. better call before i go nuts. till later...

Sunday - Brand neu day, full of suprises. is it the shopping spree or genting again? most propably shopping because my sister fell ill just now. kesiannnn.. 2moro is something to look forward too...yes yes yes!!!

ok la...hugs n kisses everyone. good night!

Lots of love,
Nina

Wednesday, September 07, 2005

What happened?

errmmmm....

here we go again. today, woke up late as usual. the sleep pattern ive come accustom to these few days. who can say anything. i need quality sleep what. i didnt do anything extraordinary today. just laze around the house and watch tv. programme after programme. kinda sick of everything already but loving it at the same time. so how ah?

today also is the end date for UPSR (ujian penilaian sekolah rendah) for those who doesnt know this yet. happy for my lil sis, myra, as she succesfully finished answering all the papers but waiting for the results would be another headache not to my sis alone but my mom will be very stressfull. mark my word. which mom wouldnt kan? so, as the rest of the world is enjoying their lifetime at this right moment. my whole family is like praying n wishing for the best outcome we could get. not saying that my sis didnt work hard for it but public exams sometimes has this thing for luck. we would be suprise that some people dont get grades they deserve. so im not going to say anything more but be there for her n pray for the best results. maybe she could beat my result? who knows for sure?

owh, and this evening i called wandy up and we had our usual daily talks. but he said something that suprises me. he said my voice is sweet today! how flattering can it get kan? but couldnt manage to get hold of new idd to call him tonight cause with daddy around, its very hard. questions after questions and i just hate answering them! plus can u believe there's none at 7eleven? sharksss...

today is also ganesha vinaiyagar sadhurthi, a day for the elephant god for the hindus. went to brickfields just now thats why i got to know of this festival. everyone was dress in their full indian suits going to the nicely decorated temple and there's even an elephant earlier that has attracted lotsa kids around that area. the chariott passed just before we arrived so we didnt see any la. the next one will be around 330am. couldnt wait that long..so i headed home after visiting my aunts and dinner.

so here i am, at home listening to punjabi songs, the songs ive heard over my parents wedding a year ago. so yeah, its kinda weird to have punjabi songs in my laptop but i dont care...im uploading it into my laptop. its kinda fun to hear bhangra and makes u want to dance. i guess i am attracted to indian elements. people can even give me a saree for bday and ill like "wow...geez...urghh" speechless but in the end id always say "thanks...i really like it.." to happy to continue. ehehehe..but if lengga or punjabi suits, ill like go wild and scream thank you. its kinda exotic dont you think? colourful materials, beautiful accessories and etc. i just love the make up! look at aishwarya rai's make up for instance. so sharp and nice. ok la, im going to stop babbling bout this. this thing is too much for anyhone else to endure. ok ok...stoppping....toodles!

till later....enjoy!

Lots of love,
Nina

Tuesday, September 06, 2005

AiShhhhh.....



**me and sarah on the way home**




*my funny looking socks*

Pixma

Fuhhh...its been a long time since i wrote things in here. Seriously, my time is too caught up with work. pathetic work and not mentioning boooringgg. wished ive chosen another course...sHisH!! ok ok, now lets get down to business.

since wandy left, ive been keeping myself busy with trying to finish my assignments as early as i can or ill occupy my hours with sleeping. yeah i know its not good but i just don't want to think of him. to not have him around me just hurts. cant cope. so ive indulge myself in work, work, work and more work up till now. it isn't all that bad la for these past few days cause my short holiday have started. and coming to the end already. hah! stupid uia.

ok, the real story is, i went to midvalley today with sarah. it was ok la...nothing fancy. just 2people chilling and being miserable when we cant afford to buy the things we wanted. well, what do you expect? every single price has gone up as the sales are just over few days ago. so u can imagine how we were. but yeah, despite everything, i manage to buy myself a pair of dorothy like shoes. its pink n black so cute and nice! i LIKEEEE....


*my new shoe!!!!*

to some people, maybe uve seen this somewhere in the local store...so yeah!~ i got it. ahahhaha so funny but im loving it. and i bought some new funny looking socks from sox world. all foot wear. next ill go buy my jeans and tops n skirts n the list goes on....so here comes the never ending.....bla bla bla

we even saw alia and haniza in mv. and it was a lovely suprise. so as usual we did nothing interesting but head home and do nothing till just now i went out with my dad to eat at fatty crab. the must go place to eat. i ate A LOT. so figure la how tasty it is. and with this i end my post....toorah!!!

pop ye ye!!

Lots of Love,
Nina