blurhhhh

angry moments. sweet moments. all are crushed in me. sipping my blood dry little by little. i have hatred for my friends(not all la). they dont know it cause im a coward lion. i nag a lot. but not do anything about it. aiyah. life. im sadist.but im happy with myself.dont judge me. or ill say "ouch". dont mind this post. its just to past time. i love you darling. hugs.

GIS Lab

classes started yesterday. today is my first considered i terpaksa ponteng yesterday. anyway, we didnt have UNGS 2040 today. dunno why. so now in the GIS lab waiting for Prof. Alias our lecturer. me and computer are bestfriends. have internet connection lagi tue. so cool. and this is the first class im attending for this semester. and im a SENIOR. aiyah....i feel so old. but its exciting to see those juniors running around. he he he ok lah, before i get caught using the net to blog and banned from it..ill go. bye

weekendersss....

wow. it has been a hectic weekend. partying like hell. i cant even remember the last time i really slept. rainforest was the bomb. everyone should come again next year. or mayb make it a family event. i like all this togetherness. other than the party facts, nothing really interesting happened. except for my future business in mind. and negotiation. battle of the band is coming up in kch. and i get to be part of it. wanna score big bucks. aiyah i hate this business side of me. i get so busy. and i neglect people around me. ***im sorry syg...

uni started already but because i couldnt get tickets to come back on time plus my back is aching like hell...im sick. so i terpaksa ponteng one day. i hope i wont get summoned or anything. but to hell with it. im in love with kch. i want to be here all the time. ive been so involved in my hometown's event. and i pretty much enjoy it. cheers to the NEW me!!!

oklah, catching a flight in few hours. good bye kch. ill miss you. *mwahs*

talk the talk

this madness, this glory of sadness is sipping through my veins. i wish i could just fly. just fly out of the galaxy into the other world. i hate u. i hate u too. and i dont want anyone. go away illusion. go away imagination. i want to feel safe in the arm of an angel but not you. i hate u. hate.

unfaithful

And he knows im unfaithful and it kills him inside to know that, im happy with some other guy. I can see him dying. I dont want to do this anymore. I dont want be the reason why. Everytime i walk out the door. I see him dying a little more inside. I dont want to hurt him anymore. I dont want to take away his life. I dont want to be a murderer.....