whats in my head

i see things around me and i stop. i see myself in the mirror then i stop. i see my friends sobbing, laughing, and smiling, that makes me stop and wonder about this is life. the world is so full of miraculous events that we are sometimes too busy to notice. i always thought life would be easier when the IT world comes around, but what happens is actually not what they predicted. world has became complicated by day since the new evolution. it has became violent, inconsiderate and too modern for any human minds to handle. and yet we want the modernity to continue. well, call me old fashioned but this is the truth. instead of being able to spend our time for more than just one thing a day, we end up being busy over a particular detail. finding money is the only thing that matters in this world. you dont have money, no one will look up to you with dignity. how i wish life is much simpler. like the one narrated in our childhood story books. where life of a family is full of love and simplicity. where did the beauty go?

we see corrupted youth out there. no one is stopping them. why? cause we are all corrupted inside and the corrupters. why make a big fuss of loiters, drug addicts, bribery if we ourselves dont change. preaching is good. but when u cant preach to yourself to do good, nothing u say to
others makes any difference.

i always tell myself not to talk a lot. just keep quiet and listen. but i just cant do just that. i have so many things to say to each and everyone of you. and so does i hope you people will tell me things that makes me learn. especially my friends. i have so much to say but i am just holding it in....what do you have to say about me?

i see a friend of mind being idiotic, it hurts inside. i see my friend being foolish, i weep inside. and i see all my friends not happy, i feel bad inside. i see my friend ruining his life cause of stupidity, it bleeds me inside. there's so much of life than those you have done. you could do better than that. truthfully. i may look like i dont care but do you know exactly how i feel inside when i see you hurt? when i see you not doing anything to prevent yourself from hurting? i can say a million things to each of you to help out, but if you yourself wont do anything about it or realise, i raise my case. cause to you i have love for, to you i care about, to you i feel close related to. you people are the source of my life. that i may want to keep a life long more.

families are your guardian angels. to keep you safe from harm. thats what my mom especially, did for me. but being a rebel as i am. i ignore the fact of just that. but i realise now the consequences. ill try to change. its not going to be easy but ill definately try. im sorry....

where's my love fairytale? it has gone all wrong. the fairytale gone wrong. its going to take time to get out of this entire piece of sh*t cause the wound was already there before it got cut again. but i never said i didnt have anything to remember or reminisce about. i enjoyed it. eliminate the bad things happening. i enjoyed every minute i felt love with you. if its true or not, i dont care. ill remember it as the way i want it to be remembered. one day ill tell my daughters to stop and think first before accepting a friendly smile from one sweet guy. and thats you...