Wednesday, May 26, 2004

Me, Myself and I

A cute baby girl has been born on the 13th of June 1986. That was 18 years ago. The little princess was the pride and joy of the house cause its been ages since the house had any babies. Everything was given to her from endless love of the family to toys that anyone could dream off. Her dress collections were massive. She was the living princess. Nothing to complain. Being fed everyday. Being taken care everyday just like any other princess would be treated in the palace grounds. Nothing lesser than that.

As she grew up, she became one adorable chubby girl. When to a normal school and studied there for 6 years till she finishes her primary 6. Education wise was incredible. Have been an ALL A @ STAR student and truly wasn't a burden to her parents. She was bright alright. Her determination was the thing that kept her going all the way to get the best. When she was in form 1 she went to one of the convent school in kuching. Stayed till the 5th month before she move to a boarding school.

From that day forward she changed into someone different. It wasn't like the olden days. Those boarding school tought her some good stuff but at the same time she picked up some bad stuff from it. She was in the middle of trying to figure her own soul. Staying at a boarding school thought her how to be independant dan very self reliable because we can't never rely on people. Everything, you have to do it on our own. There, she met her true friends. Nothing can challenge the way you find friends through boarding school. You get to really know the person inside out. Other than that, she learnt how to give and take, how to be patient with one another and learn to defend herself when needed. That's the beauty of it. But the negative part of a boarding school is, the INFLUENCE of friends. You get lazy now and then cause when you see other people not studying...you tend to not study too. So its like some kind of pattern in the hostel. You hear people scream and shout plus getting crazy. You don't get enough sleep cause you stay awake to chat with friends till midnight. You dont score too well a grade when you're doing all that. It was all pity but she manage to get through it at the least of time. But it was truly a great experience that could not be bought anywhere else. One thing no one should regret of having.

After the PMR examinations she moved again to a convent school but for now its different. The convent school she is in that time was her old convent's rival school. It is funny to think about it but it was pretty good. While she studied there, she became one of the best in class. Another history of getting A's. The feeling was incredible. Making her parents proud again of her is one feeling no one can describe. No words are stronger than that feeling. It stayed that way till one day LOVE came into her life. It wasn't that she has never experience love before but for that time, it felt like the real thing. She loved that person with her whole heart. With him she was happy. No other relation made her as happy as that. The guy stole her heart away like the swift wind. He was the best she could ever have in her life. She loved him, she adore him, she cared for him, she was even too loyal for him. Those were the fine memories she had stored for him in her heart. No one could take that away from her even for a thousand years. Never crossed her mind she would lose him but as we all perfectly know, love should be two sided not just one sided. As the malay saying goes "tepuk sebelah tangan takkan berbunyi"...it was hard for her at first. Its a lie to say that she moved on immediately cause she DIDN'T. It took her a long time to forget cause her love for him was so deep. Deeper than the blue ocean. *aHaKs* But Alhamdulillah she came back to her senses and move on in time to study for SPM examinations.

After getting the results that ain't good enough, she thought she would never get into any local uni. but GOD powers are beyond questions. She survived and got into a good University instead. She was so thankful and greatful that Allah hears her prayers and gave her another chance to prove that she is better off. For now, she is much more a better and stronger person. Her determination is there and as this is written she is hoping the determination will always be there so she can finally get what she has been dreaming off all this while. To be successful. ;)

P/S: Everything she has been through and gain all this while she thank Allah for giving her chances after chances and also very thankful to be given a very loving FAMILY. Alhamdulillah.

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