suprisingly annoying

ok, i know this maybe a BELATED post blog as i was intending to write this last thursday but the electricity was cut off. since i didnt save it so now im sitting here again writing another yet fascinating write up of the year! yada yada

[thursday..what happened?]
i was up early and doing god knows what but surely it was hot the night before. cant really sleep as it was purely out of hell fire. well not to exaggerate or anything but thats how i felt (as if i know but who cares?). when to class as usual nothing out of the ordinary. well not until it was noon around 3pm. suddenly this one girl that used to call me names and swear me up her throat came up and said sorry? it was suprisingly good to hear but as i talked somemore with her she became suprisingly annoying!!!!! Ya Allah..serious i say! i can feel she trying to make me feel bad but guess ive encounter people like this more than once in my life so im just being annoyed. owh my god..this is the only thing i remember for thursday? owh ok la...wont add up anymore to make me a nagging mom. ill just live it here for people's review...ehehhe

BIRD WATCHING ENCLOSURE

today was a hot day. drank gallons of water just to keep me up the surface of NOT fainting. we did our presentation on our enclosure today. it basically didnt go well for my group. the wind manage to pull of some parts of the model and i know this means lesser marks. DAMNIT!!! but i really hope it survives la after the whole time constructing it. stupid base couldn't fit. Plus my lecturer was saying...hey why is the tree trunk green in colour? i was like...madam, its a not supposed to resemble a real tree trunk. we are giving it an abstract look. aiya!! takut also. thank god we pulled some strings to put sense in it. geezzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz
ok after the presentation we did have fun so that ain't bad at all kan? laughters in the air even with the hot wheater that roast our butts like hell but surely this day is unforgettable. Doom + happy...what more can we ask? Despite the lame n sadding part. I love my job and mayb anxious to have more...or maybe not? who knows for shhhuuuRReeee? *wink!

toodles and night everyone....

p/s: im sad to see the boards at the dumpster but well formerly know as cece-sally is off the hook and ready to go....sue, kuhaz we have done it! love for suckers u say...ahahahha

ok cun

"The measure of your life is what love you left behind when ure gone"

Life is precious people say. No doubt. Enjoy it to the fullest and we'll be ok. Love people with the capacity of your heart and mayb...just mayb we will get it back in return.

if u have a reasons to love someone ur loving him/her by mind but if u dont have a reasons to love someone then ur loving him by heart...

This is crappy! Sorry.....

something good

for a change im gonna write something happy in here...well the type i always want people to think of me but so far it has been very very hard to accomplished. sitting here makes me bored to death..haven't even started on my project yet but who cares? as long as im happy! out of all the days, today has been quite a cool day to have fun. has its ups n down but yeah im enjoying it to the max. nothing to share but well just writing in this space to update my very own e-journal to accomodate people's time with reading this never ending babbling session of mine. thank god my mom doesnt visit this journal of mine. if not she will be more tha furious to read bout my "so true" life. hah! her jewel n sweet young princess turning emotional n crappy at the same time. plus with BOYS problem everywhere. she won't approve it even in a thousand years. well thats my mom. the rockiest most gorgeous looking mom ever on earth. i love her (with a special tone).
oklah...guess i better get moving before my cuzz leaves me behind while they go and have fun watching movies. thanks guys for wasting your time reading my blog! love you guys a hell lot! *mwahs
p/s: nong, if ure reading this..just wanna let you know i miss you already. take care! *hUgS*

*ermm...

just need straightening for now...need my life back!!!

Craking Brain

Crying is something good for a reason i dunno how to explain. crying for me is the best medicine as i can recall back towards all the things that occured in my life...enough crap..reality here..yeah ok!

today was crappy in many odd ways...woke up every hour since wandy's last call last night till the crack of dawn. dunno whats wrong with me.the only thing i want to do at that precise moment is to soak myself in hot water so i can feel good bout myself again. when to have a bath around 9 before going to my first class of the day. it was ok.nearly shed a tear when my ustazah talked bout KEBESARAN ALLAH. didnt know why but my heart just ache a thousand bits per sec. it just touches me to the deepest core but gain back my strengh to wash the tears away. i feel neglected and so lonely...the emptiness space is getting bigger.

~~LUNCH~~

after lunch everything came back to normal...not really but yeah it was quite ok. slept thru the 2 hours gap between classes and wandy called so tears fell at the right place and i felt good afterwards. after waking up i walked to class early than usual. was still down cause the loneliness hasnt gone completely away from me but im copping. i was the first to arrive in class even if i took about 10mins to finally reach my class. stairs. stairs. stairs. tiring actually but how to complain right? my classmates started to come to class at 230pm. no big deal. hours after that i became normal once again. laughing, cracking jokes n yada yada.

as for now i feel lonely again..i seriously need a counselor..but not someone from my uni for one thing. no way hozey. anyways i guess thats about all...im going to go back to my room now n rest. but before that i maybe (i repeat) maybe go indulge myself with food. my bestfriend in the whole wide world.

toodles...i love the beautiful world...

Crazy!!

Actually im sitting next to the rockest most sexy little twit ive ever known in my entire life. she just accepted my invitation to be a member of the spice up team! how dodgy can i get? ahaha it took you more than a week to accept babe! its so frustrating... but nemind ill live with it!
well ok lah im trying to enjoy my song now...have fun with the nick nacks paddy wack give a dog a bone! Love ya babe!

Tolerance

normally i would be so unlucky with love...everytime falling back into love even as i dont realise it. when i least expect it to be perfect it does but when i want it to be? it would end so fast! *siGh* having meet various people make me so confused. sometimes i just thought it would be perfect to do something but in the end its just a total wrong step! i wish i had those six sense.

have i seen pigs fly? of course i do...but only when im with one particular person! so sad aint it? having fall in love with lotsa people but only experience the best of it just once? so pathetic but so true at the same time! i dont think i would ever feel the same way again. i really want to feel it again but its just that i dont feel the sparks anywhere in my other relations. I know im not blocking it cause ive tried my level best. and im being very untrue that one particular person.

how i wish i am not in this situation. so help me god! everytime i wanna say what i really feel and be honest, something would held me back from saying it just because i feel pity or i feel i would regret it later? love is the matter of taking risk and im obviously not taking any! i dont wanna lead a life out of lies...people would say just tell the truth but its not that entirely easy to do so..especially when the person ure supposed to love all your heart love you with all their heart n would do anything for you....am i bad?

to end this conquest i would just have to wait! maybe it wont be all that bad....sorry sweetie! i know u love me so much! im so bad for you! *hUgS*

pick up from a friend

Once upon a time, there was a teacher and his student lying down under a big tree near a big grass area. Then, suddenly, the student asked the teacher,

Student : Teacher, I'm confused, how can we find our soul-mate? Can you please help me?
Teacher : (Silent for few second, than he answer) Well, it's a pretty hard and easy question.
Student : (Thinking hard) Huh???
Teacher : Look on that way, there are a lot of grass there, why don't you walk there but please never walk backward, just walk straight ahead. On your way, try to find a beautiful grass and pick it up then give it to me. But just one. Student : Well, ok then... wait for me... (walked straight ahead to the grass field). A few minutes later...
Student : I'm back.
Teacher : Em, well I don't see any beautiful grass on your hand.
Student : On my journey, I found few beautiful grass , but I thought that I would find a better one , so I didn't pick it up. But I didn't realize that I'm at the end of the field , and I hadn't picked up any. Cause you told me not to go back , so I didn't go back.
Teacher : That's what happened in real life . What is the message of this story?

* Grass - is people around you
* Beautiful Grass - is people that attract you
* Grass Field - is time

* In looking for your soulmate , please don't always compare and hope that there will be a better one . By doing that, you'll waste your lifetime , cause remember " Time Never Goes Back ". It applies the same in finding your ideal life partner, your suitable career or business, therefore the morale is LOVE & grab hold of the opportunity that you have now , don't waste time!

~There Can Be Only One~

Doubutsu Uranai Results

You are Brown Wolf, who is innocent, pure and honest type of woman. Although you seem like a difficult person to get to know, and the way you are indifferent to your surroundings makes you seem like a saucy person, you really are generous and do not think much about your own advantages.You are not a sentimental sort of person, and will go on no matter how difficult it seems. You are also able to take on lots of duties at once.You can not stay in one place for a long time, and will go on moving on to new environments. You weakness is that you lack endurance.You are born good natured and a hard working person. But you can not carry things out efficiently, and lacks neatness. This makes you have a disadvantage. Nevertheless, you have great inquiring mind, and to something that interests you, you will go investigating into it deeply and thoroughly. You will be able to find and come out with your own unique idea. You don't care what the others think of you, and will stay faithful to your own way of living.You don't look back to your past or keep on dreaming about the future. You stay in put with reality.You are rather optimistic, and can overcome any situation quite easily.After getting married, you will be a family loving devoted housewife.

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SUPER SIZE ME

Why are Americans so fat? Two words: Fast Food. What would happen if you ate nothing but fast food for an entire month? Filmmaker Morgan Spurlock does just that and embarks on the most perilous journey of his life. The rules? For 30 days he can't eat or drink anything that isn't on Mcdonalds menu; he must wolf three squares a day; he must consume everything on the menu at least once and supersize his meal is asked. Spurlock treks across the country interviewing a host of experts on fast food and an equal number of regular folk while chowing down the Golden Arch es. Spurlock's grueling drive-through diet spirals him into a physical and emotional metamorphosis that will make you think twice about picking up another big mac.

"WOULD YOU LIKE FRIES WITH THAT? WILL NEVER SOUND THE SAME"

A documentary that everyone must watch...this is totally horrifying and i dont think i would want to go for fast food nymores!! its disgusting...vegie lover coming up! ahahahha...SAY NO TO SIZE UP n NO TO FATTY!!

JIGGLY FRIGGLY FRIENDS

Everyone in this whole wide world would die without friends to cheer them up or just to have someone make silly crazy things with them. In my history of friendship ive come across a lot of different kind of people. Some are just plain annoying, some are fun to be with, some are plastic and the list of people goes on never ending. I finally realise that we cant escape from people like that even where ever we go in this whole wide world. But one thing for sure there will at least be someone out there that would understand us and willingly be our soulmate. I know i wont be able to move on without my friends especially in all those hard times.

First dedication goes out to D.A.Y.D.E.C.K.. I met her about a year ago through friends. I dunno...but ive been very close to her ever since. She knows a lot about me and vice versa. We've been helping each other quite a lot for a new friendship binding. I know if we have been in the same college now we would grow closer intwinned with each other but distance makes it a bit difficult but hell yeah im appreciating her friendship. One of a kind i must say. But dont even mention about her shyness cause she indeed is ONE!! i dont get it how we could get along especially when our charateristics are very different. Too much differences for a good friend. ahahahha... but i still Love ya babe! and Thanks

Hands up for Zahie! No one is this entire world could understand me better than her! She is wicked, she is funny, she can talk non-stop, she is never-ending "agony-aunt" for me! I love her like i love my teddies. Would do anything for that friend even if she irritates me quite a lot but she knows how to handle me. The one touch no one has. My secret keeper most of the times just like my dear friend Daydeck. Despite her wickedness she is actually a very sweet girl that i couldnt compare with. The only wierd thing about her is she hardly would say a guy is cute or handsome. But once she gets an eye on someone it would surely be the most handsome n cute guy uve ever set eyes on. So you can always count on her cause she has perfect vision! SERIOUS SAID! Thank you for those incredible 6 years we had all along!

My partner in crime would be my best cuzz NONG. We did everything together most of the time. I would say we've tried everything when we are together. From the tiny little bits till the huge ever stuff i could imagine. I wouldnt exchange her with any other cuzz i could. She is my friend, she is my saver, she is also my helper! I can tell her anything without feeling shy. So ill keep it that way! *hUgS*

To sum up...my friends here are my JEWEL. Maybe as my journey goes around i would find more JEWEL to add in....yeah?

Thanks to them im here standing strong! Love you girls a lot!

i dedicate the song "INDEPENDENT WOMEN" to you girls!

Maximum Love,
NiNa

Feelings

I just cant understand the hearts of men
They tell you they want you and then they leave you
This is the first time, you`re special
I believed those words and I was so happy
You should have told me you didn`t like me any more
But I couldn`t see that and you just rushed me
Although I will curse you I`ll still miss you
Since I am a girl, to whom love is everything
I heard that if you give up things too easily
To a man, he will get bored with youI don`t think this is wrong
A girl says that she will never be fooled again
But she will fall in love again
You should have told me you didn`t like me any more
But I couldn`t see that and you just rushed me
Although I will curse you I`ll still miss you
Since I am a girl, to whom love is everything
Hey babe
The pain..........
It`s not enough

**it ain't easy to forget and move on**

BACK

im back...and finally back home!! been back home..supposingly im resting now but tons of work to finish by the end of the work..wow college life sucks man.. i thought it would be FUN...but surely not in my matriculation centre!! everything is restricted to zero percent!! sharks i wish i am outside!! good night everybody.. im dull...dull as ever..toodles

Meeeeeee...

Aloha the world of writing. Sitting at the same place at the cc as usual boringggg...no one to talk to. Tomorrow we have solat awareness programme that surely i wont give a fuck of.not trying to give my back to my religion its just that all this programmes doesnt make sense to me. dahla have loads of homework to do. thats why i kinda hate it. the time length is from 8am til 11pm. what da hell? dah la cannot go back home...i feel like im in another boarding school that rules n regulation are the main thing. geez i hope ill get over it with flying colours. my english now also tunggang langgang due to my tunggang langgang head. what ever it is im trying to have a great time here! wish me luck...ahahahha...toodles ya'll. im off to sleep now. Night.

p/s: nasib im going to the national art gallery 2moro...yippie!!!

DAYDECK

this gurl...what can i say? my becoming bestfriend i guess..she knows everything bout me from the tiny bits to the huge things. now she is in melaka...far away from me!! sob sob... sedih aieee...i want her near..come la here to me deck.. :( miss her so much. wish u had accepted that offer before to come to UIA. at least we wont have to be separated n far awayyyyy!! ahahaha....i sound like a lesbo already..ew ahaha just miss my dearest friend here...come visit me sometime ok? love ya loads dearest.. mwahs mwahs.. toodles

home sweet home

good afternoon!! im home...home sweet home..nothing can beat staying at home with the right texture of everything. in 3 hours ill be in the hostel again. SHARKSS..thank god my project is finally finish. what else to write here? damn i wanna sleep. take care u guys! mwahs toodles.

crazy

ok..im rushing but as usual i tend to delay what i have to do. as for now im sitting at the college cc that i seriously am not familiar with. im just sitting here to finish my research. get up on the 6th floor to mandi n etc. have to finish my sketch development tonight n put clours. i hope ill be fine. guess its hectic uni life. especially architecture students i guess... toodles for now. love everyone of you who's reading! thanx...im in despairr....

p/s: this cc sucks cause u cant be comfortable here doing ure stuff..there is always people who tend to wait like idiots...enuff said!!

2nd Week...

Ok..i know its been awhile since i write in this blogger! Too much to do so little time. For the 2nd week it wasnt all that bad. Firstly ive accepted the way things are at the hostel. From the people, to the room condition, to even the TOILETS. I finally can take my bath in peace even if i have to close my eyes everytime i have to enter those cubical toilets. SHARKSSS...iM so pampered!!

If before i am not so used to REALLY performing the 5 daily prayers (miss here and there!)but now i am happy of myself that finally i did try doing it. And suprisingly i pray to each WAKTU. Alhamdulillah. At first it is hard especially to generate ure lazy bum to do it..but just after 2 weeks in uia ive started to be kinda rajin to pray. Thanks to my roomates who has always remind me to PRAY PRAY PRAY and wake me up from sleep for SUBUH prayers. See...how good i can get? ehehe...

What else happened around the week? Well, classes havent really started yet but some did especially classes on thursdays n fridays. For the first few days of the week i just had to run from one department to another to get hold of class timetables - english, graphic communication, enviromental design 1, FKM (some sort of pendidikan islam in english), economics, maths & stats, also fardhu ain (can you guys believe i failed to the fardhu ain class just because of one stupid question? damn!!)TIRING LA!! So, when thursday came i started my first GC (graphic communication) class. my lecturer is one small, young looking female! She seems nice and all but i can say from my perception she is the type that will say what ever is in her mind no matter who you are especially if ure work is not satisfying. For my Ed class thats is environmental design i have brother muhammad hisham as my lecturer. He is nice but at the same time very very strict! he is also one funny guy! On my first day to class, i had to introduce myself to the entire class that mostly are attented by seniors. So you guys can just imagine how i was standing in front of the class. And i was the only Sarawakian so it makes people more excited to ask questions especially my dearest LECTURER. geez he can talk a lot.

First time in class, we've already given projects to do and by monday i have to submit at least 10 to 15 sketches. Im trying and i wont want to dissapoint myself for not trying. Good Luck to myself. Guess ill go now to start off...Toodles.

p/s: damn i miss him!! you know who you are! im yours in many ways!!~~

First Week...

University, everyone's dream place! Registered last monday (14th june '04). First day wasnt much, just had to clean up the UGLY room n get ready for "solat berjemaah"-maghrib isya'. After that, we had to attend a briefing about placement test. It is compulsory for students who enroled in the University to sit for English n Arabic placement test. This will ensure the period of time each student has to stay in the centre till they move to UiA, Gombak. Came back late, around 12 something. Eventhough i am very sleepy but the new environment that im not use to just yet makes it harder for me to sleep. The uncomfortable bed,the hot room, the new bedspread (hate it!), and new people in the room (not use to it). So, i CRIED....so pathetic of me. ahaha

2nd day - as early as 430a.m i woke up to get ready n mandi! finally i entered the bathroom. To my suprise, the TOILET is HIDEOUS. i cant stand it. broken tiles, not so clean water. Strait at that precise monet i wish it was a dream n im back at home. Im exaggerating..i know that but what do you expect? i hate ugly toilets! ahahah...After solat subuh, we took our breakfast and by 7a.m we are already in lines of two to go to the field for morning briefing. After that, English PLacement Test was conducted. Around 9a.m. Had to sit for to papers. First is grammar n the second one is essay writing. I just hope ill get through it at least level 4...and if possible EAP strait. So i dont have to study english. Amin. After lunch, we had Arabic placement test. This is funny...i wrte my name n only took 15mins to finish the paper. I dont understand what they are questioning...i dunno ARABIC!! ahahah....but i got thru..i will surely enter Level 1.

Other than the test, it was briefing n singing all the way through. The tiring part is always lining up n walking from one place to another. Plus, its damn hot! Finally 2 days before ta'aruf week ended i met lots of Sarawakian around...if before this i felt So Lost in my own world but after meeting few sarawakians...i felt more like home. Thank God i found them. Alhamdulillah...

So now, im home...my clean bathroom n water, my comfy bed..and GOOD FOOD...nothing can beat home sweet home.

Good night..toodles!