movie review

i love X-MEN : THE LAND STAND. a movie u must watch. gurantee to satisfy the need of action. even da vinci code couldnt be better than it. aiyah...i like!

river of emotions

HAPPY+sad*sorry*enmity+euphoric

*hatred+LOVE*

~ostentatious-loveless*deliberate~bashful+

stupid-smart+missing~

>wanting+needing*tedious-boring*chirpy+LONELY*isolated>

dilema-like+tired~energetic-

dope,dreams^wonder-magnificent~setia+confused

*HOT+cold+CARE>grumpy~

uncomfortable*uneasy-queasy,thirst

+beautiful+CINTA^lovely

>WADEVA....."\/\/"

<*>

wadeva it is.....time for us to get straight with ourselves.

take care people.....

M&M's

people say kfc is finger licking good. but M&M's? wow wee mouth watering. ok i may exaggerate more than i should. but this is what chocolates do to people like me. ive not eaten chocolate for like....ermm half a year? tonight is a marking of a natural delight. i like.... and here's to the alcoholism! and chocolatism....!!!! aajaaaaa....

love all of you! *wink!

Love,
Nina Cullen (eyeh?)

my fav book review

ok...im trembling while typing this review. i want to say many things about this. once i saw this book "twilight by stephanie meyers" in BORDERS bookstore last month, i was captivated by it. but didnt have the cash to buy it. cause i was stuck with other 2 books. but 2 weeks ago. i came to my friend's room, kuhaz, and saw this familiar book on her table. i nearly screamed when i saw it.

so, i finally finished reading the book on wednesday after finishing my other book. honestly, this book is not close to what i can imagine. i thought it would be just another normal teen book. but i got it wrong. it was the best ever book ive read. the book is the type that will keep u wondering for a long time even after u finished the last page. not to mention the writer make vampires look less scary and more intriguing. some sort gorgeous.

ok, here's the deal. the book tells us the story of a girl meets boy, boy meets girl and both fall in love with each other and finally the girl found out that the boy is inhuman = a vampire. eventhough she knows how dangerous it is. she still goes on with the relationship. how sweet is that? the most interesting part is how edward cullen (the gorgeous vampire with porceline skin...) fight/struggle with his own internal beings. it wasnt easy but he tries very hard. because of one reason. HE IS IN LOVE WITH BELLA (the girl...). dont u just like stories like this?

btw, i cant tell you more than this. cause it will spoil the fun. u must go read this book. up till now im still dazed by it. and if im lucky i might just end up with a guy like that (aiyah...see im even dreaming of having a guy like that?) but i dont mind. i dont mind if i have to turn into a vampire myself just to have a guy like that. true love is...stronger than anything in the world. even for a living vampire. *sigh*

so people...go get this book. grab it while u can. before the movie starts(i hope..) cause it will be the first movie with too many gorgeous people casting. i bet you girls out there will be "rambang" mata after this. HAVE FUN!

i rate this book as 9/10.....my favourite book of the year for the moment.

p/s: i bet ill have another dream of vampires again tonight.....

Love,
Nina Cullen

and so it is....

arrived kch at 10pm. called someone that aint eager to know im here. im safe here. and still wondering why. im no fun anymore. i just realise that. i get emo everyday. and i hate it.

2moro will be the day for the beach. sadly im having my period now. cant swim. but ill definately enjoy the sun. here i come!!!!

good night myself. i hate this feeling. im lonely.

p/s: i am sad. my life is sad. *currently listening to a sad song....*

Love,
Nina

kemenanganku....

kau tunjukkan aku bahagia, kau tunjukkan aku derita...
kau berikan aku bahagia, kau berikan aku derita....

itulah kemenangan untuk diriku.

mohd irwandi ammegie, kaulah trofi ku. trofi kemenangan yg tidak dapat di tukar ganti. sememangnya ku telah jatuh cinta sama kamu. hanya kamu.

i'd love to say "i do..."

Lots of Love,
Nina

creating an illusion...

one thing i know i cant bare with is UIA. i want to be very far away from here. literally speaking la. not technically.i wish i was meant for another uni. but i love this uni also. so how ah? i got my result today. and it sucks! 0.1 drop. and im frustrated. i wished it could be better. but nooo...it had to suck all the life of today. NOT. back in UIA makes me feel so...i dunno, lost! i want to go home. thank god im going home this weekend. i love you everybody. im going crazy.

BELLA LUNA will be my anak's name...ehehhe *hUgS*

LOve,
Nina

im a fan...

of brown...pink...black(makes me look sexy and slim at the same time)

and of all the colours in the world. makes my life cheerful

of THE O.C

of Orlando Jonathan Blanchard Bloom

of Magics and anything that has to do with it

of MYSELF

of a Mini-Cooper

of ....and other things that is worth being a fan of. DUH!

cheers!

what the heck?

people say my course is good. can get good source of money. but thats what they said about any other courses too if u were to ask. years ago, they said civil was the best and worthwhile. then came up iT. now what? the medicine era? aiyah...so tiring la all this course choosing. might as well stay home and wait for the money to fall from the sky. but that aint happening aint it? so there they were the lil kids wanting to grow up (tuija jak sidaknya...) and us adult wanting to be children again. less hassle, less messy, less HEADACHE. and i want to think everyday will be the same...me playing the barbie dolls or "masak-masak" and not think bout business deals and making money. i think thats why PeterPan just refuses to grow up. OH THE CLEVERNESS of me he says....HAIL THE CARTOON CHARACTERS! they are so cute and happy.

the other things...

(at a.lily's house on the 16th)
the minute i entered the house....

a.kiah : sik nampak kurus pun...
nina : ah? mena ka?
shit ive lost like 20kilos already and u dont see it? - in my mind la...

but i still managed to crack a smile. but then suddenly when i went to send some stuff to her the next day she was like...

a.kiah : eee...kurus kitak, nina oh? *she smiled*
nina : eyh? sekdala...ntah.
aiyer...wussup with this lady? so fickle kah? or just being nice to me?
im so confused...- playing in my mind again.

was depressed for a minute when she told me i dont look like ive lost any weight. but there goes my brother saying...

boy : iboh dgr bah cakap nya. a.kiah bah. palak sik betul sikit. *he laughed*
and i just *sigh* and didnt say anything till we get home that evening.

many things ran in my brain...doing flip flop, mind tricks to me. and i was paranoid of how i look. and also not to forget i sleep in depression that evening. but i can still hear my mom's conversation with my dad on sunday night.

mama : pa, kiah told something to our daughter.
appa : what?
mama : she said she didnt look like she lost any weight. nina was so depressed.
she still is thou.
appa : how u know?
mama : boy la madah...sapa gik?

that was it i heard...didnt hear anything else as i lay on their bed that night. pretending to be fast asleep that later on i actually did feel asleep. till the time came to send my dad to the airport later that night. so i didnt say much that day. and not till today. im avoiding to see ppl. only close friends. suddenly all the ugliness i feel comes back.

aiyah i was so happy with myself until that statement. stupid. but still am. in smaller proportion. *gRin*

old conversation

ok!

this time my mom occured a sound.the slightest that makes you think so much.

we (my mom and my siblings) were gathered in my mom's room earlier this evening. was watching our favourite indonesian tv drama "DIA". sappy drama that is. if you haven't heard of it. pity YOU! cause its kinda good to sit down and watch it with the whole family. spending quality time even it isnt so much great. but its still family time!

ok enuff. actually before we went to barong tinuk (so cool la this place..i shall bring you one day!?) for dinner, my mom pass a statement that her anak-anak should marry a foreigner. so may be better phrase cute gorgeous men and women. cause her theory is; so we shall never get ugly children that has flatten nose and weird eyes. or something like that. so, she said to me...maybe you should consider getting an org putih boyfriend. or latino. or even indonesian with good features. ahahahah. that was funny. while she was refering to that my brain starts working and running to find any available person for me to start with. and there came up felanie's name. ahahha *nong if ure reading this dont get me wrong...he's so adorable and very hard to resist...thats all!* my brain was playing mind tricks with me again. all this fantasies of having good looking boyfriend is so irresistable. but i have yet to find one. im evil. *sorry syg*

afterwards, we went to dinner and bumped into my other family members. what a small world kuching is. so we ended up eating together. the 10 of us. food was delicious and there was another round of post-motem of the anniversary party. gossiping again. as usual. but funny thing is, i realise my family has this love-hate relationship that makes me wonder how we actually can stand each other for so long. hah! blood-tie.

weird thing happened....the topic of gorgeous people came up again. i think my family is obssess with "org kacak". we can never be bored of them. we eventually will be mesmerized by the fact that someone gorgeous is standing beside us. nasib tak drooling....ahahaha.

so ending...we like gorgeous people! cause it makes the sun shines brighter. to me la. up to you to judge. i guess one day ill consider my mom's suggestion. or will soon find one. im gorgeous also what! wow...i actually said that. good night everybody.

toodles!!!

Love,
Nina

revatalizing....

let me tell you a stroy of last weekend. 8th of April. A date of my aunt's and uncle's wedding anniversary. the function turn out well. thanks to everybody involve that is. +US+ ehehehe it was a fun night comparing to the months work some of us had to do to prepare it. especially my cousin Kak Long. She was so dedicated man. No one i know can be half as hardworking as she is. To the rest that contributed to it, aiyah they were simply the best too. Nothing beats us for any family gatherings. "Togetherness tek nakkkk..."

everyone was so beautiful and handsome. yes they were. all in their evening gowns and tuxedo. ive never seen anything more alluring than that. some are just incredibly sexy. including my mom. the guys i must say some of them turn out to be hot. i met this handsome couple. both mat salleh of course. i bet they are mix latino. cause that feature is damn prominent. they were gorgeously paired up. me and my cousins were like "WOW! look at that....they must be the king and queen of the night" but oh well, despite that others were gorgeous too. do check out the pictures folks!

at the beginning, the function was so formal. but towards the end everyone started loosen up. had a few drinks around, and people started dancing the poco-poco. geez, people are just craving for that. and then when it ended, i just realise the only ones on the dance floor at 3am was me, felanie, nong and isk. where did everybody else go? so u can just imagine what party people we are la...i basically jump from one place to another. from the dance floor to the stage. got few stares from me mom to behave. but let's see...erm?? we didnt even care! thank god she didnt blow up. but to round it up. it was fun. terrific.

ending...the 4 of us went up to my room and sleep. zzZzzzz NIGHT!

enough said....check out the pictures aight??!!!

here >>> www.qu33n.multiply.com/photos

Lots of Love,
Nina the Belacanism.....

buzzing like a beeeeeeeeeeeeee......

ok, the past month has been hectic. talking bout workload. nothing beats KULLIYYAH OF ARCHITECTURE workload. a lot? thats not the most suitable term to give. i guess its MASSIVELY BOMBASTIC LIKE MOUNTAIN HIGH A LOT. yeah im exaggerating but thats the whole truth. i can count the days that i really had beautiful sleep at night. and usually these sleep enjoins with beautiful dreams....like a dream that would never come true. *gRin*

final presentation of our layout was last monday. i amazingly and suprisingly PASSED!! out of all the students in class, i was one of the people that passed. i was glad. i didnt expect it though but as usual i WANT it. Alhamdulillah.

also had quizes and midterms...and thank god i did fine. i didnt fail or anything. just average. mostly cukup makan. so im proud. thinking back the times i failed to study. HA HA HA.

ok la...im bored of writing. off to SW this evening at 530 and going to eat at my old matriculation centre for dinner tonight with my friends. i guess that would be something nice for a change......see ya people!!!

p/s: wish me luck for my halaqah final exam 2moro!!!

Hugs!

Love,
Nina the Belacanism....

my current mood

i woke up late again today. what else is new? got dressed and off to class. im wondering what today has instill for me. will it be fun or will it be depressing? i came an hour late to the studio today. lecturers were really pissed. but as usual again...i just BUAT TAK TAHU. they commented on all the layouts. and told us its a crap. i guess i have to agree. i dont think my layout was all that good. *gRin*

so, till the afternoon session, ill just say that my mood is actually O-K. maybe it will remain as such till the end of the day. so take care everybody!! i love you...

Lots of Love,
Nina

bedazzled...

Dear secret admire,

since the first time i saw you i was stunned. you look like someone ive admired from a far. that day mark one feeling in me. it generates something to even feel closer...

oh love, i know u know. i know u dont care. but i just wanna say i want you. ure so near yet so far. out of reach zone u are. yes u are. yes u are. i want something else from you. but u cant deliver. i want you to hear me. yet ure so deaf to know that. i want you to look at me with those mesmerizing eyes yet ure too blind to even notice the existence of me.

i have a lot to say to you. i have moments i want to share with you. but im shy. im never this shy. u made me feel this way. your smile is sweet, your voice sings the lullaby in my ear and your presence make me go wild. i wish this doesnt have to happen to me. but it does. since the first time i saw you...

my love, romeo and juliet is a love story, nothing can separate them. ours is an illusionary. i wish for us to be like that. the love story i will share later with other people. when people ask...i want to feel proud of telling the story of ours to the whole world. i want our moments together to be special. but yet you're far away. so rightful far that our heart never click. can i ask for it to beat as one? or is it too much to ask?

i pray for everyday with you in it will never end. cause i know its hard to realise ure just a dream. very high to reach. and my heart itch of pain. may the sun and rain cure this heart of mine. i shall never plead nor cry. for a moment we left behind.

i love you my syg...for you, are the special one....

Love,
Juliet of broken dreams....

the crazy people

yesterday i only bath once. due to the layout plan. shit...i submitted late. but im ok. still sane and gay. waiting for my friend now to plot her layout. just an introduction to the post...

crazy people do crazy stuff...but we crazy people from kaed is labelled as wierd to other people. my mom use to say im weird. but if u act like that in our kulliyyah...im sure ure NORMAL. my dad says, "u do nothing but either drink or berak...when i call" ahhahah...i wish he knew well enough to revoke the statement. that is what i call weird. i dont berak and eat je. lotsa things i do. including amuse myself with things that are 50-50 certain. but at that precise moment its ok.

times flies like an eagle...it romes and haunt me especially nowadays. i always feel i dont have enough time to live my life. i wish the day has more hours, more minutes, and more seconds. so i can capture more moments. and finish what i left behind. but i know GOD created the time as such with reason. so we dont get bored of life easily. perhaps?

to end this post...i recommend people to listen to this song Aqualung - Strange and Beautiful. i love that song. i sing to it, i cry to it, im happy with it...all emotions are in that song. it resembles how i am with this situation of mine. i know my blog seems sappy and sometimes full of lovesick note. but who are u to judge? im here for the freedom of expression. i want people to view my thoughts. i want people to care...if at least for this very null moment.

goodbye earthlings...im off to indulge myself with work again. Assalamualaikum..

Written by,
Nina

layout plan

today, studio day. was suppose to submit our layout plan today before noon. but most of us are just plain lazy. cause none finished on time. and here i am blogging instead of finishing my work. i like..i love the buziness i am feeling. but i hate the headache i feel everytime i dont get enough sleep.

wish me luck guys!! off to handle the workload. im in love.

p/s: i am obssess.....

Love,
Sambal Belacan Lover

my secret...

last night was an emotional night for all of us.

studied for my Quran, Sunnah and Built Environment (QSBE) mid term exam and im glad its over. it was hard though. *still smiling* & going to my aunt's place afterwards. just to go meet everyone for my niece and nephew's cukur jambul.

we talked things through last night. me and friends. we came into conclusion we want to be happy and not dummies. i guess i do need friends after all. i love and care for them. we've been hurt, we've experience the coolness of love, we are dazzed by it and we've tried most of the things under the sun and moon. and still wanting more....

to those trying to figure out what this post is all about. i advise you to stop wondering and start searching what you want in life. i have my goals now. set afirm in my heart. and i know im going to make it into a reality. just wait and see and wishh me luck.

"where ever you may go, you'll meet your soulmate..." [from : goddess of light]

p/s: i love you....

Lots of Love,
Sambal Belacan Lover

i admire....SMILE

today is a fun day. despite knwoing i have mid-term exam tomorrow. (he said : esok u ada spahic's day? hah!) im happy today. i like today. and i admire the sun that shines on me today. life is so "on my side" today. if one day i would think back, i guess i know something came true today. he talks, he speaks and he acknowledged. finally. i guess what else better would a girl ask for? just for that person to notice.

when i recall last night's conversation with my dad....i cant help wonder since when did my dad see me as a grown lady? he changed from the protective father (still is la...) to a friend you can talk to. he forbid love in my life a year ago. but last night he asked me to make my obsession true (my bestfriend said so too...). he said, "what u feel is classical signs of falling in love with him..." he also said just dont let it interfere with my work. im ok with it. and im happy my dad likes the person i like. goodness gracious.

im being unfair...but its pure satisfaction. im going to recline from it sooner or later. and what if i want this to become a reality? where shall i put my past? im ok...dont worry. still sane. but obsess.

"dear god,

if im meant for another round....make this a blast. and make it one of the coolest moment of my life. as ive lack in that part. thank you for giving me life. thank you for making me happy. and thank you for doing this to me. i love you...."

Lots of love,
Nina

check out this...

5 tips for a Woman...

1. It is important that a man helps you around the house and has a job.

[true...]

2. It is important that a man makes you laugh.

[absolute importance...]

3. It is important to find a man you can count on and doesn't lie to you.

[liars are never suppose to be in the dictionary of our lives...]

4. It is important that a man loves you and spoils you.

[pampering is always good...]

5. It is important that these four men don't know each other.

[ha ha ha...this is most important. wont want them to know....*gRin*]

p/s: so...apa lagi...go find this 4 perfect guys....so we dont have to get depressed over a guy anymore aight? i wish you the best of luck!!

Love,

Nina Liyana