Do You

12.12.2007 - PD was awesome.... the ranch is beautifurrrrrr! me likey. most important i was with JOE - my heart throbbing, aching and very in love with boyfriend. *BIG SMILE*

Story of today,
nothing to update actually. just that student life resumes full force 2weeks ago. a hectic one indeed. 21.5crdt hours marks the new cycle of life. *damn!*

Another story is, i feel so drop dead depressed. its been like this for the past 2days. and i hate this feeling. it has interupted with my classes and most important: My Love Life.

"God, i never actually mean to behave in such manner. but i cant help it. im sorry baby."

I dont know how to make things feeling go away. Thanks to my depressing campus room, unimpressive 4white walls and boring lightings....i am officially depressed! the cause of all these feeling.

okla, good night everyone...i use broken english. yes. and im not ashame of it. cause it makes writing a whole lot easier and meaningful. tee hee....

p/s: Merry Xmas 2007, Its Boxing day today and Happy coming New Year 2008 everybody!

+Ink Slinger....

Phuket

got back from Phuket a week ago. and truly, and honestly, i cant wait to go back there and have a go at it once more. IT WAS SUPER DUPER FANTASTICO! i manage to get a bit tan. it showed in my face but too bad on my body i could only see a visible white line around my neck due to the halter swim wear i was wearing. my legs a a bit darker. just a slight change. but never mind. i still got it. wooohooo.

the beach is fantastic. so blue, so serene. i cant wait to have another deep, my next trip there. Even so, mama got hurt during her visit to the beach. In actual fact all of us got memorable scars, thanks to the strong current of the water. The waves are so big and the current are so strong that it pushes and pulls us like this very magnetical magnet. But mama got the worst. You should ask me for the details. its hilarious. *grin*. among the other activities was, we explored the whole island (renting a car and driving) during our 4days stay, shopping (not much...but fisherman pants are the bomb!), eat (seafood yummylicious) and relax (a great holiday retreat for the whole family). sadly, we just didnt have enough time to do island hopping. but issokay...maybe next time.

despite the misunderstanding upon arrival, the rest of the trip was rated pretty successful. i enjoyed myself. and our hotel is beautiful. so people, try the "Bang Tao beach District" if you opt for a cleaner and sandy white beaches. and the hotel is topnotch. we stayed at the Allamanda Laguna. among the many laguna properties in Phuket. the exclusiveness is undeniable.

To that, I'll be posting pictures of the trip soon. So, await!

Lots of Love,
Nina

i need to lose weight! pronto! because my leg hurts. i cant stand or walk for long. i feeel sooo old. sharkkksss. ok, the main reason is i think i look hideous. so yeah, 2moro im exercising and eating right again. here goes the NOT to do or EAT list....

1- No carbs - bread, potatoes, rice(obviously), noodles(eliminate!!!!!!)

2- More and more of that lovely, delicious greens.

3- Water and Milk....nothing else

4- Reduce Sugar intake

5- No snacking - keropok pedas yg sedap dah tak lehhhh *sigh* , chocs no more, indian sweets zero..aiyah!

6- Alcohol Nada

7- Exercise - Swim and walk....A MUST!!

8- I need self satisfaction before new year! ahahahahahha thanks to high protein diet! *urghh

ok, im seriously becoming crazy by day. i need 10kilos down the drain. here's to victory! ull see the new me soon enough. :)

skip, dance, victory, learn, play and live life to the fullest! beautiful is the inner you. when ure satisfied with yourself, ull soon see ure beautiful. so, now im heading towards becoming healthier, beautiful inside out and peaceful.

+NinaLiyana+

Duhhhh

fuhhhh. finally the japanese survey is done! it was a living environment perspective survey (household survey) in collaboration between 2 universities-International Islamic University Malaysia (IIUM) and Shibaura Institute of Technology, Japan. It was a memorable week. but the actual 2days was even better. we met one japanese post-graduate student; Daiki Sugaya who was in charged of us, last tuesday on the 14th of november. At first i had this impression that he was the visiting professor and i got really scared when he msged me the first time despite feeling special receiving a msg from someone that i totally do not KNOW. but instead of the assumption, he turned out to be just another student. but it was still great. cause this japanese student can talk a bit of Bahasa Malaysia. How cool is that? tee hee.

so yeah, the survey went well. we survey the whole 3 residential areas-1000houses with 17 people in our team, so we hunt from one house to another to get people to response and participate. its hard at first especially the chinese areas, but it became ok afterwards. its tiring, yes. but memorable. so yeah, finally its finished. and im glad. to conclude, we did a well define and great deal. cheers!

first

do you remember your first of anything? well, first time u ate something, first time u scored well for an exam, the first time u feel love, your first kiss, first time u cried, u smiled, hug someone and etc...

well i dont remember exactly when all of this happen. but i know for sure that my first love is now. its just different. this is for sure the one ive been waiting for. we just face lots of obstacles to face in sustaining this love. but i hope im strong. and so is he....

:)

just another

current mood: dissapointed

oh ok, now im on this project with harmeet. music and lyrics more like it. but its not that me and him will ever date like the story narrates. but yeah, we are working on developing a song. for who and what is besides the point. so here i am trying to write. ive written so far 2 verse that absolutely doesnt match. i have to do better. im just frustrated with myself for not being able to write. i use to be so fast and good at this......... what has happened?

ok, the tv is showing arsenal vs liverpool. and arsenal is losing... hah! sorry joe, your team sucks! hahahahah im tired. good night people. *mwahs*

ntah la...

exams are approaching. and its a stressful week. portfolio is this friday and ive yet to prepare my speech. oh well...screw it! btw, wanted to watch P.Ramlee the musical tonight. supposedly. but the ticket was all sold out. God kesian we Malaysian, ketandusan musical or plays that are worthwhile. haiyah. so here i am blogging and trying to study. not so successful. wish me luck people!

more events coming up this weekend and next. ida's raya open house, my indian cousin's wedding (ill be wearing sareee..wooohooo!), and our own diwali open house.

oh btw, Dr Mohd Zain's open house is awesome. his youngest is incredibly HOT!. *drool*

ok now. good night. toodle loo!

Raya...

ida said in her blog; "life is short....". how many times in life have we encountered this phrase? i have lost count how many times ive heard of it. but it is a meaningful phrase. i realise how short life can be when my beloved uncle died a year ago. its a matter of seconds when he passed away and left us for good. same thing happen during raya. a lot of people i know lost their beloved ones. it made raya a whole lot different. it turn the colourful festival into a gloom. my condolonces to everyone that lost theirs. i feel you. apart from this, raya is just another tiring week. 4days of open house has gobbled me up alive. im seriously telling mama not to have open house next year. serious tak larat. for whatever it is, it was fun to be home again and ill have to wait til next year to feel the comfort of home. so til next year, Kuala Lumpur will be my substitute. so, Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri everyone; Maaf Zahir dan Batin.

Much Love,
Nina

timeless

i'm capturing the moment that i'm soberly sad. and emotionally deprived. but why? just because i feel a void. everything comes back to square one. i'm jinxed. i told u guys so. so now i'm setting my foot firmly on the ground and saying no. to hell with the love struck thing. i'm going out of this idiotic circle. *shrugs* ok, it doesn't sound as bad as what i just said. but i'm still partially sad. it came like a shock. but i'm alright. seriously, this time around i don't sob anymore. not like before. i just can't. its too hard and too much energy wasted. so here i am, going to chill, look around and be merry. cheers to the single people out there. at least u don't get your heart messed up and broken. *nyirup!

be wise people....you'll see the difference......

Eidul Fitri Mubarak

current mood : annoyed...

raya is approaching. i bet everyone is busy shopping or spring cleaning the house for last minute raya preparation. and i wish u luck! im still down with a pair of pants. and if i get it ill be a happy women. so im praying i would get hold of it soon. going back to kuching on wednesday night. cant wait. evenso, ive yet to feel the adrenaline of raya mood sipping into my veins. will this raya be different? for i wish it will. with this i hope this eid will bring all of you beautiful blessing and a wonderful holiday. to those who have to travel far 'balik kampung', keep safe and take care. SELAMAT HARI RAYA and MAAF ZAHIR&BATIN.

Love,
NinaLiyana

Just Another

Life is mysterious. Who ever invented that tag line is a genius. You know exactly how many emotions you can feel at one time? more than 1. its amazing how we change our mood and emotions just by the blink of an eye. today for example, i can feel overly stressed and shifted to being carefree but changed into gloomy in a sec and happy at the same time. its amazing. truly.

break fast at renaissance hotel today with my brother, his girlfriend and joe. the place is definately captivating but the food rating is average. I dont understand why it was a full house in every restaurant in the hotel. all 3 i tell you; that serves buffet. ermm....am i the only one feeling its not very remarkably good? ok, that was total random. teehee

that is what we call absolutely no synchronization of facts! our presentation is yet by far not close to being that. but the lecturer said so. argh. tension moment sipping AGAIN. oh yeah, final presentation is over. YES! *victory dance*

im out. night.

worries...

all my misery. all my anxiety. all my worries are partially gone. the hearing has finally ended. and the verdict was out and it turned out ok. even so i feel like a convict that didnt really do anything wrong in my dictionary. but im ok now. no more sleepless night or nightmares. i lost concentration because of this. but ive recovered. and im all good now. full force coming up! im tired...i dont feel like blogging bout this anymore. this sucks. bye.

p/s: i still think love life is just a phase and it will never happen to me. im pretencious.

Movie

Today = Fun

Finally had an outing after so long... well to a shopping mall and doing something fun that is. when to watch a movie. i may sound pathetic or its sad to hear my lack of social life. but thats just it. i dont feel like socializing anymore. i use to love going out and staying out late. Ill only be in the house for sleeping time. but its different these time around. im back to my homely self again. nesting in my comfort zone called home. and its so stress free. not really but its still peaceful. no one bothering me with annoying facts and figures. etc.

oh btw, i watched Hair Spray today with sue, radhi and my sister. this is thanks to sue's suggestion. and it turn out to be INCREDIBLE. ill go watch it for the second time. for sure. infinity kudos for it. KUDOS. KUDOS. KUDOS.

despite the normal daily routine i have, the movie was intriguing. and its fun fun fun fun. thanks!

good night.

Dedicated to life with friends...

This is a tribute to life and friends i have...

ok. here's the thing. im sitting in front of my personal PC and thinking of what i have to do next? i did most of the things i have to accomplish today. wake up. checked. took my bath. checked. go to class and break fast with appa. checked. studied. checked. what else is there? so here goes my mind. WONDERING. PONDERING. RESTLESS. so, instead of getting my beauty sleep as i would definately complain about lack of sleep when i have to wake up for class early morning 2moro, im browsing around the net for juicy gossips. not celebrity gossips. just normal earthly people gossip. so i re-read the blogs entries my friends posted dated from a week ago. Its so ironic that when u least expect it, then ure eyes will see the larger picture. my friends are actually undergoing emotional crisis that is unbearable. and where am i? sitting here not comforting them. why? cause i have my own problems to deal with. i may sound selfish. but here's the thing, my soul is too tired to hear stories of others. even if i know i can. but if given a choice i dont want to. not that i want to push people aside and not be with them in the times of need. but i just like my state of ALONE now. just for the time being. sorry....ill be better. dont worry people..i know i will. im strong remember? fit as a bull? teehee... i promise ill be a better friend to all of you.

to my friends that i rely on : daydeck, zahie, mizi, syaza, radhi, sue and kuhaz...
im very thankful that God sent, you beautiful people to me. u have always been there for me. thank you. if ever i create hatred in your big hearts, do tell me cause i am very ignorant at times. to those who are having a hard time with studies and life itself, i hope you guys find your light at the end of the tunnel. i will pray for you people. especially my dearest sue. ure special and dont let things pull you down. and obviously ure not a mediocre. its a bigger sin to think that way! i love you. kuhaz, hang in there ok? ull make big! i believe it so. syaza and radhi; you girls will always be my beautiful anchors. my ship will sink without both of you... i have special thanks and deep love for both of you. mizi: thanks for being the best pal ive got. ure outrageously interesting! *BIG LOVE*

specially for my "idiotic" ida : i know we have been through so much lately that our relationship nearly exploded into tiny bits of pieces once upon a time. but i do cherish you. i just want you to know that. i had great times with you last semester. i didnt know what went wrong. was it me? you? or perhaps it was both. i wasnt nice for me to bitch about you. i know i have sinned. im sorry. but u just got on my nerves in so many extreme ways. i hope ure copping and getting better. i want to see the less insecure, less confused and much of a better grown up IDA. cause u know ure older than us right? i hope you will really make a difference from now on....cause u deserve to be happy. just toss away those negative feelings ok? take care of urself. and cherish your self pride. we love you. i love u. pls care for your own best interest...

wow thats long! and this is tribute to my life... i have so many things to repent for. so many regrets. and so many problems to face. but you know what? im going to take baby steps and make things work. and make life better cause i know i deserve it. i will complain and whine soon enough AGAIN but what fun is there without it right? my life is beautiful. my life is beautiful. my life is very beautiful (chanting it away...) and im going to make it wonderful. variecolours....and having iman. thank you.

to the other people i owe my life to. i have an endless thanks to give out to. and ill be happy when you are. so keep smiling. maybe the world will smile back at you..... :)

The Ink Slinger Herself,
+NinaLiyana+

Representing, David Sides....

This is techinically the best pianist ive encountered. Check out how he immitates the piece. Aiyah why arent i born with the talent? *envy* check out David Sides playing "Ciara-Like A boy" on the piano...there are more to this...but this is simply my favourite!

ENJOY!!!!!

Cant Leave Just Yet

Good Evening earthlings. Ramadhan Mubarak!

life has been a real rollercoaster lately. not complaining cause its bad or leaping with joy cause its beautiful. but its perfectly nice. im feeling well rested, content and happy. i just lied. *sigh* i dont feel all that at all. well not wholely. why me? why me? why me? God, this conversation has always played in my head ever since i know what defines "men". it is never a sweet escape nor a fairy tale. maybe just the initial part but there's no gurantee it will last. why i say this? through past experience of course. *duhhh* will i always type or narrate things like this? im sick of it!

....now im convinced maybe there is no certain soulmate for everyone. maybe it slipped God's mind to create one for me. cause the ones that hooks up with me are just junks. its either they are not satisfied with me or the other way around. but im easily pleased you know. i just want the basics, but they give me lousy relationship. is it my fault? tell me it is. so i know....no offence to my past lovers, some are great. but most just make me end up miserable.

Oh ya, Updates:

im seeing and talking to joe again.....
not that we were at war or some sort before hand. we just parted for awhile. but we clicked back during this past week. dont get me wrong. im not looking for a relationship. just a good friend. So yeah we went out, had dinner, and the usual innocent outings. Ah how wonderful it was to have someone to talk to that really understands. I forgot how much fun i always have around him. I cherish you...im serious. Even when i use to fight with mama because of him, but he is the being that makes me smile. ALWAYS. through my tears, tantrum and dramas he always had ways to cheer me up. thats the beauty of it. :)

other updates of life is...
everybody else is happy. Daydeck found herself her other half or completion. im happy for you darling. some of my friends are already united in holy matrimony and its nice to see happy faces. My friends at college are having a hard time doing course works. so am i. but i bet they are happy in their own little ways. Zahie is busy going for sampling, and doing her thesis on her beloved bulbul. At least she likes what she does. so yeah..im happy for her too. at least i have a reason to be happy. My brother Asyraf found himself a partner too. and she turned out to be OK. mama disagree because she thinks its too early. but i think its ok. so cheers brother! *victory dance* for you... and my sister is quite content with her life. so is my parents as they manage to make me not date. hehehe but im ok. SO EVERYBODY IS HAPPY! good. finally.

i just want my dream bad boy. then ill be fine. but he is leaving....good luck in studies! come back a star!!!!

take care everyone... and have a pleasant life.

current mood song : Ciara ft 50Cent - Cant Leave 'Em Alone

+NinaLiyana+

Life Oh Life

Things has been rather slow. days are slower when there's no one around to spin it for you. this is my 4th day of sem-break and im complaining. geez i need a life. i miss home. i miss my family. i miss my comfort zone. im not saying life is entirely lame and boring. but mom and sister just went back this afternoon and i hate the feeling of emptiness and blank. its only 1 hour and 45minutes plane ride to go home. but the impossible-ness of it makes it so frustrating. time is the defactor.

i know i have things to do...lots of it in fact but i cant get myself up to do it. because im dumb. hah! i have a presentation due next week and a report due on the 19th. and why am i not doing my research? cause i told you. im dumb. my head is spinning rather rapidly now. and while im thinking that my stomach is lurching. darn i dont know what to do. today must be the most boring day of my life. everybody seemed to be paired up somewhere enjoying the holidays. sarah and munshi went to PD being lovey-dovey. dont get me wrong. im not envious. mayb i sound like it. but i am not. seriously. im totally happy. but i want it to. i desperately want my boyfriend here. i want my memory of our trip to Sematan to re-collect. i want to soak myself under the sun, playing in the deep waters with him and just sit on the beach looking at him swim. nature begins within. and i know that now.

other than my immaculate and pathetic life cycle. other things has been developed for the past week. my friendship with a particular being has developed a new leaf. im glad. but i hope this is a beginning of a wonderful end. i dont want to fight nor be depress over things anymore. so be it. im happy. and i hope they are no more parasites in this world that would destroy a beautiful relationship. but ill miss the rows thou. tee hee.

to end; HAPPY 50TH MERDEKA MALAYSIA. you're indeed my home and the integration is a true nature. i love YOU! -this is for the date of 31st August 2007

with much love,
NinaLiyana

ok. here's the deal. ive always wanted to try to write things that are meaningful with our bahasa kebangsaan. since its merdeka. lets try something simple. wish me luck! Mari mem-bm kan diri..!

"Ini cinta. Kau datang dan pergi begitu sahaja. Membiarkan ruang rindu di dalam dadaku...."

Thats as far as i can think of. hahahahaha..... good luck to myself to further studying the national language. even to write something regarding love also cannot. i should try cincai language. i bet id be fantastico! seeee..?

off to bed now. good night darlings. *hugs*

+NinaLiyana+

Site Visit

nothing to see here people. just me updating my daily life blog. well, our studio 5 site visit to negeri sembilan can be define as purely a waste of time. honestly, until the end of our journey, ive yet to understand the whole regional context of our study area. what more to say the whole transportation system of negeri sembilan. im still at blur. i can tell you the routes to use to get to places and their short cuts but from the planning point of view, i have not much to say.... i hope when i study the datas we've collected then i can comment more. but one thing for sure is, Malaysia as a whole is lacking on the pedestrianization side. but because of unpredicted weather, the whole idea is not a success. this is what is lacking most in developing countries around the world. in negeri sembilan (seremban), me and syaza faced difficulties in crossing roads just to get to IPPK. not forgetting vehicle drivers hooting while we walk at the side of the road. "hey guys, havent u ever seen any pedestrians? geez.. kena kacau plak" thats why the journey back to the hotel both of us decided to use a taxi service instead. NO WAY im walking or hiking back to the hotel that is situated 30mins away from IPPK and going through uncivilized people.

i may write about this matter for my thesis. Dr Azeez as my advisor...ermmm very tempting. an A strikes from my eyes! in summary, site visit is rated as "over-rated". and the whole trip doesnt serve the right purpose. a waste of 4days. instead of looking at places, we concentrated on touristics areas and sleeping in the bus on the way. cause buses are like big cradles to put me to sleep. hah! i should eliminate this....damn!

as per say, i have transportation planning exam in 4hours time. ive finished studying but im so scared of even going for the exam. ive been having sleepless night last night because of it. sharks! its like Infrastructure Planning exam all over again. trip generators, mode of transport, right-of-ways, urban travel characteristics, t.p processes and t.p importance.........so much to memorize, so little time. oh god help me! help me pass this with great marks! *amin*

good day everybody!

xoxo

Dewi

i have a cousin name dewi. and she is indeed a dewi. criterions matched.

:)

well i just had to blog today. im freaking bored. and my tummy ache is creating problems for me. period first day. told ya im PMS-ing. heheheh going to travel to N9 starting 2moro. shit! period and travel dont go along that well. *sigh* oh well, off to class now. *hugs&kisses* everyone! *smack*