Road to Heart Disaster

When people say its time to move on, we should - no reminiscing, no turning back. Your heart is to be preserve with care and nothing else matters. Being at war with something so dear to our hearts is the worst feeling ever. I can't imagine being constantly at war. On one side, we hear our soul screaming for freedom, yet on another we just leave it to rot and sooner or later it will gradually die. Maybe to us, this would be an easier way out then battling the storm. How idiotic and ignorant of us?!

Geez, what a feeling to start the day off. Time to work now. Good day!

my dearest beloved

I'm happy and thankful to have found you in my darkest hour. Thank you.

I am very much in love - today, tomorrow and forever. Hugs*Mwahs

I DEDICATE THIS TO SORAYA

hi sue.

This is for you.

Countless days I feel that you're great. All my friends are because they are unique. Since the first day I met you, I thought to myself, "the girl I am with now, without her tudong on seems so normal and awesome. She will achieve wonders but the only thing that would pull her down is maybe her insecurity".

And, its true! The Sue as I know her, is very insecure; by how she looks, by what she is great with, fearing she won't fit in and constantly thinking if she will ever be great in future.

Well Sue truth is, you've always been great no matter what you think about yourself. The last time I checked, you're the most talented amongst us all. At least you've ever danced (and continuing it now), you know melodies, can sing, you play the piano!, you've managed to finished your 2nd part Archi (even if you dreaded the whole time), you own cool friends like us, you met awesome friends in OZ when you thought you can't, a loving family to top it all and other meaningful things in life.

So dearest Soraya, I think you do have an awesome life. It may not be like others but you have achievements of your own. Don't compare, don't think and don't reminisce too much. Just live your life as it goes.

p/s: You're fortunate to be born talented when others wish to be.

This final quote is for you darling "the soul's joy lies in doing..." -Percy Bysshe Shelley

Love,

Nina Liyana

Continued Version

Relating to the last blog entry... I have decided it will be 1st April due to certain circumstances such as the arrival of my new boss in March, adjusting to my new responsibility @workload at work and also because I need to regain my brain confidence before I take that huge leap.

Oh and if you're wondering what I'm talking about, it's me deciding the date to start masters part-time. :)

Cheers to having everything alright again! Yeay!

18 Feb or 1st April

I like the idea of starting on the 1st of April. It makes it jittery sweet, just because its april fool. not. hehe

I'm contemplating again. Girls...if you're reading this, I need you here. How can I make decisions without screwing my life?

This is absurd-me think, because nothing you do in life that is good, should ruin lives-me feel. So I've concluded that I am indeed paranormal activity.

Nina, GET OVER IT! Just do what you have to do. Then again, the question is always gonna be the same. Either 18 Feb or 1st April or nothing at all?

Luck!

Dj Club

Last night was great with ma homies. Oh wait, its not great. Its AWESOME! and its been a long time.

We went to this karaoke open bar called Dj club. Initially I thought the Dj abbreviation stands for disc-jockey but then I realise that its actually Damansara Jaya. Hehe Wahh, what a smart coincidence.

So there I was with Noreen (the first 2 that arrived), sitting at the high table feeling "sexcited" to choose our songs and start singing along. And no joke, we chose over 20songs or more. Can u believe that? Other people would call that pure-obsession. :) After few rounds of drinks, only then the singing came out natural. But even our un-angelic natural voices were far better than those ca-ya-nun-alif's. no offence.

So while waiting for the rest of the gang to arrive and at the start of our Hotel California sing-a-long, we were blessed with a visitor. I was curious of why he said hello to us then something played in my head. "Perhaps our voices were too cool to be true". Yeah I think that was it. LOL. But you know what the fun part was, he asked if we were really from cali because he claimed he stayed in Hawaii for 8 years. Don't ask me what is the connection thou. Just think of this: How cool is that to have? Sandy white beaches on Hawaii Island-everyday is a holiday.

After that, the rest of the night went by so quickly when everybody came. We finally left the place at 2am with a heavy heart and an angry Noreen because she didn't get most of her songs due to bias-ness to those Chinese regulars. Among the song they sang, I only understood the "wo ai ni" song.

All-in-all, last night was pleasurable with an ending at a mamak stall eating nasi lemak until 3am. Thank God today I managed to wake up for work. Thumbs up to all.

xoxo

double-tree

I don't know why people tend to result in last minute decision or putting most "planned" things to the very last...I don't geddit.

Sunday is mama's 50th birthday and I have no idea where to buy that gift I have in my head for her. It would be an awesome gift I tell you, just because of ONE reason: she would definitely LOVE it. This gift is not like those other ordinary gifts I usually get for her birthday. But oh where?

So for now its just cards, dinner and a cake. I'm hoping for that elephant sculpture.

Make this possible. Oh, crap I don't geddit why I'm such a bad daughter for not planning this sooner. Geez.

H dot R

It takes ages for them to prepare it. I bet it will take approximately a week from now. So, I shall take my own sweet time to sign it. Yes, thats right!

HO HO HO

I must say, the greatest gift of this techno era to humankind would be the invention of "online search engine" (to me la..).

Everyday, anywhere either at work or home, I would use the search engine to retrieve all the information I needed AND of course the only one online source I trust is GOOGLE.

It makes life so much simpler - no more enduring heavy traffic to get to the nearest library or bookstore, no more paying library fees for any late return, no need to keep silent whenever we go to the library, etc.

I am truly blessed, its just a click of a button away!

So this Christmas I wish GOOGLE, Merry Xmas and Happy New Year! Have a splendid holiday to those who made it possible. "Even though they might not read this".

Google you are my NUMERO UNO. So, dearest earthlings -Find what is YOUR greatest gift of the century. Merry Xmas and Happy New Year everybody.

More love from me; Miss Googling.

theONEofEverything

Remember those bright sunny days when we were small playing alike "polis dan pencuri"? We would actually fight amongst ourselves to get our desired role. Well, that was merely innocent without permanent damages. Afterall, it was just a typical play day to us and we would still be best of friends right after.

So, I personally believe that people today should always remember their fond childhood memories in order for us to grow into refined human beings. Than maybe (just maybe?) we could garner better relationship with people around us, dispose "godforsaken" violence and live in harmony.

Hopefully when that day comes, we won't see any news alike reported in star today about the "1bigfight over 1mightbegoodconcept" which I feel is very ridiculous. But who am I to comment? Politicians will be politicians, right?

What was the slogan again? "Rakyat di dahulukan, Pencapaian diutamakan"/ "People first, Performance Now". And for what that's worth, I hope it is the breakthrough that Malaysia needs.


Good luck HER, I love you-without a doubt.

imperfection

Out of all the things in life, the bitter sweet memories are within the imperfections of ourselves and others.

Today was nothing less, she crawled into the negative side of me. She made others feel uncomfortable when there was pratically nothing to be emotional about. I pity those who had to listen to her today but I wish her well. BECAUSE...she has always been just that.

Chronogically, another came to me to find a way to gossip but to my surprise this gossip makes me some what happy..in a good way - not like the others. She was the imperfected part in my life yet she is the one who brought this enormous good news. She has succesfully made me smile while weathering the storm of the unknown.

Good end to a completely shitty day. Thank you from the bottom of my heart.

Life is of course full of its innate obstacles but those obstacles are never with an answer or solution.

So Cheers! to those who live life to their best level. Depict those sorrows and brush them away...

Pening Kepala

Here's the thing - I hate my job. Yes, you read correctly. I hate my job with no apparent reason.

I just want to take a break. Its not that the job is demanding, just that the job here makes me sick and puuuukkkyyyy! Yuck is the word - as for now.

Ok la, time to try make the dizziness go away. What next?

Here we go AGAIN.

So many tests! Macam tak cukup je masuk University kamu tu susah. Now you're making it more difficult and expensive. Aisehman.

Total Cost =RM1,370 (for pre-requisite exams excluding books).

Damn you Orang Putih yang memulakan exam nie!

Where did it go?

My everyday story is work. its getting boring, yeah YOU! its getting boring.

Role Play:
Wake up in the morning, Off to work, "work work work", Then go home, Arrive home, then sleep. Without fail, everyday.

Weekends are even worst; Lazying around with no sense of purpose in front of the TV, not even reading a book. I, seriously think that if I didn't have Tee around, my life would only evolve around work and home. Aisehman, so dull.

I should start writing about fun and adventorous things. Like bungee jumping, reverse bungee, scuba diving, sailing to an unknown somewhere but.. I don't really have the luxury to do so.

So scratch the word "ADVENTURE" of my to-do list... cause it will never happen. *double :( face*

Hopefully not Forever. *Wishful Thinking*

M&A

Indeed I don't have the skills to take beautiful pictures or dance or even have an angellic voice to sing, but when a company ask me to help them with restructures, mergers and acquisition, it excites me beyond measures. It gets the ideas streaming like water from this thick skull of mine. Just few things I need to develop on -a strong fundamental understanding of the economics, and liquidity and capital raising. Oh God, help me acheive this!

Still so much to explore and so little time. When will the real big bucks start to come? Greed is the way of life-Yes? Well, Wall Street thought us everything we need to know about Greed.

And quoting from Dr. M, "In the West and developed countries, they have become so focused on wealth that they have forgotten their moral values. Since then we have found that they base everything on greed, and the desire for wealth overrides other moral obligations. They don't think about their commitment to society or how they acquire wealth. Now we know they have been cheating. This was time of Ivan Boesky and Michael Milken, who was selling junk bonds to make money....."

Life is a challenge!

My Comida

Hey Peeps,

Check this out - www.comida.com.my

It will surely make you want to visit. Currently, my mouth is very very watery. :)

Official Opened on the 29th October 2010.

Lang-to-the-Ka-to-the-Weee!

Hello everybody!

Today, I'm gonna fly to langkawi with the whole bank's operation division. Its mixed feelings, really. Excited yet sad to leave KL.

Anyhoo, I really really really hope the Island Hoping and teambuilding tomorrow will be a blast. Also, I hope there's no bickering amongst us. *down&pray*

Good luck to me and Await my next entry for juicy updates.

+Knee-Na+

Kek Lapis

Memang rahmat berjual bulan puasa nie. Allah bukakan pintu rezeki untuk semua. Alhamdulillah. Selamat Menyambut Aidilfitri. Maaf Zahir dan Batin.

Human Resource

I'm apart of this Bank's Human Resource, someone who provides them with human capital.

So, what's the latest development? I want an increment in monthly remuneration!

Daily Juadah Berbuka

Al Rajhi is the first bank that I know of; gives out kuih muih and dates to all their staff for berbuka (tak kira la you non-muslim / tak puasa). Everyday we will get 1 air kotak and a small packed of kuih each. Some may bring home, some may just eat it there and then. I think, this some what makes everyone feel equal. Maybe. Eating and drinking the same thing. It brings back good old memories of Ramadhan while performing my Umrah years ago. You see people giving, sharing and sometimes fighting to get a a little piece of Rezeki. Did you know, helping to distribute drinks and food even if its not from you, would let u gain pahala? -learnt from one of the tazkirah I went last week. Alhamdulillah. So, apart from everything else in the office, I think the best time of the day for me would be when you receive this. I've helped give them around once, and seeing smiling faces and when they say thanks is just heart warming, eventhough u know most could afford more than this. Selamat Berbuka!