ok its the end of 3rd week for my practical training. and here's an update to my friends who are interested how i progressed after the interesting first week. here goes...
2nd Week - Like many government offices, our sector surely has a lot of meeting to attend to. so this week alone i attended 2 meetings. since my supervisor is around this week, i had more fun during practical and learning things. monday, i attended the Sri Aman-Betong Urban and Regional Study-An economic briefing between SPU and rekarancang&BL consultant. and yes friends, its rekarancang from tmn melawati i tell you. hahaha. and in the afternoon again i compiled more project budget. i feel like an accountant all of a sudden. tuesday, i was exposed to a study of sustainable development for sarawak which consist of sustainable transport approach that wants to incorporate public transportation in all major towns in Sarawak headed by Dr Lawrence. but its still in study thou. it will take some time for decision-makers to realise the importance of it. since Dr Lawrence is a transport expert. so he was the one overly excited, which is a good thing. (radhi, u should have had him for your supervisor...he is nice and willing to help. he might be good mentor for your thesis). and in the afternoon i helpd Mr Lau with technical papers comment compilation. wednesday was a day of merantau. i visited land and survey HQ with Dr Lawrence to see how map is produced in Sarawak, the development control, siting and etc. its a different environment but educational. the next day however came to a point of reading again; read the RTPI (Royal Town Planning Institute, UK) journal. It became useful for my upcoming thesis. :) and friday was another meeting day; attended the Healthy City (Healthy Food Outlet in Padungan) meeting with Dr Lawrence and Mr Lau Yok King at MBKS. and after friday prayers help Ms Rozita prepare slides for MITran meeting on monday pertaining to transport which i compiled statistical data of transportation. Sunday was our bowling tournament and we got 3rd place! hahahah how cool is that? conclusion, week 2 is better.
3rd week - moved to land and survey since Dr Lawrence believes that i should have hands on, on how planning is implemented on the ground. after the MiTran meeting on Monday i moved to land and survey the very next day. and was put at the siting section where i learned to choose sites for land uses and approving building plans. it was a difficult and choatic work but i managed with the help from Mr Hashimi. the following days i helped them prepare plans for reports and did a little bit of conveying. Once in awhile i go to the Steno area just to lari from work. but as a rap, the 3rd week is also successful despite the new environment. thank god there are nice people.
till later. bye!
Saturday, April 26, 2008
Saturday, April 12, 2008
Kerja itu....
i successfully finished my first week of practical training. *phew* ok, here's the details...
07.04.08 - i came to the office 15mins early. its early in my dictionary cause nina never comes to anything on time. sad aint it? i was a nervous wreck when i came. had to obtain pas pelawat from the guard house since i cannot enter without it. so, after that i waited for the lift (like the rest of them) and i get all this stare (all may be thinking...hey, who are you ah??) but i just smiled (nina and her beautiful smile. hahahhaha) and when i was in the lift i press 6th floor and there i was in the office that im gonna train for the rest 12weeks. the office is nice (a good transition from any other gov office ive entered..its so lively!). As i walked in and try to find this lady called MS Rozita, a guy called me and asked what i am here for, so i said "im the new practical student, is MS Rozita in?" but apparently she wasn't in yet so was my supervisor. So i had to wait until 830am for them to finally report for duty. So there i learn my office hours is 830pm to 530pm. it sucks. for the first day i sat in MS Rozita's office and she brief me on office ethics and who and who is in charge of what. afterwards, she had to go for a meeting and then to the hospital, so there i was left to read all reports on urban and regional planning of Sarawak. its interesting at first but i nearly fell asleep after an hour. boring stuff ok. lunch break i dashed out of the office to meet Mizie; im craving for verbal communication ok! not that the staff is not friendly but im too shy to get out of the cubicle. ;p after lunch at around 430pm, my supervisor finally called me in to discuss my work, and he gave my very first assignment: "read the Sri Aman-Betong urban and regional study report and give your critique" he says....so i did just that the very next day. in conclusion, my day was boring and useless. except for the part i met my supervisor, talked to him and kenal few of the staff. he seems impressed with me and he is so baik. i consider myself lucky. (so many la to narrate!)
08.04.08 - critique paper for 2hours and im idling again. nothing to do. so i read my book. no web browsing cause i need password to use the browser...boring again! but im ok with it. at least i get to sit in Dr Lawrence room (thats the name of my supervisor btw) - acting like im the urban and regional director. hahahaha i went for my first lunch with few staff. and they are quite friendly and oh boy, they like to gossip! but the good part is i dont feel like an outcast anymore. thank god. after lunch work started to come, i had to compile project budgetting for them. and i just realise i can do work really fast and efficiently when i put my mind to it. under one hour i finished whole 3 projects budget from 2006 to 2009. im so proud of myself. the rest of the day is ok. and today too, i got my pas "pekerja sementara" meaning i dont need to use the pas pelawat anymore! *GRIN*
09.04.08 - i am introduced to vision 5S. its this thing about organizing your office to have a better working environment. everybody was so into it and busy. this is because on friday they have "pensijilan 5S"; and if they succeed they will be the first Sarawak office to get it. so everybody really work on it especially kak rozita, kak siti and kak sal - i helped too and extended my working hours to 630pm. and today too i met the boss for the first time - Hj Ismawi. He is not scary looking at all. he even smiled at me. so i smiled back. office environment is getting better. everyone is friendlier and i met new people. i even went to the GIS department to kacau and learn a few things (the maps they produce is superb. so nice and colourful- thanks to Dr Alias i know a thing or two from GIS class...so i dont seem stupid when they asked). all of them seems interested to know who i am. i let it be. its nice to meet new people and know them anyways.
10.04.08 - today is all about 5S more on gotong-royong and gunting-menggunting. but i liked it. it makes me bond better with all of them. i even stayed until 10pm to help finish up the 5S thingy. if ure wondering what is 5S, ask me. :) they seem to be very grateful every second i was there. i feel appreciated.
11.04.08 - pensijilan day, everyone was making final touch ups and all was very nervous. i can't help but laugh. but we manage to score 90% for the 5S program and entitled to a sijil. everyone leap with joy, who ever stayed late last night was given the half day off. so, with all the excitement i skip joyfully back to my car (literally) and drove home. the day is beautiful and im well- connected with all of them.
next week i will start training for my study field full force. hopefully its a success too. :)
07.04.08 - i came to the office 15mins early. its early in my dictionary cause nina never comes to anything on time. sad aint it? i was a nervous wreck when i came. had to obtain pas pelawat from the guard house since i cannot enter without it. so, after that i waited for the lift (like the rest of them) and i get all this stare (all may be thinking...hey, who are you ah??) but i just smiled (nina and her beautiful smile. hahahhaha) and when i was in the lift i press 6th floor and there i was in the office that im gonna train for the rest 12weeks. the office is nice (a good transition from any other gov office ive entered..its so lively!). As i walked in and try to find this lady called MS Rozita, a guy called me and asked what i am here for, so i said "im the new practical student, is MS Rozita in?" but apparently she wasn't in yet so was my supervisor. So i had to wait until 830am for them to finally report for duty. So there i learn my office hours is 830pm to 530pm. it sucks. for the first day i sat in MS Rozita's office and she brief me on office ethics and who and who is in charge of what. afterwards, she had to go for a meeting and then to the hospital, so there i was left to read all reports on urban and regional planning of Sarawak. its interesting at first but i nearly fell asleep after an hour. boring stuff ok. lunch break i dashed out of the office to meet Mizie; im craving for verbal communication ok! not that the staff is not friendly but im too shy to get out of the cubicle. ;p after lunch at around 430pm, my supervisor finally called me in to discuss my work, and he gave my very first assignment: "read the Sri Aman-Betong urban and regional study report and give your critique" he says....so i did just that the very next day. in conclusion, my day was boring and useless. except for the part i met my supervisor, talked to him and kenal few of the staff. he seems impressed with me and he is so baik. i consider myself lucky. (so many la to narrate!)
08.04.08 - critique paper for 2hours and im idling again. nothing to do. so i read my book. no web browsing cause i need password to use the browser...boring again! but im ok with it. at least i get to sit in Dr Lawrence room (thats the name of my supervisor btw) - acting like im the urban and regional director. hahahaha i went for my first lunch with few staff. and they are quite friendly and oh boy, they like to gossip! but the good part is i dont feel like an outcast anymore. thank god. after lunch work started to come, i had to compile project budgetting for them. and i just realise i can do work really fast and efficiently when i put my mind to it. under one hour i finished whole 3 projects budget from 2006 to 2009. im so proud of myself. the rest of the day is ok. and today too, i got my pas "pekerja sementara" meaning i dont need to use the pas pelawat anymore! *GRIN*
09.04.08 - i am introduced to vision 5S. its this thing about organizing your office to have a better working environment. everybody was so into it and busy. this is because on friday they have "pensijilan 5S"; and if they succeed they will be the first Sarawak office to get it. so everybody really work on it especially kak rozita, kak siti and kak sal - i helped too and extended my working hours to 630pm. and today too i met the boss for the first time - Hj Ismawi. He is not scary looking at all. he even smiled at me. so i smiled back. office environment is getting better. everyone is friendlier and i met new people. i even went to the GIS department to kacau and learn a few things (the maps they produce is superb. so nice and colourful- thanks to Dr Alias i know a thing or two from GIS class...so i dont seem stupid when they asked). all of them seems interested to know who i am. i let it be. its nice to meet new people and know them anyways.
10.04.08 - today is all about 5S more on gotong-royong and gunting-menggunting. but i liked it. it makes me bond better with all of them. i even stayed until 10pm to help finish up the 5S thingy. if ure wondering what is 5S, ask me. :) they seem to be very grateful every second i was there. i feel appreciated.
11.04.08 - pensijilan day, everyone was making final touch ups and all was very nervous. i can't help but laugh. but we manage to score 90% for the 5S program and entitled to a sijil. everyone leap with joy, who ever stayed late last night was given the half day off. so, with all the excitement i skip joyfully back to my car (literally) and drove home. the day is beautiful and im well- connected with all of them.
next week i will start training for my study field full force. hopefully its a success too. :)
Wednesday, April 02, 2008
misfit of life
life is interestingly good for change. exams over and im waiting for the industrial training to commence. oh well, a fine tune of everything i must say. nothing to update. just happy to be alive and kicking! lets render our lives much. im up to it. are u?
Monday, March 31, 2008
u suck
u know everytime exam week comes, i feel the churn to be someone that is free-spirited-let go and just ignore the fact that i havent studied and sooooo not ready for the exams. i feel it now. i wanna let go but i cant. i need good grades. and it sucks. all of this sucks. just 2more papers. why la every semester mesti ada subjects that suck. and this moment, now, suck. aiyah!
Sunday, March 16, 2008
SUNBURST 2008
SUNBURST was the bomb and a blast! no other words can describe how i feel. im so much or extremely happy and satisfied. the show is incredibly amazing. my sole purpose of going to sunburst is none other than my beloved boyfriend, JOHN LEGEND. God i waited for him for 4 years. has been his big fan since the very first song, Ordinary People and mind you, i actually screamed when he sang that song and of course the save room song and the rest. i know each line of the lyric okk. His performance is just so mind blowing. Usually ill be gross out by the fact that a person is so sweaty and opt not to go near. but JL is just a defacto. If i was given a chance to hug him with all that sweat ill be happy to do it. seriously. he is sooooo HOT! Next time he comes, i am going to make sure im right in front. THE FIRST ROW. so toodles for now.
p/s: the rest was extremely good too. The Roots came mannn... weeeeeeeeeeeee!
+NinaLegend+
p/s: the rest was extremely good too. The Roots came mannn... weeeeeeeeeeeee!
+NinaLegend+
Thursday, March 13, 2008
nie kengkawan saya punyer pasal la nie.... i got hooked to answering it too. hahaha
Introduction
First Name - Nor Amanina Liyana
Nickname - nina, nina, nina and once my teacher called me nora and once my friend tried to call
me LIA. eeeeeee....dont like!
Name you wish you had - never thought of this. maybe a pretty name like the flower?
What do people normally mistake your name as - nothing actually except for the first syllabus of my name
Birthday - 13 June 1986 - the best day of the year!
Birthplace - S.L Sim Clinic, Kuching, Sarawak
Time of Birth - 12noon
Single or Taken - Taken definately.
Zodiac sign - Gemini...beware i have split personality!
Your Appearance
How tall are you - 5'5"
Wish you were taller - yeah maybe 5'8"....i wonder what life would be? guys takut kot. hahahha
Eye color - dark brown
Eye color you want - blue
Natural Hair color - Brown
Current Hair color - karat colour
Short or long hair - intermediate
Curly, Straight, Wavy - tak terurus. hahahaha
Last time you did something dramatic with your hair - ages ago when i coloured my whole head purple.
Do you wear make-up - on special occasion yes.
Ever had hair extensions - nope. never did find any reason to. but i would love to try!
Paint your nails - yes. currently its pink! hahhaha
In the opposite gender
What color eyes - grey...the look so mysterious
What color hair - other than normal? hahaha blonde?
Shy or Outgoing - cant decide. depends on my mood
Looks or personality - personality definately. looks can only satisfy me to a certain point.
Sexy or Cute - sexy la! the hunky sexy
Serious or Fun - 2 in 1?
Older or Younger than you - is younger better or older better? the better one i choose. heh!
A turn on - their incredible eyes?
A turn off - that does not have good table manners when needed, someone i cannot talk senses to, an irritating guy and definately the gruesome one. bak kata org swak, nok ceridak bah!
This or that
Flowers or Chocolate - none? i want a car can?
Pepsi or Coke - neither. i prefer plain water
Relationship or One night stand - open relationship? hahahha
School or Work - school. cause i can still screw up and do it all over again.
Love or Money - duak-duak
Movies or Music - both both both
Country or City - Country. so free and so serene.
Sunny or Rainy days - depends on my mood of the day. but i love both equally.
Friends or Family - both
Have you ever
Wish you were a prince/princess - yes, i always wanted to be sleeping beauty
Liked someone who was taken - so many timess...
Shaved your head - i want to but someone wont let me
Been in love - too many that sometimes i think its just crush
Used chopsticks - most of the time
Sang in the mirror to yourself - saya yg terhebat. sejak kecil lagi.
Favorites
Flower - daisies. the best flowers ever.
Candy - the worm candy.
Song - too many to list. currently i love - sempurna by andra
Color - all of them? i think most fav may be fuschia
Movie - ermm...Dirty Dancing Havana Nights, Sound of Music and Drumline...among the fav la
Word - ngek! bongok! ala comel...
Junk food - kerepek bantal, and kuih cincin.
Website - amanina.blogspot.com....tee hee
Lotion - nivea cream
Animal - dogs.
Ever cried over someone - yes
Is there anything you wish you could change about yourself - slimmer version of me
Do you think you’re attractive - yes inside out. heheheh
If you had to choose a fairytale as your life what would you choose - little mermaid. can swim in the ocean without oxegen tank
Do you play any sports - nope. thats why im fat
III The rules:- Link to your tagger and post these rules. List (8) random facts about yourself and tag (8) people.
1) i like to cook, bake and clean the house
2) i hate studying for law
3) my favourite past time is i talk to myself
4) i cannot stop talking and sometimes i bore people with what i want to say
5) i couldnt care less of all the random things i do
6) i eat my french fries with ice cream (plain vanilla only)
7) my inner child is strong and throws tantrum if its not set loose once in awhile. :p
8) i am into politics nowadays. who would have imagine that to happen?
who ever wants to do this...lets do it!!! kalau boring la... hahahah
Introduction
First Name - Nor Amanina Liyana
Nickname - nina, nina, nina and once my teacher called me nora and once my friend tried to call
me LIA. eeeeeee....dont like!
Name you wish you had - never thought of this. maybe a pretty name like the flower?
What do people normally mistake your name as - nothing actually except for the first syllabus of my name
Birthday - 13 June 1986 - the best day of the year!
Birthplace - S.L Sim Clinic, Kuching, Sarawak
Time of Birth - 12noon
Single or Taken - Taken definately.
Zodiac sign - Gemini...beware i have split personality!
Your Appearance
How tall are you - 5'5"
Wish you were taller - yeah maybe 5'8"....i wonder what life would be? guys takut kot. hahahha
Eye color - dark brown
Eye color you want - blue
Natural Hair color - Brown
Current Hair color - karat colour
Short or long hair - intermediate
Curly, Straight, Wavy - tak terurus. hahahaha
Last time you did something dramatic with your hair - ages ago when i coloured my whole head purple.
Do you wear make-up - on special occasion yes.
Ever had hair extensions - nope. never did find any reason to. but i would love to try!
Paint your nails - yes. currently its pink! hahhaha
In the opposite gender
What color eyes - grey...the look so mysterious
What color hair - other than normal? hahaha blonde?
Shy or Outgoing - cant decide. depends on my mood
Looks or personality - personality definately. looks can only satisfy me to a certain point.
Sexy or Cute - sexy la! the hunky sexy
Serious or Fun - 2 in 1?
Older or Younger than you - is younger better or older better? the better one i choose. heh!
A turn on - their incredible eyes?
A turn off - that does not have good table manners when needed, someone i cannot talk senses to, an irritating guy and definately the gruesome one. bak kata org swak, nok ceridak bah!
This or that
Flowers or Chocolate - none? i want a car can?
Pepsi or Coke - neither. i prefer plain water
Relationship or One night stand - open relationship? hahahha
School or Work - school. cause i can still screw up and do it all over again.
Love or Money - duak-duak
Movies or Music - both both both
Country or City - Country. so free and so serene.
Sunny or Rainy days - depends on my mood of the day. but i love both equally.
Friends or Family - both
Have you ever
Wish you were a prince/princess - yes, i always wanted to be sleeping beauty
Liked someone who was taken - so many timess...
Shaved your head - i want to but someone wont let me
Been in love - too many that sometimes i think its just crush
Used chopsticks - most of the time
Sang in the mirror to yourself - saya yg terhebat. sejak kecil lagi.
Favorites
Flower - daisies. the best flowers ever.
Candy - the worm candy.
Song - too many to list. currently i love - sempurna by andra
Color - all of them? i think most fav may be fuschia
Movie - ermm...Dirty Dancing Havana Nights, Sound of Music and Drumline...among the fav la
Word - ngek! bongok! ala comel...
Junk food - kerepek bantal, and kuih cincin.
Website - amanina.blogspot.com....tee hee
Lotion - nivea cream
Animal - dogs.
Ever cried over someone - yes
Is there anything you wish you could change about yourself - slimmer version of me
Do you think you’re attractive - yes inside out. heheheh
If you had to choose a fairytale as your life what would you choose - little mermaid. can swim in the ocean without oxegen tank
Do you play any sports - nope. thats why im fat
III The rules:- Link to your tagger and post these rules. List (8) random facts about yourself and tag (8) people.
1) i like to cook, bake and clean the house
2) i hate studying for law
3) my favourite past time is i talk to myself
4) i cannot stop talking and sometimes i bore people with what i want to say
5) i couldnt care less of all the random things i do
6) i eat my french fries with ice cream (plain vanilla only)
7) my inner child is strong and throws tantrum if its not set loose once in awhile. :p
8) i am into politics nowadays. who would have imagine that to happen?
who ever wants to do this...lets do it!!! kalau boring la... hahahah
kuching
i went back for the weekend. my cousin's wedding is a blast and i met a lot of people i never imagined to meet after a long time, including my ex. and it was ironically not so awkward. we chatted, we said our hellos and it was all fine. other than that, the wedding was beautiful and the party was a blast. congrats! i cant wait to see your babies in future. *grin*
Saturday, March 08, 2008
happiness within....
you. you. you. thanks to you.
i have a lot of reasons to be happy.
im going back to kuching 2moro. family awaits. im happy. they are always there for me.
i have YOU. out of all the reasons, u make me smile each and everyday. thanks for the cd today...*blush*
i have good friends that i can depend on. I love them
i got the practical post i so wanted today. so why not feel proud and happy?
i was born with good brain, imagination, and heart (as i may think. teehee)
i have a good life in general. i dont go starving or broke like most of the misfortunate people out there.
and why im still complaining bout the little things i dont get? or not satisfied with? this shows human are never satisfied... but most of us learn to. but would wish to have more. i believe thats not a sin if it means to be better collectively.
good day. CONGRATS KAK MARINI & LUTH. may this occasion bring happiness to both and make lotsa babies ok? aunty nina wants babies to babysit. tee hee.
the most u can do in life is do what best u can with it. u may not have the best of everything, but when u make the most of everythiung you have, happiness come. the within is important...
( im a happy person.... )
i have a lot of reasons to be happy.
im going back to kuching 2moro. family awaits. im happy. they are always there for me.
i have YOU. out of all the reasons, u make me smile each and everyday. thanks for the cd today...*blush*
i have good friends that i can depend on. I love them
i got the practical post i so wanted today. so why not feel proud and happy?
i was born with good brain, imagination, and heart (as i may think. teehee)
i have a good life in general. i dont go starving or broke like most of the misfortunate people out there.
and why im still complaining bout the little things i dont get? or not satisfied with? this shows human are never satisfied... but most of us learn to. but would wish to have more. i believe thats not a sin if it means to be better collectively.
good day. CONGRATS KAK MARINI & LUTH. may this occasion bring happiness to both and make lotsa babies ok? aunty nina wants babies to babysit. tee hee.
the most u can do in life is do what best u can with it. u may not have the best of everything, but when u make the most of everythiung you have, happiness come. the within is important...
( im a happy person.... )
Monday, February 25, 2008
weekenders
weekend with you was amazing. (like the every others) no need bizzare settings or expensive gateaway. being with you here in the house, accompanied by love, affection, words of wisdom and our mischevious "Mr Waffles" makes it all good. i wont trade it for anything or anybody. you're my recent and my forever coming. i love you.
p/s: thanks for cooking. u manage well. *BIG SMILE*
p/s: thanks for cooking. u manage well. *BIG SMILE*
Tuesday, February 19, 2008
happy face
i feel like laughing. MUAHHAHAHAHHAHA ure an idiot. enough said. i feel sorry for people who things they are above the rest and make others feel less. but who am i to judge? life is all about plays. and sorry if i tend to be better at the play than you. the people i genuinely love, ill continue loving. the people i started to hate, its all going to be hate. never was a genuine thing for some. but i love my life despite the stupidity. my life, a social cycle.
p/s: whats there left to love if you don't have the sincerity in you from the beginning?
Nina
p/s: whats there left to love if you don't have the sincerity in you from the beginning?
Nina
Sunday, February 17, 2008
my friends
if i could rant things about my friends i actually cannot finish by the end of the day. there's so much to say, compliment and also kutuk. hah! who doesnt kutuk their own friends? i know i do. and im transparent about it. cause who are your best mirror if not your friends? i appreciate my friends. i live with friends more than i live with my own family. only when i reach this kind of age i am accustoming myself to my family. highschool was all about friends-asrama kan!, sekolah rendah macam takde impact sgt cause the time i realise about the colourvaried life of ours is when i started living independantly without parental supervision. im not that dependant kind you know, but being manja to people appeals to me now and then cause i love them. :) i have selected friends that i come to for help or comfort. but the rest i am learning to just accept them for their qualities. no need to marah cause in the end, its just a blunt end. thanks sue for the compliment.
140208 is a day for valentines. sure i celebrated with joe, the love of my life. but thats only part of the day. the earlier bit i spend with my anchors syaza and radhi in class. haha and suprisingly the class only lasted 10mins. how ironic? i guess the lecturer wanted to dash of for vday dinner. but thats not a big fat chance though. afterwards i went out for movies with the others, syaza(again), sue and kuhaz. the four of us had fun. it was a nice and comfortable outing. its been awhile since i did that with any group of friends of mine. nowadays its work work work. the rest of the evening i spent with joe before he left for work. so people, Vday is a day for love, even if you don't see the actual need for it, but it does bring people together and make people realise there is such thing called LOVE in life. there's nothing wrong celebrating it if your intentions are towards the people u love. i love my friends, thus i go out and have a nice time with them. i love my boyfriend deeply, so i spent time with him. Not that we dont proclaim love any other day, but why not say it again on vday? its like any other day. if people want to be extra loving or showy on this day, let them. at least they found love.
*dig that*
Tuesday, February 12, 2008
birthdays...
birthdays are not what they seem when we were kids. there is no more incredible sparks to it. i dunno if this is what aging does to you. but i dont think birthdays matter so much anymore. but its just a nice occasion to have your loved ones close to heart.
yesterday was my brother's birthday. HAPPY 19th birthday bro bro. we love you.
it was an austere occasion with superb dinner. we had live lobster. and steaks and baked oysters. its truly scrumptious...and the cake was cuppacakes. can u imagine guys with cupcake birthday cake? oh well my brother liked it...sweet.
happy birthday again to february babies (my friends especially- aqiss, anne, and others whom i cant remember precisely today. forgive me)...may it be a joyful occasion for most of us.
love and out,
Nina
yesterday was my brother's birthday. HAPPY 19th birthday bro bro. we love you.
it was an austere occasion with superb dinner. we had live lobster. and steaks and baked oysters. its truly scrumptious...and the cake was cuppacakes. can u imagine guys with cupcake birthday cake? oh well my brother liked it...sweet.
happy birthday again to february babies (my friends especially- aqiss, anne, and others whom i cant remember precisely today. forgive me)...may it be a joyful occasion for most of us.
love and out,
Nina
Saturday, February 09, 2008
unknownnn
Referral to syaza’s blog
I was talking to my mom bout how cruel lecturers can be sometimes. Especially in demoting us from the high level of creativity towards the level of burn ashes. Aiyah so depressing. Oh well, that’s life I guess. TAG ON LECTURERS: WE RULE, and what? Who? But after consulting my mom bout my disagreement with how lecturers are, my mom gave me a good point of view that would answer or maybe make syaza feel bit more better? Well, media is not entirely evil. People are. Tee hee. Me mama said, our generation (meaning hers.) should accept the for coming of the developing new world and how youth nowadays perceive the world, but as we preach in making the world a better place in a sense of democracy, the truth is far from reached. We are still “MALAYSIA” that somehow are still semi-nazi but in a nicer way. We are actually told of what to do, from the very beginning of our life cycle. Not to say it’s entirely wrong to have it, but it neglects the very fundamental of making people growing into diverse individuals with so many different unique qualities. Yet we mould them into about the average kind of individuals. Just look at our education system. It’s as simple as that. Go to school, get formal education, we do what teachers want us to do and sometimes we are not allowed to question. Mama said, since the very essence of time it has been that way, just that today it’s a bit more liberal. She also said that, no matter what it is, we youth today should try to adapt and have an adaptive re-use of things and only then it could be a far greater world than now. But as long as we don’t forget our roots, it’s all gonna be alright. I don’t even know if it’s true. But I’m definitely making my children think for themselves and I’ll be there to guide them or catch them when they fall. What does parent do best but to look out and care? Right? Oh well, student life has the all rounder thingy that I don’t understand. Until after this post I don’t. Maybe its time for us to just lay back, and think what is best for our future. Have an open mind to things. Then we could all be less-depressive, less-frustrated with life and just be jolly. Cheers!
I was talking to my mom bout how cruel lecturers can be sometimes. Especially in demoting us from the high level of creativity towards the level of burn ashes. Aiyah so depressing. Oh well, that’s life I guess. TAG ON LECTURERS: WE RULE, and what? Who? But after consulting my mom bout my disagreement with how lecturers are, my mom gave me a good point of view that would answer or maybe make syaza feel bit more better? Well, media is not entirely evil. People are. Tee hee. Me mama said, our generation (meaning hers.) should accept the for coming of the developing new world and how youth nowadays perceive the world, but as we preach in making the world a better place in a sense of democracy, the truth is far from reached. We are still “MALAYSIA” that somehow are still semi-nazi but in a nicer way. We are actually told of what to do, from the very beginning of our life cycle. Not to say it’s entirely wrong to have it, but it neglects the very fundamental of making people growing into diverse individuals with so many different unique qualities. Yet we mould them into about the average kind of individuals. Just look at our education system. It’s as simple as that. Go to school, get formal education, we do what teachers want us to do and sometimes we are not allowed to question. Mama said, since the very essence of time it has been that way, just that today it’s a bit more liberal. She also said that, no matter what it is, we youth today should try to adapt and have an adaptive re-use of things and only then it could be a far greater world than now. But as long as we don’t forget our roots, it’s all gonna be alright. I don’t even know if it’s true. But I’m definitely making my children think for themselves and I’ll be there to guide them or catch them when they fall. What does parent do best but to look out and care? Right? Oh well, student life has the all rounder thingy that I don’t understand. Until after this post I don’t. Maybe its time for us to just lay back, and think what is best for our future. Have an open mind to things. Then we could all be less-depressive, less-frustrated with life and just be jolly. Cheers!
Saturday, February 02, 2008
detach
i almost ramped into a car(s) today. and its not my fault. i swear.
[scene]
it was 1.26pm (i know cause it happened after i saw the clock in the car) when i was driving on the fast lane towards Bangsar to have lunch with Joe before i go home from campus, and was going not so very fast. 70-80km/h. but it still didnt help keep me safe. duh. some idiot decided to stop the car or slow down the car i dunno exactly but whole 4 cars in a linear suddenly decrease their speed. and for god's sake nothing was obstructing their way. it was miles gap between these four with the other car up front. so, for the very first time i actually used my honked out of panic. usually i don't because im shy. hah! can u imagine someone being shy to hit the honk? well im one of them. i can actually feel my car shrieking and being all wobbly. i had to stir the sterring to make it go slower so i wont hit the front car or the back car to hit me. imagine what position would i be in if all those things happen? i guess ill be squashed between metals, or my bones would have broken pieces by pieces, or my car would have exploded? since there were huge cars and lorries behind. and having to drive national car, its even worst. ours are milo tins remember? so, there i was trying to control and thank God nothing happened. i was inches away from ramping into the "GETZ" in front of me. idiots! u guys should re-take your license. aiyah! the sound of other cars hooting and tires shrieking was very loud. i was already partly saying my prayers. the picture of how my family got the news was playing vividly in my head. its a pretty scary moment. but im thankful nothing happened to me or the car. so yeah, imagine that!
my worst pre-accident so far... (i dont have many if ure wondering...)
night. xoxo
[scene]
it was 1.26pm (i know cause it happened after i saw the clock in the car) when i was driving on the fast lane towards Bangsar to have lunch with Joe before i go home from campus, and was going not so very fast. 70-80km/h. but it still didnt help keep me safe. duh. some idiot decided to stop the car or slow down the car i dunno exactly but whole 4 cars in a linear suddenly decrease their speed. and for god's sake nothing was obstructing their way. it was miles gap between these four with the other car up front. so, for the very first time i actually used my honked out of panic. usually i don't because im shy. hah! can u imagine someone being shy to hit the honk? well im one of them. i can actually feel my car shrieking and being all wobbly. i had to stir the sterring to make it go slower so i wont hit the front car or the back car to hit me. imagine what position would i be in if all those things happen? i guess ill be squashed between metals, or my bones would have broken pieces by pieces, or my car would have exploded? since there were huge cars and lorries behind. and having to drive national car, its even worst. ours are milo tins remember? so, there i was trying to control and thank God nothing happened. i was inches away from ramping into the "GETZ" in front of me. idiots! u guys should re-take your license. aiyah! the sound of other cars hooting and tires shrieking was very loud. i was already partly saying my prayers. the picture of how my family got the news was playing vividly in my head. its a pretty scary moment. but im thankful nothing happened to me or the car. so yeah, imagine that!
my worst pre-accident so far... (i dont have many if ure wondering...)
night. xoxo
Tuesday, January 29, 2008
If...
studying today is a stress factor. Research Method is one of a kind subject. no playing games here. dont intend to flunk it either. so im crossing my fingers and hoping for the best. nina has to gear up. and i am... starting now! *grin*
Sunday, January 27, 2008
blerghhh
i have this big sign on my forhead "IM SUCH CRAP"
indeed i am... night xoxo
indeed i am... night xoxo
Saturday, January 26, 2008
momentum
24 January 2008
Yesterday – miserable, depressing
Like so many others, I have a life. Life I can be proud of. A general birth of happiness, joy and laughters has always been within me but somehow days are gloomy now. Maybe its stress related to school workload, maybe its family, or maybe its friends. I’m not sure. But I know its not you. You’ve been the punching bag, without you this won’t emerge positively. Thank you. Have anyone ever felt that the world just exploded or have fallen unto your head? How does that feel? Technically speaking I don’t know, but I can imagine it to be so dreadfully painful. I’m coming to a similar phase where I can’t think straight. I can’t function well. My brain has just failed on me. It’s still running profusely but in a hijacked environment. I’m tired of things spinning and failing me. It’s frustrating. If until here, you’re tired of reading this, u may leave. Don’t waste ur time reading. I won’t take it to heart plus I don’t need anyone judging me. Cause this is what I feel. Being the simple old nina. So, when one day someone feels what I feel now, then come to me and talk because I would love to know how u deal with it.
Loving is hard. Has always been especially if it leaves u weak, vulnerable and unable to act correctly. And you know u want to do something about it but you just can’t. I don’t know how to define this. Is the people around you cruel or are you? Is it too much to ask for a little attention or affection when u need it? or is that not a rightful thing to expect? Selfish much? Oh my, I can’t differentiate the right from wrong anymore. Joe told me I’m a spoil brat. Maybe I am but despite that I know ill do anything in my power to make everyone around me happy. And it’s a tiring job. I’m not asking to be praised like an angel for what I’m born naturally of. But appreciation once in awhile makes it all good. For as long as I live, I have known that people will not come to me without purpose especially from those whom I love deeply. Why do people come to me anyways? Am I like that old rug on the floor that when u need to wipe your feet dry or clean, only then you come to me for cleaning help? I don’t want to be that person anymore. It’s sad. Why can’t people like to be around me just because I’m a great person to be with? Sometimes I think it’s because I’m an easy person to step on, or taken for a ride for. In simple English, taken for granted of. Now I know how my mom feels. Frustration is the root of all depression. It’s evil. And I’m learning and taking baby steps to not fall for it anymore. Why should I if no one elses care?
Days are faster now you know. The more ure towards your end, the faster it gets. And im feeling it now. Your time, my time may end any second. Not now but maybe a second later. Maybe mine would be when I sleep? I dunno. I am not saying im ready for it but I pray my death won’t be as painful as this. I hope no one else have to feel this. It’s equivalent to someone stabbing a knife in your heart and just leaves it there. I wonder who will be at my funeral. “Syaza said she is afraid no one will come to her wedding, don’t worry darling, I’ll definitely come. Cause it means the whole world to me to see you happy and well lit on your glorious day.” Im not thinking about marriage though, but if one day I die, I do not want to die in regret that I’ve not done what I’ve always wanted to do. Ill make sure my death wish list is accomplished. And if ure not true in being my friend, I don’t want you around when I’m on my death bed. Because I want to leave the world with people who honestly want to be there to bid me my final goodbye. Make sure no one cries ok? I can see you… :)
Good night now. xoxo
Yesterday – miserable, depressing
Like so many others, I have a life. Life I can be proud of. A general birth of happiness, joy and laughters has always been within me but somehow days are gloomy now. Maybe its stress related to school workload, maybe its family, or maybe its friends. I’m not sure. But I know its not you. You’ve been the punching bag, without you this won’t emerge positively. Thank you. Have anyone ever felt that the world just exploded or have fallen unto your head? How does that feel? Technically speaking I don’t know, but I can imagine it to be so dreadfully painful. I’m coming to a similar phase where I can’t think straight. I can’t function well. My brain has just failed on me. It’s still running profusely but in a hijacked environment. I’m tired of things spinning and failing me. It’s frustrating. If until here, you’re tired of reading this, u may leave. Don’t waste ur time reading. I won’t take it to heart plus I don’t need anyone judging me. Cause this is what I feel. Being the simple old nina. So, when one day someone feels what I feel now, then come to me and talk because I would love to know how u deal with it.
Loving is hard. Has always been especially if it leaves u weak, vulnerable and unable to act correctly. And you know u want to do something about it but you just can’t. I don’t know how to define this. Is the people around you cruel or are you? Is it too much to ask for a little attention or affection when u need it? or is that not a rightful thing to expect? Selfish much? Oh my, I can’t differentiate the right from wrong anymore. Joe told me I’m a spoil brat. Maybe I am but despite that I know ill do anything in my power to make everyone around me happy. And it’s a tiring job. I’m not asking to be praised like an angel for what I’m born naturally of. But appreciation once in awhile makes it all good. For as long as I live, I have known that people will not come to me without purpose especially from those whom I love deeply. Why do people come to me anyways? Am I like that old rug on the floor that when u need to wipe your feet dry or clean, only then you come to me for cleaning help? I don’t want to be that person anymore. It’s sad. Why can’t people like to be around me just because I’m a great person to be with? Sometimes I think it’s because I’m an easy person to step on, or taken for a ride for. In simple English, taken for granted of. Now I know how my mom feels. Frustration is the root of all depression. It’s evil. And I’m learning and taking baby steps to not fall for it anymore. Why should I if no one elses care?
Days are faster now you know. The more ure towards your end, the faster it gets. And im feeling it now. Your time, my time may end any second. Not now but maybe a second later. Maybe mine would be when I sleep? I dunno. I am not saying im ready for it but I pray my death won’t be as painful as this. I hope no one else have to feel this. It’s equivalent to someone stabbing a knife in your heart and just leaves it there. I wonder who will be at my funeral. “Syaza said she is afraid no one will come to her wedding, don’t worry darling, I’ll definitely come. Cause it means the whole world to me to see you happy and well lit on your glorious day.” Im not thinking about marriage though, but if one day I die, I do not want to die in regret that I’ve not done what I’ve always wanted to do. Ill make sure my death wish list is accomplished. And if ure not true in being my friend, I don’t want you around when I’m on my death bed. Because I want to leave the world with people who honestly want to be there to bid me my final goodbye. Make sure no one cries ok? I can see you… :)
Good night now. xoxo
Tuesday, January 22, 2008
Silly
i had quizzess today. one down and another to rant. hah! i hate today. its ironic how i can hate life easily now. hate hate hate. is that too mean to judge? wadeva
ok, its been a week that i stayed in my compartment. it seems so colourful when i got back. i wonder why? somehow i've forgotten that the carpets on the floor and the things i paste on the walls make it alive. well, its still boring because of the abiding rules but its still nice.
had dinner with my roommates and syaza last night. and played uno at mali. how cool is that? i told you my friends can be rather bizzarre. but in a good way. i love them. how could i not like what little things they do? *GRIN* so last night was a good come back.
ida was dancing last night while i was cracking my head to remember notes but to my amusement i cant see her less than that. she is always this impromptu roommate i've had since 1st year. its been 3yrs now living with my partially retarded roomie. we had our rows, differences and hatreds. but thats it. we always do that when we love someone. maybe out of dissapointment? *chehhh* but i have to say, ida rocks my head hard with all the things she likes to do in the room, enclosed by 4 hideous white walls. is your head starting to ponder what? well come join me in the room for some wild experience. hahahaha i make her sound like a pole dancer. sharks. i shouldn't do that, as it would give complimentary remarks for her. stop. erase. teee heee. but i love u anyway. Isk is following in her footstep. hopefully u don't turn into a wild monkey or a hamster per se isk. *smile* oh thats my other new roomie. and i like her too. she blends well.
so, 2moro is another public holiday. thaipusam. i wonder who among us are carrying the kabadi thingy. it must be a hell of a pain. to those celebrating, have an blessed festival. to those who are just going to enjoy the holidays, lets go kite flying or karaoke!? yes??? lets do something while im in campus. hahahhaha u know ull miss me....xoxo.
ok, its been a week that i stayed in my compartment. it seems so colourful when i got back. i wonder why? somehow i've forgotten that the carpets on the floor and the things i paste on the walls make it alive. well, its still boring because of the abiding rules but its still nice.
had dinner with my roommates and syaza last night. and played uno at mali. how cool is that? i told you my friends can be rather bizzarre. but in a good way. i love them. how could i not like what little things they do? *GRIN* so last night was a good come back.
ida was dancing last night while i was cracking my head to remember notes but to my amusement i cant see her less than that. she is always this impromptu roommate i've had since 1st year. its been 3yrs now living with my partially retarded roomie. we had our rows, differences and hatreds. but thats it. we always do that when we love someone. maybe out of dissapointment? *chehhh* but i have to say, ida rocks my head hard with all the things she likes to do in the room, enclosed by 4 hideous white walls. is your head starting to ponder what? well come join me in the room for some wild experience. hahahaha i make her sound like a pole dancer. sharks. i shouldn't do that, as it would give complimentary remarks for her. stop. erase. teee heee. but i love u anyway. Isk is following in her footstep. hopefully u don't turn into a wild monkey or a hamster per se isk. *smile* oh thats my other new roomie. and i like her too. she blends well.
so, 2moro is another public holiday. thaipusam. i wonder who among us are carrying the kabadi thingy. it must be a hell of a pain. to those celebrating, have an blessed festival. to those who are just going to enjoy the holidays, lets go kite flying or karaoke!? yes??? lets do something while im in campus. hahahhaha u know ull miss me....xoxo.
Sunday, January 20, 2008
Maturity Sucks
I’ve never realized that being an adult is so hard, difficult and stressful. What happened to my stressed free environment? This is not a self-realization or what so ever. Just a statement in my account. Everything started when I had to hunt for a place for practical training and having to do 21.5 crdt hr for this semester. It leaves me hectic, tired and robotic. How I wished I didn’t push myself. But I cant stand leaving on campus any longer so opt for this. Aiyah. Its not that I don’t get time for myself. I get it every weekend but somehow it has always been about college. Either educational or the complimentary things that came with it upon registration. Assignments are pilling up and mid terms are on the roll. I officially can say I HATE MY LIFE. And honestly, I need a break. I think ill do that right after I finish my degree. Hopefully my endurance is strong. *cross-fingers* sadly, the only time my mind is free was when I went shopping with my family today. I bought lotsa colourful clothes that I like. Im happy that I didn’t-not even once thought of the pile of work I have to do. Im glad. Glad to have fun-loving family as my comfort zone. Me Love....
Thursday, January 17, 2008
What i just realized...
days go by so quickly nowadays. i was in the car just now with joe and i asked him,
"bie, what day is 2moro?" he answered, "friday la syg.." i was like, f*ck! its friday already?
i felt it was only yesterday that its sunday; when i had to pick up my dad and say bye to joe. not permanently though just mutual bye bye. ok, i have to admit that my brain capacity to remember things and to function efficiently has drained. i feel tired most of the time, i feel like i have less time to do so many things in my to do list (and i always fail to finish all of everything daily), and like i've neglected most people that i should spend time with (esp. sue and kuhaz cause they are leaving in less than 7weeks) just because everyone around me is suddenly so demanding. im not saying its entirely everyone elses' and not mine. but you know sometimes blaming other people makes me feel better bout myself. cause at least i see myself not so screwed up. no matter how screwed up i can be. geez... i know i know i know its a bad trait but i don't do it on purpose. most are with perfect reasons why. i think.
ive been re- eading this entire post. its not even impressive. and not even nice to read. when i re-read it, i just see lines lines and lines of crap. ok. stop. rewind. i hate this. so much to do but so little time. i use to be so good at time management. now im just all screwed. this is serious. on top of that, im always out of money these days cause i spend it on necessary things like petrol. if i would just stay in campus and not go back and forth i would save at least 30% of my petrol expanses a month. but noooo...nina likes to be the wonder women for other people but never ever put herself first. WHY? cause u can call me dum dum. yes indeed. meet Miss Dum Dum.
i am forever complaining but im not doing anything bout it. and here my friends especially the closest to me have to hear my whines and swearing. or sometimes i just have this play technique of my own playing in my head. im acting like a kid again. i can't disclose myself openly to the public cause i think people will hate me. so i retreat into my comfort zone and talk to myself inside my head. now i make myself sound crazy. maybe i should see a shrink. cause even when i dont do anything wrong, ill cry and think i did. pressure is getting into me. i can seem happy, but im not. i can seem sad and glum but im just the total opposite. how to know my absolute truth? negative. even i dont know myself.
i should stop before my brain cracks into pieces. i need a break. maybe go for a holiday by the beach alone in the bahamas. i dont need anyone. im a fake. i need to stop talking. i feel sorry for myself.
xoxo
"bie, what day is 2moro?" he answered, "friday la syg.." i was like, f*ck! its friday already?
i felt it was only yesterday that its sunday; when i had to pick up my dad and say bye to joe. not permanently though just mutual bye bye. ok, i have to admit that my brain capacity to remember things and to function efficiently has drained. i feel tired most of the time, i feel like i have less time to do so many things in my to do list (and i always fail to finish all of everything daily), and like i've neglected most people that i should spend time with (esp. sue and kuhaz cause they are leaving in less than 7weeks) just because everyone around me is suddenly so demanding. im not saying its entirely everyone elses' and not mine. but you know sometimes blaming other people makes me feel better bout myself. cause at least i see myself not so screwed up. no matter how screwed up i can be. geez... i know i know i know its a bad trait but i don't do it on purpose. most are with perfect reasons why. i think.
ive been re- eading this entire post. its not even impressive. and not even nice to read. when i re-read it, i just see lines lines and lines of crap. ok. stop. rewind. i hate this. so much to do but so little time. i use to be so good at time management. now im just all screwed. this is serious. on top of that, im always out of money these days cause i spend it on necessary things like petrol. if i would just stay in campus and not go back and forth i would save at least 30% of my petrol expanses a month. but noooo...nina likes to be the wonder women for other people but never ever put herself first. WHY? cause u can call me dum dum. yes indeed. meet Miss Dum Dum.
i am forever complaining but im not doing anything bout it. and here my friends especially the closest to me have to hear my whines and swearing. or sometimes i just have this play technique of my own playing in my head. im acting like a kid again. i can't disclose myself openly to the public cause i think people will hate me. so i retreat into my comfort zone and talk to myself inside my head. now i make myself sound crazy. maybe i should see a shrink. cause even when i dont do anything wrong, ill cry and think i did. pressure is getting into me. i can seem happy, but im not. i can seem sad and glum but im just the total opposite. how to know my absolute truth? negative. even i dont know myself.
i should stop before my brain cracks into pieces. i need a break. maybe go for a holiday by the beach alone in the bahamas. i dont need anyone. im a fake. i need to stop talking. i feel sorry for myself.
xoxo
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