human vs. animal

animals can be classified into 2. wild and tame. well, obviously tame animals are most preferrable. but i like wild. like the tigers in the jungle? those are way much cooler. i love tigers. full stop. eehehhe. no pedigree name there. thanks to sarah. well, basically what i wanna say per indications with the topic, i can say that sometimes human can act like babies but far more worst like animals. dont use their head to think. im frustrated. yes. but that doesnt mean im not rational. so to tell you the truth, i hate these type of people. act as such nothing in this world matters more then their personal wants. shit. think la. dont hurt other people just for the fun of it. rationalize. cause thats the best policy. anyway, i was saying again. i love to have a pet at home. not cats but dogs this time. that cute little puppy in the window. so brown so cute. and to tell you the truth ive been wanting it since high school. or more to say since kindi. eheheheh so, conclusion here is...human vs animals? theirs no win-win situation. its either u care for the animal...u be an animal....u act as human....or u nurture both values. i pick last. brain is a beautiful thing god created for us. nurture n protect it from harm! i love....

Lots of Love,
Nina

Awal Muharam

Tonight is the beginning of the month "Awal Muharam". A marking day of the end of the Hijrah year in the Muslim Calender. I hope my fellow muslim bros and sisters did their prayers and recite the doa of year end and beginning of the year. I hope this brand new year will change me. Not as a whole completely but bit by bit to make me a better person. As well as bring you benefits as a whole. And i end this post with a doa i got through sms earlier this evening.

"Ya Allah! grant us kindness & iman; Ya Kareem! give us Patience & Love; Ya Rahim save us from Jahannam & reward us with Your Jannah! Amin! Happy New Year 1427H"

Assalamualaikum W.B.T

Lots of Love,

Nina

Kejahilan Kita

selain daripada shark fin sup. saya makan abalone dan sayur-sayuran. makan malam hari ini sedap seperti malam kelmarin. hari ini saya rasa ingin untuk berbicara dalam bahasa melayu. telah menukarkan blog skin saya kepada ya lebih sofistikated. cantik kan? betul ke ejaan itu? BM kerjaya telah menampakkan belang nya. Saya telah mula meminati B.M. apakah itu B.M? BM atau nama panjangnya Bahasa Melayu merupakan bahasa kebangsaan Malaysia. Tetapi tidak tahu mengapa, kita lebih mengutamakan bahasa inggeris sebagai bahasa perantaraan lebih-lebih lagi dengan pertukaran sistem bahasa komunikasi di institusi-institusi pengajian tinggi. Adakah B.M tidak boleh berkembang maju? atau sekadar di ketepikan? Setelah menonton rancangan televisyen "Songket bersama SKii" di kaca tv kelmarin, saya mendapati penggiat seni melayu adalah drpd golongan Peranakan bukannya Melayu secara lahir. Kenapa jadinya begini? Tidakkah Melayu mampu untuk menjadi penggiat seni warisan kita sendiri? atau kita begitu jahil akan nya? Melihat urat-urat benang yang menghasilkan sebuah songket yang bernilai membuatkan diriku terharu akan kelembutan dan ketelitian kraftangan kita ini. Sampai bilakah Melayu harus lupa diri dan memberi jalan kepada bangsa lain untuk menjadi perintis seni warisan masa hadapan?

Ditulis oleh,
Amanina.....

p/s: well, this is only a thing i felt like writing. No offence to any race. Its just something i feel should be written. Sorry to those who i left hanging n ive offended this far. Take care now. *BIG LOVE*

goodbyeee....

have u heard the song - goodbye my lover sang by james blunt? that inspires me for this one...

its been awhile now that this has been going...i nearly lost love because of this. and i nearly gave myself because of this. way back in history it was different. things were blunt. things were happy. things were shadowy. things were sad. but anything measured to this is crap. i know you people wont understand. but only the love i nearly lost would know why im writing this. thought it was for real. i got into a confusion over this. but after tonight, its clear. dilemma, no dilemma. everything is crystal clear. emo nina no more. but fine rejuvenating nina. so here's my last goodbye, to a friend, to a lover once, to a dreamer, to someone whom i cared up till the very last drop, and to the bestest n worst thing that happened to me in those days. predict this, ure a magician. predict it not ure normal.

to the people i cherish, love and owe a lot : have a peaceful life ahead. changes in the lunar calendar n in the moon makes everything worthwhile. Islamic calender coming to an end. Celebrate it and cherish the very moment so we can pray to God for a second chance. Amin...

Lots of love,
Nina

something to shareeee....enjoy!!

Your Seduction Style: Fantasy Lover

You know that ideal love that each of us dreams of from childhood? That's you!Not because you posess all of the ideal characteristics, but because you are a savvy shape shifter.You have the uncanny ability to detect someone's particular fantasy... and make it you.

You inspire each person to be an idealist and passionate, and you make each moment memorableEven a simple coffee date with you can be the most romantic moment of someone's lifeBy giving your date exactly what he or she desires, you quickly become the ideal lover.

Your abilities to make dreams come true is so strong, that you are often the love of many people's lives.Your ex's (and even people you have simply met or been friends with) long to be yours.No doubt you are the one others have dreamed of... your biggest challenge is finding *your* dream lover.

world around me

hello again!!!!!!!!!!!~~~~

nothing to report back today. i just wanna say to everyone that i feel ancient after going to our national library today (with daydeck as usual). the place for lepaking way back in the early 2000. where ppl meet ppl and not forgetting dating...hah! i use to like going there as a teen. i mean im not that old la. just 20 but ive grown so mature that i couldnt recognise myself sometimes. instead of cuci-mata-ing like i use to back then, i was there to do a real research for my assignment. thats why i feel so lame, boring n ancient. i saw all these school kids sitting at the library with their form 3, form 4 and spm books. and i look at mine. SHIT! urban planning? town planning? laws? street design? im oldddddd...i hate the big 2-0. and i hate my campus. hate my lecturers for giving too much work to do. and most important is. i hate my life without wandy. ala syg....come back k? mwahs. i love you. ok before i get all mushi and i bet no one needs to know or read the jiwangness i have. ill let it be like that. im gonna enjoy my chat with people i love now and the rest of you...get a life! stop reading my foolishness blog. love ya! *HuGs*

Lots of Love,
Nina

what happened?

ok..i know its been a long time since i updated this little black book of mine. i love myself now. just a note. ehehhe

just a little update on what happened while i was gone form writing. its not in a correct order. im writing as and when i remember things. ok? so here goes....

my car got hit. lost my side mirror. sian cookie.wandy went back today n i cired. got a diamond dust ring from wandy before he left n i cried again.im emotional.u must know that by now.did a suprise party for my syg. it wasnt succesful but its still good.went clubbing that night too. came back at 6. my leg was hurting a week ago.limping and i feel so handicapped.thansk to friends i survived.had an incredible time doing projects with my legolas look alike. was tired the whole of last week cause of massive assignment due dates. and this list goes on...maybe ill update later?

im in a state of wreckness. my eyes are swollen n puffy after the cry. 2days in a row. and i have flu. hate it. now im going to be happy. typing all those history is very sad cause everything relates to one person. and that person is YOU. syg u so much...mwahs.

p/s: im leavingggggggggggggggg.....mwahs

Lots of Love,
Nina

im very sick

wounded...sick...all the bad feeling...i am enduring. how can i be sick at the very last moment. yummy choc cake to bake. graphic scrap to do. and tons of assignment to finish. damn im tired and all worn out. i need a break. mayb head for the beach and indulge myself with the heat n sand? or maybe what i need is a break to a spa. but im feeling great bout something else. i hope everything goes out right for me later.....btw, somebody is getting old. ole ole ole....

Love,
Nina

recoveringgg...

i bet my friends will scream when i announce this. but seriously, i dont give a damn. im sure anyone deserves a second chance. so today was my 2nd anniversary with wandy. dont get me wrong, its not 2months but a serious long winded 2years relationship it has been. i broke up with him this morning. after considering a lot of things. but suddenly change my mind after our anniversary dinner. i guess when ure in love no other thing in this world matters. people face hardship now and than. so here i am, trying to endure and accept his mistake. maybe one day he'll do the same to me. i love you syg.....happy 2nd anniversary and many more to come. INSYAALLAH. we have open a fresh chapter in our live for starters. hopefully nothing messy will come our way that we couldnt solve. if this thing happens again next time. im sure to hold tightly to my guns. so, to my lovely friends, i guess thats done huh? thanks for all your support and kind loving care. i love u with all my heart. wouldnt succeed if it wasnt for you girls. BIG HUG!

p/s: today is recovering...2moro is a blast for the future.

good night.

Love,
Nina

cookie

i finally decided to call my car cookie. its not because i think my car is delicious in any way. but i have always wanted to name one of my valuable thing cookie cause it's cute. thought of giving that nick to my future anak but i changed my mind. mayb ill come with a better on along the way. so for now on...my car is named - COOKIE. plus its all white now. u can say it has lotsa cream on it. ahahahha. so here i am naming my car cookie. hope it doesnt offend anyone. cause i likeeee....

good night everyone...hugs

Lots of Love,
Nina

my guitarist

[CELEBRATION]
hello! sitting at my usual spot again. new year was fab! went to OU street party for the countdown and it felt like a reunion as i saw my other 2 cuzz (dewi n kak marinie) celebrating there also. the rest of the gang was down at Cynna in KL. Wanted to meet up with them but then stupid things came up. but even so...i still enjoyed the very last bit. HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!! mwahs. hugs.

Hit for peterpan concert the next day 010106. that was another fab! despite the stupid things i had to go thru within the 2 days. -arrival- it was raining heavily when me and wandy arrived at the stadium. the "tanah" was so muddy. my shoe was ruined. but its worth it after seeing them perform. ahhh ariel is so damn hot. those six packs are incredible. uki is someone u would fall for too. aiya. so cheeky la me. ehehhe but its fun!

[AFTER PARTY....HEH!!!]
last night, sue played her guitar and sang for us (ppl who wanted to hear). im stuck to this one padi song..yea thanks to her. couldnt remember the name of the song but it is stuck in my head now. and did i tell you "she's fantastic?" she is..she is...i wanna learn toooo.... thumbs up for my dearest guitarist. she's so cool la. i bet if i was a guy i would feel threaten by her.boleh tackle any girl siot.mayb she was born for the stage. "another song is ringing in my head...." ok ok...no more compliments. later makin besar bontot sue. ehehhe i know she will love that to happen. eyh sue?

[TODAY]
when to class with sue cause my car is with wandy. tired of walking la. dont likeee... i miss my car already. talked to appa after class asking if he landed safely or not. he did. thank god. going to search for cheap fares later on. see la kan. nak balik kuching la!!! i feel slimmer now. suddenly jak! apa jak la. afterwards is our tourism meeting with the whole studio. i know it will be chaotic. trust me. lotsa em will never agree. better keep our fingers cross. my class too much dilemma la. later tonight will be going to mambo jambo kot...see if nong is up to it or not. mayb can get in free? ehehehe im lovin' it. ok la....

[END OF CHAPTER]
it became a long blog suddenly. so im bored. can i like stop now? ahahha...bye ppl. dont bother bout this crazy person. take care and have a nice life!

Lots of Love,
Nina

Feeeeeeling Numb

numbness is something u feel when you dont even care anymore what the situation will be. right or wrong? its halfway there. no one cares. im numb now. i dont feel a thing. only cold. alone. afraid. and despair. negative vibes are coming to me. why? imust be too tired to think. i love the endurance of projects but to finish it......you answer.

im sick now..tired to top it up and im still searching. thanks to those who made my life easier. toodles!

Love,
Nina

opps LUPAK...

hey....just wanted to say this....

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!! MAKE YOUR RESOLTUIONS RIGHT THIS TIME U GUYS.


Love,
Nina

Jom Makan?

im currently sitting in the kaed lab now after printing my landscape planning assignment.and online now. i was sleepy in QSB this morning due to lack of sleep and i slept thru break. and im hungry and wanna eat. please help me. i need to eat. i want to go to the cafe now and indulge myself in those helathy food that keeps me trim n firm. ahahhahaha. ok...i nak gi makan. hungry seh!!!!! take care everyone.

p/s: i hope sarah wants to accompany me. *gRin*

Lots of love,
Nina

Say What?!

Merry Xmas everyone!!

im happy, im feeling useful and handful. should have gotten that PDA phone. but nooooooooooo wanted to be a jewel in front of my mom and said its ok ma. ill pass. "lagikpun phone kmk gik bagus bah..." how corny can i get...but everything's good. going shopping AGAIN tomorrow. more shoes and more tops i suppose? owh ya, one thing i wanna share. i lost another 2kgs today. i mean i check weekly. so i lost again. in total 9.4kgs. isnt that cool? i feel so healthy now. very.

what else is there to blog? more workloads every week. and tension arises. nothing to complain or feel proud of. copping well. i love my course for the time-being. and can't wait for wandy to come back. i love the familiar smell of him especially after he sleeps on my bed. that smell makes me wanna smile. i loveeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee....

oh ya, bout the dillema. im over it. thanks to ida. i realise something. how stupid of me. but im happier and losing weight. so i can say im getting gorgeous? ahahhaha okla...toodles n nite nite everyone. huggies!!

Lots of Love,
Nina

continuation....

oh right...this is a happier version. (instruction:read the first one first b4 proceeding)

*scroll down...


i like the way i know it. it makes my heart grows rapidly big. and makes me feel beautiful but as i said it embarassing. ha ha ha ha.

actually i just wanted to write, i spill water on my baju kurung this morning while accompaning syaza n radhi for breakfast at HS cafe. thank god it was just water. if not ill cry. and now everything is good. class starts soon. so ill be off in a jippy!!

to everyone out there who knows this dilemma of mine. fingers-cross and shut the hell out of your mouth. i want it to happen but not this way. i love all of you. hugs. mwahs

Lots of Love again,
Nina

Gateway....

had sleepness nights last night and the night before. struggled to sleep as usual at night eventho how tired i am. read the QSB book to make me fall asleep. it did work for awhile but i guess my brain just didnt want to register that i need sleep afterwards. had dreams about lotsa stuff. all this legolas thingy is sipping into my head like no body's business. how weird is it that someone u like, may like u back. especially when it considers 2 years crush. i hate those people who like to play ppl-matching. i hate em i hate em i hate em. the least i need now is for someone to mismatch me and with that particular person. its so embarassing. so yeah, talking about my weirdest dream. i dream bout this person for days now, since i learn the truth. i know some would say im "perasan" but actually i dont like the feeling at all. i hate not being able to be myself around him anymore and hate for not being able to joke around him like i use to. or in a shorter version, being myself. its depressing. the ambience in the studio is growing tense for me when ever he is around. i don't deny i like to know what i know. but i guess some girls just cant cope with the truth especially for someone like me. i may seem robust, inconsiderate with my words, outspoken, happy, occasionally crazy (ermm..?), and etc but.....some things i would appreciate people to lay low. cause i am indeed embarass now. i dont keep secrets. but if this means ill loose my face to someone or loose my freedom of acting n speech. ill lay low from now. no more telling secrets to ppl. let me be the one listening to ppl for a change. ill turn the table around for awhile. till i gain my strength back. im tired, im sick and i have headache. ill push it away now before i grow nuts. now i understand why sue n kuhaz are secretive. i like that way more now. ill have to ask them for advice and learn how to be discreet. toodles for now. off to class in awhile. hugs everybody. i love....

p/s: to wandy, if ure reading this dont be sad. im expressing. no confirmation. i love u.

Lots of love,
Nina

memories

"I have great hopes that we shall love each other all our lives as much as if we had never married at all."

-Lord Bryon

i wonder what this quote indicates for my future life. still wondering and will never stop. do i stay to dwell or i leave and never turn back? clock is ticking hard and yet i couldnt solve it.........

Second Week of Lecture

Ok ill start off with ALOHA! Yesterday was a public holiday for the whole Selangor due to the Sultan's Birthday. Because of that, me and my immediate family went for a road trip to kuantan and terengganu during the weekend. It was fun despite the moments i have to go to the toilet every hour because of my over-flowing period. Well, talking bout bad timing to go travelling. So i would like to advise anyone with the same problem like mine to walk around as much as u can before entering the car. Cause the more u sit the more painful n over-flowing it is. Ok, enough of those gross detail. I came back around 730 last night and just started my assignment. I was lucky to be able to finish it at 5am this morning.Thanks to syeeq that accompanied me all night so i can stay awake. If not ill surely cry with deep shit. Yesterday also wandy called saying he's heading for Brunei and maybe will be in sabah for a few days after.Im happy for him as i bet he is enjoying every bit of his holiday. Will be seeing him again for new year. that wont be long. but ive already missed him so much. i guess ill just have to be patient. Anyhow, classes starts full blast today. Met Dr Spahic Omer, my Quran, Sunnah n built environment lecturer. He is adorable. I don't understand why people say his class is boring. I like his lecture. makes all the sense in the world. so i can say i like him la. cool kan? i finally have a foreigner as my lecturer.

Ermm what else to write? i dunno la, the ironic of all situation is i talked to hafiz, wandy's nephew aka my old friend in MRSM yesterday. It felt so weird knowing that i have a crush on him long before i know wandy. And now im having a relationship with his uncle (sounds so old la the word...but same age la)? so weird. even talked to isz, my classmate in MRSM and also a relative of wandy's. what a small world after all.

to wandy : if u come across this post, i just wanna say i miss you and i love you. hope ure having the time of your life and do take care. simpan your passport properly.dont want it to go missing again do we? send my regards to everyone and keep on missing me ok? i love you so very much. mwahs mwahs mwahs *hugS*

to everyone else...this is the end. im ending this so i can go to the cafe to meet my friends. they are having lunch now. so till later. toodles!!

Lots of Love,
Nina

Represent, represent Cuba!

ok, im currently listening to the songs from dirty dancing ost. nothing much to report this time of the month. its december and i dunno what to write. spent time with wandy and family mostly. my parents finally met wandy and didnt complain much. mayb his charm? i also dunno. no comments. other than that, nothing interesting happened. what ever me and wandy do on our first real date is for us to keep as memories. i didnt imagine i could do that EVER! but it did happen. dont get me wrong. nothing disgusting happened. just a stroll and fun-ish (if there's such a word) doings. to sum it up, it went well till he had the stomach cramp attack again. but he's ok now.

2moro ill be going back to campus and here starts the hectic life of mine. results was ok, but could've done better. will be seeing my friends again. Miss them la actually. plus my whole family is going for our yearly trip and im left out. as usual, duty calls. sad aint it?? oh ya before i forget, today my 2 close cuzz nong n zuki went to this explore race thingy. cross-fingers and hopefully they go thru it? its the second round anyways. so mayb we could catch them on tv.

dah la, im board of writing. ill keep my pencil down now. bye everybody. *hugs*

Love,
Nina