Crazy!!

Actually im sitting next to the rockest most sexy little twit ive ever known in my entire life. she just accepted my invitation to be a member of the spice up team! how dodgy can i get? ahaha it took you more than a week to accept babe! its so frustrating... but nemind ill live with it!
well ok lah im trying to enjoy my song now...have fun with the nick nacks paddy wack give a dog a bone! Love ya babe!

Tolerance

normally i would be so unlucky with love...everytime falling back into love even as i dont realise it. when i least expect it to be perfect it does but when i want it to be? it would end so fast! *siGh* having meet various people make me so confused. sometimes i just thought it would be perfect to do something but in the end its just a total wrong step! i wish i had those six sense.

have i seen pigs fly? of course i do...but only when im with one particular person! so sad aint it? having fall in love with lotsa people but only experience the best of it just once? so pathetic but so true at the same time! i dont think i would ever feel the same way again. i really want to feel it again but its just that i dont feel the sparks anywhere in my other relations. I know im not blocking it cause ive tried my level best. and im being very untrue that one particular person.

how i wish i am not in this situation. so help me god! everytime i wanna say what i really feel and be honest, something would held me back from saying it just because i feel pity or i feel i would regret it later? love is the matter of taking risk and im obviously not taking any! i dont wanna lead a life out of lies...people would say just tell the truth but its not that entirely easy to do so..especially when the person ure supposed to love all your heart love you with all their heart n would do anything for you....am i bad?

to end this conquest i would just have to wait! maybe it wont be all that bad....sorry sweetie! i know u love me so much! im so bad for you! *hUgS*

pick up from a friend

Once upon a time, there was a teacher and his student lying down under a big tree near a big grass area. Then, suddenly, the student asked the teacher,

Student : Teacher, I'm confused, how can we find our soul-mate? Can you please help me?
Teacher : (Silent for few second, than he answer) Well, it's a pretty hard and easy question.
Student : (Thinking hard) Huh???
Teacher : Look on that way, there are a lot of grass there, why don't you walk there but please never walk backward, just walk straight ahead. On your way, try to find a beautiful grass and pick it up then give it to me. But just one. Student : Well, ok then... wait for me... (walked straight ahead to the grass field). A few minutes later...
Student : I'm back.
Teacher : Em, well I don't see any beautiful grass on your hand.
Student : On my journey, I found few beautiful grass , but I thought that I would find a better one , so I didn't pick it up. But I didn't realize that I'm at the end of the field , and I hadn't picked up any. Cause you told me not to go back , so I didn't go back.
Teacher : That's what happened in real life . What is the message of this story?

* Grass - is people around you
* Beautiful Grass - is people that attract you
* Grass Field - is time

* In looking for your soulmate , please don't always compare and hope that there will be a better one . By doing that, you'll waste your lifetime , cause remember " Time Never Goes Back ". It applies the same in finding your ideal life partner, your suitable career or business, therefore the morale is LOVE & grab hold of the opportunity that you have now , don't waste time!

~There Can Be Only One~

Doubutsu Uranai Results

You are Brown Wolf, who is innocent, pure and honest type of woman. Although you seem like a difficult person to get to know, and the way you are indifferent to your surroundings makes you seem like a saucy person, you really are generous and do not think much about your own advantages.You are not a sentimental sort of person, and will go on no matter how difficult it seems. You are also able to take on lots of duties at once.You can not stay in one place for a long time, and will go on moving on to new environments. You weakness is that you lack endurance.You are born good natured and a hard working person. But you can not carry things out efficiently, and lacks neatness. This makes you have a disadvantage. Nevertheless, you have great inquiring mind, and to something that interests you, you will go investigating into it deeply and thoroughly. You will be able to find and come out with your own unique idea. You don't care what the others think of you, and will stay faithful to your own way of living.You don't look back to your past or keep on dreaming about the future. You stay in put with reality.You are rather optimistic, and can overcome any situation quite easily.After getting married, you will be a family loving devoted housewife.

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SUPER SIZE ME

Why are Americans so fat? Two words: Fast Food. What would happen if you ate nothing but fast food for an entire month? Filmmaker Morgan Spurlock does just that and embarks on the most perilous journey of his life. The rules? For 30 days he can't eat or drink anything that isn't on Mcdonalds menu; he must wolf three squares a day; he must consume everything on the menu at least once and supersize his meal is asked. Spurlock treks across the country interviewing a host of experts on fast food and an equal number of regular folk while chowing down the Golden Arch es. Spurlock's grueling drive-through diet spirals him into a physical and emotional metamorphosis that will make you think twice about picking up another big mac.

"WOULD YOU LIKE FRIES WITH THAT? WILL NEVER SOUND THE SAME"

A documentary that everyone must watch...this is totally horrifying and i dont think i would want to go for fast food nymores!! its disgusting...vegie lover coming up! ahahahha...SAY NO TO SIZE UP n NO TO FATTY!!

JIGGLY FRIGGLY FRIENDS

Everyone in this whole wide world would die without friends to cheer them up or just to have someone make silly crazy things with them. In my history of friendship ive come across a lot of different kind of people. Some are just plain annoying, some are fun to be with, some are plastic and the list of people goes on never ending. I finally realise that we cant escape from people like that even where ever we go in this whole wide world. But one thing for sure there will at least be someone out there that would understand us and willingly be our soulmate. I know i wont be able to move on without my friends especially in all those hard times.

First dedication goes out to D.A.Y.D.E.C.K.. I met her about a year ago through friends. I dunno...but ive been very close to her ever since. She knows a lot about me and vice versa. We've been helping each other quite a lot for a new friendship binding. I know if we have been in the same college now we would grow closer intwinned with each other but distance makes it a bit difficult but hell yeah im appreciating her friendship. One of a kind i must say. But dont even mention about her shyness cause she indeed is ONE!! i dont get it how we could get along especially when our charateristics are very different. Too much differences for a good friend. ahahahha... but i still Love ya babe! and Thanks

Hands up for Zahie! No one is this entire world could understand me better than her! She is wicked, she is funny, she can talk non-stop, she is never-ending "agony-aunt" for me! I love her like i love my teddies. Would do anything for that friend even if she irritates me quite a lot but she knows how to handle me. The one touch no one has. My secret keeper most of the times just like my dear friend Daydeck. Despite her wickedness she is actually a very sweet girl that i couldnt compare with. The only wierd thing about her is she hardly would say a guy is cute or handsome. But once she gets an eye on someone it would surely be the most handsome n cute guy uve ever set eyes on. So you can always count on her cause she has perfect vision! SERIOUS SAID! Thank you for those incredible 6 years we had all along!

My partner in crime would be my best cuzz NONG. We did everything together most of the time. I would say we've tried everything when we are together. From the tiny little bits till the huge ever stuff i could imagine. I wouldnt exchange her with any other cuzz i could. She is my friend, she is my saver, she is also my helper! I can tell her anything without feeling shy. So ill keep it that way! *hUgS*

To sum up...my friends here are my JEWEL. Maybe as my journey goes around i would find more JEWEL to add in....yeah?

Thanks to them im here standing strong! Love you girls a lot!

i dedicate the song "INDEPENDENT WOMEN" to you girls!

Maximum Love,
NiNa

Feelings

I just cant understand the hearts of men
They tell you they want you and then they leave you
This is the first time, you`re special
I believed those words and I was so happy
You should have told me you didn`t like me any more
But I couldn`t see that and you just rushed me
Although I will curse you I`ll still miss you
Since I am a girl, to whom love is everything
I heard that if you give up things too easily
To a man, he will get bored with youI don`t think this is wrong
A girl says that she will never be fooled again
But she will fall in love again
You should have told me you didn`t like me any more
But I couldn`t see that and you just rushed me
Although I will curse you I`ll still miss you
Since I am a girl, to whom love is everything
Hey babe
The pain..........
It`s not enough

**it ain't easy to forget and move on**

BACK

im back...and finally back home!! been back home..supposingly im resting now but tons of work to finish by the end of the work..wow college life sucks man.. i thought it would be FUN...but surely not in my matriculation centre!! everything is restricted to zero percent!! sharks i wish i am outside!! good night everybody.. im dull...dull as ever..toodles

Meeeeeee...

Aloha the world of writing. Sitting at the same place at the cc as usual boringggg...no one to talk to. Tomorrow we have solat awareness programme that surely i wont give a fuck of.not trying to give my back to my religion its just that all this programmes doesnt make sense to me. dahla have loads of homework to do. thats why i kinda hate it. the time length is from 8am til 11pm. what da hell? dah la cannot go back home...i feel like im in another boarding school that rules n regulation are the main thing. geez i hope ill get over it with flying colours. my english now also tunggang langgang due to my tunggang langgang head. what ever it is im trying to have a great time here! wish me luck...ahahahha...toodles ya'll. im off to sleep now. Night.

p/s: nasib im going to the national art gallery 2moro...yippie!!!

DAYDECK

this gurl...what can i say? my becoming bestfriend i guess..she knows everything bout me from the tiny bits to the huge things. now she is in melaka...far away from me!! sob sob... sedih aieee...i want her near..come la here to me deck.. :( miss her so much. wish u had accepted that offer before to come to UIA. at least we wont have to be separated n far awayyyyy!! ahahaha....i sound like a lesbo already..ew ahaha just miss my dearest friend here...come visit me sometime ok? love ya loads dearest.. mwahs mwahs.. toodles

home sweet home

good afternoon!! im home...home sweet home..nothing can beat staying at home with the right texture of everything. in 3 hours ill be in the hostel again. SHARKSS..thank god my project is finally finish. what else to write here? damn i wanna sleep. take care u guys! mwahs toodles.

crazy

ok..im rushing but as usual i tend to delay what i have to do. as for now im sitting at the college cc that i seriously am not familiar with. im just sitting here to finish my research. get up on the 6th floor to mandi n etc. have to finish my sketch development tonight n put clours. i hope ill be fine. guess its hectic uni life. especially architecture students i guess... toodles for now. love everyone of you who's reading! thanx...im in despairr....

p/s: this cc sucks cause u cant be comfortable here doing ure stuff..there is always people who tend to wait like idiots...enuff said!!

2nd Week...

Ok..i know its been awhile since i write in this blogger! Too much to do so little time. For the 2nd week it wasnt all that bad. Firstly ive accepted the way things are at the hostel. From the people, to the room condition, to even the TOILETS. I finally can take my bath in peace even if i have to close my eyes everytime i have to enter those cubical toilets. SHARKSSS...iM so pampered!!

If before i am not so used to REALLY performing the 5 daily prayers (miss here and there!)but now i am happy of myself that finally i did try doing it. And suprisingly i pray to each WAKTU. Alhamdulillah. At first it is hard especially to generate ure lazy bum to do it..but just after 2 weeks in uia ive started to be kinda rajin to pray. Thanks to my roomates who has always remind me to PRAY PRAY PRAY and wake me up from sleep for SUBUH prayers. See...how good i can get? ehehe...

What else happened around the week? Well, classes havent really started yet but some did especially classes on thursdays n fridays. For the first few days of the week i just had to run from one department to another to get hold of class timetables - english, graphic communication, enviromental design 1, FKM (some sort of pendidikan islam in english), economics, maths & stats, also fardhu ain (can you guys believe i failed to the fardhu ain class just because of one stupid question? damn!!)TIRING LA!! So, when thursday came i started my first GC (graphic communication) class. my lecturer is one small, young looking female! She seems nice and all but i can say from my perception she is the type that will say what ever is in her mind no matter who you are especially if ure work is not satisfying. For my Ed class thats is environmental design i have brother muhammad hisham as my lecturer. He is nice but at the same time very very strict! he is also one funny guy! On my first day to class, i had to introduce myself to the entire class that mostly are attented by seniors. So you guys can just imagine how i was standing in front of the class. And i was the only Sarawakian so it makes people more excited to ask questions especially my dearest LECTURER. geez he can talk a lot.

First time in class, we've already given projects to do and by monday i have to submit at least 10 to 15 sketches. Im trying and i wont want to dissapoint myself for not trying. Good Luck to myself. Guess ill go now to start off...Toodles.

p/s: damn i miss him!! you know who you are! im yours in many ways!!~~

First Week...

University, everyone's dream place! Registered last monday (14th june '04). First day wasnt much, just had to clean up the UGLY room n get ready for "solat berjemaah"-maghrib isya'. After that, we had to attend a briefing about placement test. It is compulsory for students who enroled in the University to sit for English n Arabic placement test. This will ensure the period of time each student has to stay in the centre till they move to UiA, Gombak. Came back late, around 12 something. Eventhough i am very sleepy but the new environment that im not use to just yet makes it harder for me to sleep. The uncomfortable bed,the hot room, the new bedspread (hate it!), and new people in the room (not use to it). So, i CRIED....so pathetic of me. ahaha

2nd day - as early as 430a.m i woke up to get ready n mandi! finally i entered the bathroom. To my suprise, the TOILET is HIDEOUS. i cant stand it. broken tiles, not so clean water. Strait at that precise monet i wish it was a dream n im back at home. Im exaggerating..i know that but what do you expect? i hate ugly toilets! ahahah...After solat subuh, we took our breakfast and by 7a.m we are already in lines of two to go to the field for morning briefing. After that, English PLacement Test was conducted. Around 9a.m. Had to sit for to papers. First is grammar n the second one is essay writing. I just hope ill get through it at least level 4...and if possible EAP strait. So i dont have to study english. Amin. After lunch, we had Arabic placement test. This is funny...i wrte my name n only took 15mins to finish the paper. I dont understand what they are questioning...i dunno ARABIC!! ahahah....but i got thru..i will surely enter Level 1.

Other than the test, it was briefing n singing all the way through. The tiring part is always lining up n walking from one place to another. Plus, its damn hot! Finally 2 days before ta'aruf week ended i met lots of Sarawakian around...if before this i felt So Lost in my own world but after meeting few sarawakians...i felt more like home. Thank God i found them. Alhamdulillah...

So now, im home...my clean bathroom n water, my comfy bed..and GOOD FOOD...nothing can beat home sweet home.

Good night..toodles!

FITRI....

Today is a brand new day for me. Im 18 and I am going to be in Uni by tomorrow. Its fun and surely a hell of an adventure. A fresh new page of my life will be open...and from that day brand new things will encounter. either bad or good. i just hope for now im strong enough to endure every obstacle that comes around. For i am the SUPERWOMEN! ahaks daydeck will be leaving also today (like me)..both of us are excited but sad and scared to make the huge step but well...nothing is easy in this life. It's like coming back to our baby life when we had to take the first step of walking. i can say its hard than but harder now. so wish me luck eyhs guys (yg membaca..) thanx for every single fun times i had with all my friends around. you guys are tha bomb! hope they'll be more fun in UIA...geez..cant believe im going to have to wear tudong AGAIN!! ahahah... i will be missing every single one of you. Chow. Assalamualaikum.

p/s: Fitri is such a babe!! i mean he is so gorgeous n handsome..isk...so mesmerizing!! cant stop thinking about him since i saw him yesterday....damn his GOOD-LOOKING!!!!

im 18!

Today is a Lucky Day!! cause its my BIRTHDAY!!! happy birthday to me..happy birthday to me..happy birthday happy birthday...happy birthday to me!!! YEAY!!~~

Sick....

Few days ago..wandy got sicked - fever, soar throut, tummy ache. I don't know what happened actually or what he did to himself (he aint letting it out!) but its just sad to hear him all sick. I cried the night i called him to ask how was he and why suddenly he demam. Just by hearing his voice I cried. He sounded so LEMAH. I wished I was there with him to take care n FORCE him to take his medication. He can be so stubborn when it come to ubat but well..what can i do if he needs more attention? ehhehe...well syg, if ure reading this..i just wanna say take care of yourself and i love you. Sorry for not being capable to be there with you. Mwahs.

NiNaLiYaNa

Break Ups...

I often hear people around me especially my DEAREST friends grief about losing someone that has been part of themselves even if it is just for a short period of time. The loss of a relationship can be incredibly hard - you can feel so much pain. There's not only the grief from losing someone important in your life, but the pain of seeing your hopes and dreams of a future life together disappear as well. Sometimes this is the hardest part - having to totally readjust your view of how you saw your life unfolding in the next 5 to 10 years. Suddenly, you can't see into the future and it's scary. VERY SCARY!

Earlier today, a friend of mine was having a difficult time solving her own problems involving - how to cope with her own feelings. What i can say here is that some people may feel like they're starting over - that they've lost everything that was important to thenm and they're not sure what to do anymore (this happens to everyone - trust me). It may be hard for some people to imagine their life without their partner - their lives have been so intertwined. But everyone has to face the truth and let "yourself" know that even how hard or complicating the problem is, you will get through it no matter what.

People can be in quite a dilema after break ups. One - they will have difficulty in trusting again. This happens. You may find yourself questioning who you can trust, including your own judgement since you may not have expected the break-up. You may wonder if you were wrong to have trusted your partner. You may begin to question how real your relationship was because if it was real how could it be over? Your ability to trust may feel shaky. You probably trusted your partner, and expected your relationship to last. You may feel alone and abandoned, even if you're the one who decided to leave. While it takes time, you can re-build trust in yourself and others again. Even though this relationship is over that doesn't mean that you were wrong to trust her/him, and even if you were that doesn't mean that you'll make that mistake again. You can learn from this.

Break-ups can hurt immensely and shake us to our very core. They can throw us right back to the feelings we had in our first relationships -the ones we had with our parents. If as a child, your relationship with your parents were loving and supportive, you may find yourself wanting to be with them, even wanting to be a child again when it felt safer and easier. If your relationship with your parents was difficult, lacking, or abusive you may feel some of the feelings that you felt with them (even if you weren't aware of them as a child.) You may feel as though you are drowning in grief and feelings of abandonment. If you feel as though you are being punished or that the break-up means that you are unloveable, or unworthy of love, you are probably triggered - those are messages, beliefs or feelings that usually originate in childhood.

At times of loss, it is very common for feelings, beliefs and memories from past hurts, traumas, and losses to come up. Not only are you dealing with the present loss, but your past losses as well. No wonder, it hurts so much! And, there are ways to cope with triggers.

Grief moves in stages - it has a beginning, middle, and an end phase.
In the beginning, you may feel in shock, denial, or numb. It may be hard for you to believe what has happened. It may be hard to make sense of it all. You may find yourself expecting to come home to your partner or for her/him to call at a regular time only to discover that's not the case any longer. It may take awhile for you to fully comprehend that the relationship is over. During this phase many people operate as if the relationship is still on even as they grieve the loss. For example, even though you may be really upset, you may not have fully accepted that the relationship is over. Deep down you may be waiting for her/him to come back. (People do this even after a death, it's normal.) This period of disbelief or shock is the body's natural protection against pain. You may try to get back together even when you know it's over. You may go over and over in your mind and with everyone you talk to what you think led to the break up or what might have made a difference and resulted in a different outcome. This is the "if only" stage - "if only I had...or, if only I hadn't..." we might still be together. If you are doing this, you are likely trying to make sense of what has happened, trying to understand and take it in, and trying to change it too. It's hard to take in that a break up is permanent. You'll need time to fully absorb this reality. At this stage, you may have trouble remembering things, focusing, and feeling a sense of purpose or direction in their lives - you may feel as though you are drifting through the day. This is a natural initial reaction to loss.

The second stage involves feeling fear, anger and depression. This stage often lasts the longest and can be filled with feelings of insecurity, panic, worry, crying, anger, and feelings of depression. Some people don't allow themselves to feel, while others have trouble letting go of how they are feeling. Both are essential - feeling and eventually letting go. Some people worry that if they let themselves feel that they'll be overcome with emotion and never come out of it - they'll drown in their feelings and not be able to function. Others feel their feelings but can't seem to let go of them even after a lot of time has passed. Either way, it's important to give yourself permission to feel and at some point to let go so that you can move on. In the beginning, you may think that you will always feel this way, but you won't. Your feelings will pass. You'll discover that the time between down periods increases. Too often with break-ups we don't feel that we have the right to feel upset much longer than a few weeks when the truth is it usually takes longer. I have found that grief tends to run a cycle of at least one year unless of course the relationship wasn't very important, was short-term, or you were grieving before you actually left her/him. But, if you spent a number of years together, and the person was important to you, even if you're the one doing the breaking up you can still be grieving for approximately one year. Of course with very long term relationships, it can take even longer to feel back on your feet but it is still possible to recover.

This is the stage where you begin to accept that the relationship is over, and that you're going to be okay. You realize that you haven't thought about your ex-partner in awhile, and that without realizing it you are moving on. You've gained back some of your zest for life, and are beginning to see a future ahead of you. Sometimes the process involves a little movement forward and a little back. This is okay and perfectly normal, afterall you need to get used to your forward steps and occasionally may need the comfort of what you were feeling before. Try not to be hard on yourself, change is not a linear path. It's full of up's and down's. It's okay to feel good and then feel hurt and angry again, especially if you see her/him in the community or dating someone else. In the acceptance stage, you've done a lot of thinking about the relationship and the break-up and you realize things that you hadn't before. You understand yourself better, and you aren't as angry or hurt. You find yourself laughing more, and feeling hopeful. You begin to notice that you're feeling better and that you are ready to trust again, or at least to try. Try not to lose faith if you fall back into a funk - each time that you feel better will have an accumulative effect. Grief comes in waves - up and down. Sometimes letting go just happens after you've let yourself grieve and rage and whatever else you need to do. Other times, people have to deliberately and consciously focus on letting go. It is tempting to hold on, and scary to let go. Saying to yourself that you are letting go of your ex-partner can be helpful. Interrupting yourself when you get stuck thinking or talking about her/him and redirecting your focus onto something else is all part of letting go. Filling your life with activities that you enjoy - creative, playful, sociable, soulful activities - are all ways to nurture yourself back to health.

Breaking-up can feel unbearably hard and so permanent. Let yourself know that you won't always feel this way and in the meantime let yourself grieve your losses fully. You will feel stronger and lighter for having done so.

Editted from Kali Munro's "How to cope" , (M.Ed - Toronto psychotherapist)

Glad if i could help my friends out there with their problems by writing this cause seriously....i know how this entire thing feels like. Full of shit. So enjoy! and Good Luck.

Loads of Love,
NiNa

AWAITING

I'll be leaving in an hours time from the clock ticking right here in front of me. Tick Tock Tick Tock. To wait for the time to finally arrive is one boring section of my life today. I am not excited nor sad to go for this trip. My feelings are blunt and undescribable. What should i do? What should i feel? What should i fear? What should i pray? Everything is crumpled in this head of mine. People may say i am an emotional fucker but i AM. What can i do? Its just plain old NiNa. Known as the emotional stalk. Im such a sad person to think of. So mind me and go try figure something else better to do than sit there reading my post here. Its stupid and unworth while.

To end this post, i would like to say that i miss my sayang a lot. Done something truly stupid yesterday that i am regretting now. Haven't heard from him ever since i started acting like a dweeb. Hoping i would get some news out of him within the hour cause i do really need to hear from him (miss him terribly). "When we have them for ourselves we tend to forget how important they are in our lives but when they ain't there, we will hunt for them like there's no tomorrow". Very sickening don't you think? I am glad i realise the mistake before its too late or before something worst happens. What came to my mind last night? don't ask cause i don't know and don't want to think of it anymore. May all those nightmares just stay as nightmares. Cause to love him and giving up on him the the worst thing that could happen. Losing him is out of the question. I hope he does forgive me.

Wow...i never knew god heard my prayers and applied it so quickly. I finally heard from him before i could finish writing this post. Now im a happy women. Thank you ALLAH.

NiNa

WOMEN

She has to be completely washable, but not plastic, have over 200 movable parts, all replacable and able to run on diet coke and leftovers, have a lap that can hold four children at one time, have a kiss that can cure anything from a scraped knee to a broken heart -- and she will do everything with only two hands.

God made Women soft but He has also made women tough. People have no idea what women can endure or accomplish.Not only will "she" be able to think, she will be able to reason and negotiate. Women are known to leak with tears in everything they do. Tears are her way of expressing her joy, her sorrow, her pain, her disappointment, her love, her loneliness, her grief and her pride.

Women are truly amazing. And YES there ARE! Women have strengths that amaze men. They bear hardships and they carry burdens, but they hold happiness,love and joy.

They smile when they want to scream. They sing when they want to cry. They cry when they are happy and laugh when they are nervous. They fight for what they believe in. They stand up to injustice. They don't take "no" for an answer when they believe there is a better solution. They go without so their family can have. They go to the doctor with a frightened friend. They love unconditionally. They cry when their children excel and cheer when their friends get awards. They are happy when they hear about a birth or a wedding. Their hearts break when a friend dies. They grieve at the loss of a family member, yet they are strong when they think there is no strength left.

They know that a hug and a kiss can help to heal a broken heart. Women come in all sizes, in all colors and shapes. They'll drive, fly, walk, run, or e-mail you to show how much they care about you. The heart of a woman is what makes the world keep turning! They bring joy and hope. They have compassion and ideals.They give moral support to their family and friends. Women have vital things to say and everything to give.

However if there's one flaw in women, it is that they tend to forget how much they're worth.

**So I hope women out there won't forget how important they are in this WORLD**

Me, Myself and I

A cute baby girl has been born on the 13th of June 1986. That was 18 years ago. The little princess was the pride and joy of the house cause its been ages since the house had any babies. Everything was given to her from endless love of the family to toys that anyone could dream off. Her dress collections were massive. She was the living princess. Nothing to complain. Being fed everyday. Being taken care everyday just like any other princess would be treated in the palace grounds. Nothing lesser than that.

As she grew up, she became one adorable chubby girl. When to a normal school and studied there for 6 years till she finishes her primary 6. Education wise was incredible. Have been an ALL A @ STAR student and truly wasn't a burden to her parents. She was bright alright. Her determination was the thing that kept her going all the way to get the best. When she was in form 1 she went to one of the convent school in kuching. Stayed till the 5th month before she move to a boarding school.

From that day forward she changed into someone different. It wasn't like the olden days. Those boarding school tought her some good stuff but at the same time she picked up some bad stuff from it. She was in the middle of trying to figure her own soul. Staying at a boarding school thought her how to be independant dan very self reliable because we can't never rely on people. Everything, you have to do it on our own. There, she met her true friends. Nothing can challenge the way you find friends through boarding school. You get to really know the person inside out. Other than that, she learnt how to give and take, how to be patient with one another and learn to defend herself when needed. That's the beauty of it. But the negative part of a boarding school is, the INFLUENCE of friends. You get lazy now and then cause when you see other people not studying...you tend to not study too. So its like some kind of pattern in the hostel. You hear people scream and shout plus getting crazy. You don't get enough sleep cause you stay awake to chat with friends till midnight. You dont score too well a grade when you're doing all that. It was all pity but she manage to get through it at the least of time. But it was truly a great experience that could not be bought anywhere else. One thing no one should regret of having.

After the PMR examinations she moved again to a convent school but for now its different. The convent school she is in that time was her old convent's rival school. It is funny to think about it but it was pretty good. While she studied there, she became one of the best in class. Another history of getting A's. The feeling was incredible. Making her parents proud again of her is one feeling no one can describe. No words are stronger than that feeling. It stayed that way till one day LOVE came into her life. It wasn't that she has never experience love before but for that time, it felt like the real thing. She loved that person with her whole heart. With him she was happy. No other relation made her as happy as that. The guy stole her heart away like the swift wind. He was the best she could ever have in her life. She loved him, she adore him, she cared for him, she was even too loyal for him. Those were the fine memories she had stored for him in her heart. No one could take that away from her even for a thousand years. Never crossed her mind she would lose him but as we all perfectly know, love should be two sided not just one sided. As the malay saying goes "tepuk sebelah tangan takkan berbunyi"...it was hard for her at first. Its a lie to say that she moved on immediately cause she DIDN'T. It took her a long time to forget cause her love for him was so deep. Deeper than the blue ocean. *aHaKs* But Alhamdulillah she came back to her senses and move on in time to study for SPM examinations.

After getting the results that ain't good enough, she thought she would never get into any local uni. but GOD powers are beyond questions. She survived and got into a good University instead. She was so thankful and greatful that Allah hears her prayers and gave her another chance to prove that she is better off. For now, she is much more a better and stronger person. Her determination is there and as this is written she is hoping the determination will always be there so she can finally get what she has been dreaming off all this while. To be successful. ;)

P/S: Everything she has been through and gain all this while she thank Allah for giving her chances after chances and also very thankful to be given a very loving FAMILY. Alhamdulillah.

HAPPY

My day today started like all ordinary days ive been through for the past 6 months of my life [after SPM]. Boring as ever. I never knew something good would happen to me today. In the afternoon i was with daydeck at her place as usual doing all those girlie stuff. Taking pictures using the web camera like nobody's business but it was cool though. I finally meet Daydeck again. Its been quite a long time since she left for manchester in april. And she's back again!! im so happy. After goofing around with Daydeck and her sister, Ein i went accompanying Daydeck to meet Feroz at Masja. They sent me home and VOILA!! im here doing my blogger. Boring life aint it? So, as time passes by my life became more interesting. Been answering quizes through the net but the most important thing of my journey into this life is...I GOT into UIA. Finally what ive ever wanted came true. I will soon be a successful ARCHITECT that will entertain thousands of demands!! I have big dreams..so kill me already! *aHaKs* praise ALLAH the Almighty for his blessing..Alhamdulillah

LOVE

Define love. Before..I always blame love for everything that happened to me. From the breaking ups, to sore life, even about failing my test. But now when i truly know the meaning of love, i look up to it as one great deal. I thank God for sending me a truly good person in my life. I am putting hope in this relationship as i wouldn't in any of my relations before. Distance separate us from having each other up close but our love binds us together like no other or i can say like GLUE. I truly love him and appreciate him. Talking to him makes me happy, knowing he is fine makes me glad, having him thinking about me is sensational,to have someone like him loving me is something i wouldn't change for anything else, and to finally have him in my arms n around me is a blessing. I love you Sayang. With all my heart.

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Thanx to Jal's blogspot and the fantastic writings, i have choosen to start my own blogger. As i am often bored this could be a way to express my true feelings eventhough there's no one to read it. This may be one of my favourite spot online starting now. *GrIn*