12.12.2007 - PD was awesome.... the ranch is beautifurrrrrr! me likey. most important i was with JOE - my heart throbbing, aching and very in love with boyfriend. *BIG SMILE*
Story of today,
nothing to update actually. just that student life resumes full force 2weeks ago. a hectic one indeed. 21.5crdt hours marks the new cycle of life. *damn!*
Another story is, i feel so drop dead depressed. its been like this for the past 2days. and i hate this feeling. it has interupted with my classes and most important: My Love Life.
"God, i never actually mean to behave in such manner. but i cant help it. im sorry baby."
I dont know how to make things feeling go away. Thanks to my depressing campus room, unimpressive 4white walls and boring lightings....i am officially depressed! the cause of all these feeling.
okla, good night everyone...i use broken english. yes. and im not ashame of it. cause it makes writing a whole lot easier and meaningful. tee hee....
p/s: Merry Xmas 2007, Its Boxing day today and Happy coming New Year 2008 everybody!
+Ink Slinger....
Thursday, December 27, 2007
Sunday, December 09, 2007
Phuket
got back from Phuket a week ago. and truly, and honestly, i cant wait to go back there and have a go at it once more. IT WAS SUPER DUPER FANTASTICO! i manage to get a bit tan. it showed in my face but too bad on my body i could only see a visible white line around my neck due to the halter swim wear i was wearing. my legs a a bit darker. just a slight change. but never mind. i still got it. wooohooo.
the beach is fantastic. so blue, so serene. i cant wait to have another deep, my next trip there. Even so, mama got hurt during her visit to the beach. In actual fact all of us got memorable scars, thanks to the strong current of the water. The waves are so big and the current are so strong that it pushes and pulls us like this very magnetical magnet. But mama got the worst. You should ask me for the details. its hilarious. *grin*. among the other activities was, we explored the whole island (renting a car and driving) during our 4days stay, shopping (not much...but fisherman pants are the bomb!), eat (seafood yummylicious) and relax (a great holiday retreat for the whole family). sadly, we just didnt have enough time to do island hopping. but issokay...maybe next time.
despite the misunderstanding upon arrival, the rest of the trip was rated pretty successful. i enjoyed myself. and our hotel is beautiful. so people, try the "Bang Tao beach District" if you opt for a cleaner and sandy white beaches. and the hotel is topnotch. we stayed at the Allamanda Laguna. among the many laguna properties in Phuket. the exclusiveness is undeniable.
To that, I'll be posting pictures of the trip soon. So, await!
Lots of Love,
Nina
the beach is fantastic. so blue, so serene. i cant wait to have another deep, my next trip there. Even so, mama got hurt during her visit to the beach. In actual fact all of us got memorable scars, thanks to the strong current of the water. The waves are so big and the current are so strong that it pushes and pulls us like this very magnetical magnet. But mama got the worst. You should ask me for the details. its hilarious. *grin*. among the other activities was, we explored the whole island (renting a car and driving) during our 4days stay, shopping (not much...but fisherman pants are the bomb!), eat (seafood yummylicious) and relax (a great holiday retreat for the whole family). sadly, we just didnt have enough time to do island hopping. but issokay...maybe next time.
despite the misunderstanding upon arrival, the rest of the trip was rated pretty successful. i enjoyed myself. and our hotel is beautiful. so people, try the "Bang Tao beach District" if you opt for a cleaner and sandy white beaches. and the hotel is topnotch. we stayed at the Allamanda Laguna. among the many laguna properties in Phuket. the exclusiveness is undeniable.
To that, I'll be posting pictures of the trip soon. So, await!
Lots of Love,
Nina
Tuesday, November 20, 2007
i need to lose weight! pronto! because my leg hurts. i cant stand or walk for long. i feeel sooo old. sharkkksss. ok, the main reason is i think i look hideous. so yeah, 2moro im exercising and eating right again. here goes the NOT to do or EAT list....
1- No carbs - bread, potatoes, rice(obviously), noodles(eliminate!!!!!!)
2- More and more of that lovely, delicious greens.
3- Water and Milk....nothing else
4- Reduce Sugar intake
5- No snacking - keropok pedas yg sedap dah tak lehhhh *sigh* , chocs no more, indian sweets zero..aiyah!
6- Alcohol Nada
7- Exercise - Swim and walk....A MUST!!
8- I need self satisfaction before new year! ahahahahahha thanks to high protein diet! *urghh
ok, im seriously becoming crazy by day. i need 10kilos down the drain. here's to victory! ull see the new me soon enough. :)
skip, dance, victory, learn, play and live life to the fullest! beautiful is the inner you. when ure satisfied with yourself, ull soon see ure beautiful. so, now im heading towards becoming healthier, beautiful inside out and peaceful.
+NinaLiyana+
Sunday, November 18, 2007
Duhhhh
fuhhhh. finally the japanese survey is done! it was a living environment perspective survey (household survey) in collaboration between 2 universities-International Islamic University Malaysia (IIUM) and Shibaura Institute of Technology, Japan. It was a memorable week. but the actual 2days was even better. we met one japanese post-graduate student; Daiki Sugaya who was in charged of us, last tuesday on the 14th of november. At first i had this impression that he was the visiting professor and i got really scared when he msged me the first time despite feeling special receiving a msg from someone that i totally do not KNOW. but instead of the assumption, he turned out to be just another student. but it was still great. cause this japanese student can talk a bit of Bahasa Malaysia. How cool is that? tee hee.
so yeah, the survey went well. we survey the whole 3 residential areas-1000houses with 17 people in our team, so we hunt from one house to another to get people to response and participate. its hard at first especially the chinese areas, but it became ok afterwards. its tiring, yes. but memorable. so yeah, finally its finished. and im glad. to conclude, we did a well define and great deal. cheers!
Sunday, November 04, 2007
first
do you remember your first of anything? well, first time u ate something, first time u scored well for an exam, the first time u feel love, your first kiss, first time u cried, u smiled, hug someone and etc...
well i dont remember exactly when all of this happen. but i know for sure that my first love is now. its just different. this is for sure the one ive been waiting for. we just face lots of obstacles to face in sustaining this love. but i hope im strong. and so is he....
:)
well i dont remember exactly when all of this happen. but i know for sure that my first love is now. its just different. this is for sure the one ive been waiting for. we just face lots of obstacles to face in sustaining this love. but i hope im strong. and so is he....
:)
Monday, October 29, 2007
just another
current mood: dissapointed
oh ok, now im on this project with harmeet. music and lyrics more like it. but its not that me and him will ever date like the story narrates. but yeah, we are working on developing a song. for who and what is besides the point. so here i am trying to write. ive written so far 2 verse that absolutely doesnt match. i have to do better. im just frustrated with myself for not being able to write. i use to be so fast and good at this......... what has happened?
ok, the tv is showing arsenal vs liverpool. and arsenal is losing... hah! sorry joe, your team sucks! hahahahah im tired. good night people. *mwahs*
oh ok, now im on this project with harmeet. music and lyrics more like it. but its not that me and him will ever date like the story narrates. but yeah, we are working on developing a song. for who and what is besides the point. so here i am trying to write. ive written so far 2 verse that absolutely doesnt match. i have to do better. im just frustrated with myself for not being able to write. i use to be so fast and good at this......... what has happened?
ok, the tv is showing arsenal vs liverpool. and arsenal is losing... hah! sorry joe, your team sucks! hahahahah im tired. good night people. *mwahs*
Wednesday, October 24, 2007
ntah la...
exams are approaching. and its a stressful week. portfolio is this friday and ive yet to prepare my speech. oh well...screw it! btw, wanted to watch P.Ramlee the musical tonight. supposedly. but the ticket was all sold out. God kesian we Malaysian, ketandusan musical or plays that are worthwhile. haiyah. so here i am blogging and trying to study. not so successful. wish me luck people!
more events coming up this weekend and next. ida's raya open house, my indian cousin's wedding (ill be wearing sareee..wooohooo!), and our own diwali open house.
oh btw, Dr Mohd Zain's open house is awesome. his youngest is incredibly HOT!. *drool*
ok now. good night. toodle loo!
Friday, October 19, 2007
Raya...
ida said in her blog; "life is short....". how many times in life have we encountered this phrase? i have lost count how many times ive heard of it. but it is a meaningful phrase. i realise how short life can be when my beloved uncle died a year ago. its a matter of seconds when he passed away and left us for good. same thing happen during raya. a lot of people i know lost their beloved ones. it made raya a whole lot different. it turn the colourful festival into a gloom. my condolonces to everyone that lost theirs. i feel you. apart from this, raya is just another tiring week. 4days of open house has gobbled me up alive. im seriously telling mama not to have open house next year. serious tak larat. for whatever it is, it was fun to be home again and ill have to wait til next year to feel the comfort of home. so til next year, Kuala Lumpur will be my substitute. so, Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri everyone; Maaf Zahir dan Batin.
Much Love,
Nina
Much Love,
Nina
Thursday, October 18, 2007
timeless
i'm capturing the moment that i'm soberly sad. and emotionally deprived. but why? just because i feel a void. everything comes back to square one. i'm jinxed. i told u guys so. so now i'm setting my foot firmly on the ground and saying no. to hell with the love struck thing. i'm going out of this idiotic circle. *shrugs* ok, it doesn't sound as bad as what i just said. but i'm still partially sad. it came like a shock. but i'm alright. seriously, this time around i don't sob anymore. not like before. i just can't. its too hard and too much energy wasted. so here i am, going to chill, look around and be merry. cheers to the single people out there. at least u don't get your heart messed up and broken. *nyirup!
be wise people....you'll see the difference......
be wise people....you'll see the difference......
Monday, October 08, 2007
Eidul Fitri Mubarak
current mood : annoyed...
raya is approaching. i bet everyone is busy shopping or spring cleaning the house for last minute raya preparation. and i wish u luck! im still down with a pair of pants. and if i get it ill be a happy women. so im praying i would get hold of it soon. going back to kuching on wednesday night. cant wait. evenso, ive yet to feel the adrenaline of raya mood sipping into my veins. will this raya be different? for i wish it will. with this i hope this eid will bring all of you beautiful blessing and a wonderful holiday. to those who have to travel far 'balik kampung', keep safe and take care. SELAMAT HARI RAYA and MAAF ZAHIR&BATIN.
Love,
NinaLiyana
raya is approaching. i bet everyone is busy shopping or spring cleaning the house for last minute raya preparation. and i wish u luck! im still down with a pair of pants. and if i get it ill be a happy women. so im praying i would get hold of it soon. going back to kuching on wednesday night. cant wait. evenso, ive yet to feel the adrenaline of raya mood sipping into my veins. will this raya be different? for i wish it will. with this i hope this eid will bring all of you beautiful blessing and a wonderful holiday. to those who have to travel far 'balik kampung', keep safe and take care. SELAMAT HARI RAYA and MAAF ZAHIR&BATIN.
Love,
NinaLiyana
Friday, October 05, 2007
Just Another
Life is mysterious. Who ever invented that tag line is a genius. You know exactly how many emotions you can feel at one time? more than 1. its amazing how we change our mood and emotions just by the blink of an eye. today for example, i can feel overly stressed and shifted to being carefree but changed into gloomy in a sec and happy at the same time. its amazing. truly.
break fast at renaissance hotel today with my brother, his girlfriend and joe. the place is definately captivating but the food rating is average. I dont understand why it was a full house in every restaurant in the hotel. all 3 i tell you; that serves buffet. ermm....am i the only one feeling its not very remarkably good? ok, that was total random. teehee
that is what we call absolutely no synchronization of facts! our presentation is yet by far not close to being that. but the lecturer said so. argh. tension moment sipping AGAIN. oh yeah, final presentation is over. YES! *victory dance*
im out. night.
break fast at renaissance hotel today with my brother, his girlfriend and joe. the place is definately captivating but the food rating is average. I dont understand why it was a full house in every restaurant in the hotel. all 3 i tell you; that serves buffet. ermm....am i the only one feeling its not very remarkably good? ok, that was total random. teehee
that is what we call absolutely no synchronization of facts! our presentation is yet by far not close to being that. but the lecturer said so. argh. tension moment sipping AGAIN. oh yeah, final presentation is over. YES! *victory dance*
im out. night.
Friday, September 28, 2007
worries...
all my misery. all my anxiety. all my worries are partially gone. the hearing has finally ended. and the verdict was out and it turned out ok. even so i feel like a convict that didnt really do anything wrong in my dictionary. but im ok now. no more sleepless night or nightmares. i lost concentration because of this. but ive recovered. and im all good now. full force coming up! im tired...i dont feel like blogging bout this anymore. this sucks. bye.
p/s: i still think love life is just a phase and it will never happen to me. im pretencious.
p/s: i still think love life is just a phase and it will never happen to me. im pretencious.
Sunday, September 23, 2007
Movie
Today = Fun
Finally had an outing after so long... well to a shopping mall and doing something fun that is. when to watch a movie. i may sound pathetic or its sad to hear my lack of social life. but thats just it. i dont feel like socializing anymore. i use to love going out and staying out late. Ill only be in the house for sleeping time. but its different these time around. im back to my homely self again. nesting in my comfort zone called home. and its so stress free. not really but its still peaceful. no one bothering me with annoying facts and figures. etc.
oh btw, i watched Hair Spray today with sue, radhi and my sister. this is thanks to sue's suggestion. and it turn out to be INCREDIBLE. ill go watch it for the second time. for sure. infinity kudos for it. KUDOS. KUDOS. KUDOS.
despite the normal daily routine i have, the movie was intriguing. and its fun fun fun fun. thanks!
good night.
Finally had an outing after so long... well to a shopping mall and doing something fun that is. when to watch a movie. i may sound pathetic or its sad to hear my lack of social life. but thats just it. i dont feel like socializing anymore. i use to love going out and staying out late. Ill only be in the house for sleeping time. but its different these time around. im back to my homely self again. nesting in my comfort zone called home. and its so stress free. not really but its still peaceful. no one bothering me with annoying facts and figures. etc.
oh btw, i watched Hair Spray today with sue, radhi and my sister. this is thanks to sue's suggestion. and it turn out to be INCREDIBLE. ill go watch it for the second time. for sure. infinity kudos for it. KUDOS. KUDOS. KUDOS.
despite the normal daily routine i have, the movie was intriguing. and its fun fun fun fun. thanks!
good night.
Friday, September 21, 2007
Dedicated to life with friends...
This is a tribute to life and friends i have...
ok. here's the thing. im sitting in front of my personal PC and thinking of what i have to do next? i did most of the things i have to accomplish today. wake up. checked. took my bath. checked. go to class and break fast with appa. checked. studied. checked. what else is there? so here goes my mind. WONDERING. PONDERING. RESTLESS. so, instead of getting my beauty sleep as i would definately complain about lack of sleep when i have to wake up for class early morning 2moro, im browsing around the net for juicy gossips. not celebrity gossips. just normal earthly people gossip. so i re-read the blogs entries my friends posted dated from a week ago. Its so ironic that when u least expect it, then ure eyes will see the larger picture. my friends are actually undergoing emotional crisis that is unbearable. and where am i? sitting here not comforting them. why? cause i have my own problems to deal with. i may sound selfish. but here's the thing, my soul is too tired to hear stories of others. even if i know i can. but if given a choice i dont want to. not that i want to push people aside and not be with them in the times of need. but i just like my state of ALONE now. just for the time being. sorry....ill be better. dont worry people..i know i will. im strong remember? fit as a bull? teehee... i promise ill be a better friend to all of you.
to my friends that i rely on : daydeck, zahie, mizi, syaza, radhi, sue and kuhaz...
im very thankful that God sent, you beautiful people to me. u have always been there for me. thank you. if ever i create hatred in your big hearts, do tell me cause i am very ignorant at times. to those who are having a hard time with studies and life itself, i hope you guys find your light at the end of the tunnel. i will pray for you people. especially my dearest sue. ure special and dont let things pull you down. and obviously ure not a mediocre. its a bigger sin to think that way! i love you. kuhaz, hang in there ok? ull make big! i believe it so. syaza and radhi; you girls will always be my beautiful anchors. my ship will sink without both of you... i have special thanks and deep love for both of you. mizi: thanks for being the best pal ive got. ure outrageously interesting! *BIG LOVE*
specially for my "idiotic" ida : i know we have been through so much lately that our relationship nearly exploded into tiny bits of pieces once upon a time. but i do cherish you. i just want you to know that. i had great times with you last semester. i didnt know what went wrong. was it me? you? or perhaps it was both. i wasnt nice for me to bitch about you. i know i have sinned. im sorry. but u just got on my nerves in so many extreme ways. i hope ure copping and getting better. i want to see the less insecure, less confused and much of a better grown up IDA. cause u know ure older than us right? i hope you will really make a difference from now on....cause u deserve to be happy. just toss away those negative feelings ok? take care of urself. and cherish your self pride. we love you. i love u. pls care for your own best interest...
wow thats long! and this is tribute to my life... i have so many things to repent for. so many regrets. and so many problems to face. but you know what? im going to take baby steps and make things work. and make life better cause i know i deserve it. i will complain and whine soon enough AGAIN but what fun is there without it right? my life is beautiful. my life is beautiful. my life is very beautiful (chanting it away...) and im going to make it wonderful. variecolours....and having iman. thank you.
to the other people i owe my life to. i have an endless thanks to give out to. and ill be happy when you are. so keep smiling. maybe the world will smile back at you..... :)
The Ink Slinger Herself,
+NinaLiyana+
ok. here's the thing. im sitting in front of my personal PC and thinking of what i have to do next? i did most of the things i have to accomplish today. wake up. checked. took my bath. checked. go to class and break fast with appa. checked. studied. checked. what else is there? so here goes my mind. WONDERING. PONDERING. RESTLESS. so, instead of getting my beauty sleep as i would definately complain about lack of sleep when i have to wake up for class early morning 2moro, im browsing around the net for juicy gossips. not celebrity gossips. just normal earthly people gossip. so i re-read the blogs entries my friends posted dated from a week ago. Its so ironic that when u least expect it, then ure eyes will see the larger picture. my friends are actually undergoing emotional crisis that is unbearable. and where am i? sitting here not comforting them. why? cause i have my own problems to deal with. i may sound selfish. but here's the thing, my soul is too tired to hear stories of others. even if i know i can. but if given a choice i dont want to. not that i want to push people aside and not be with them in the times of need. but i just like my state of ALONE now. just for the time being. sorry....ill be better. dont worry people..i know i will. im strong remember? fit as a bull? teehee... i promise ill be a better friend to all of you.
to my friends that i rely on : daydeck, zahie, mizi, syaza, radhi, sue and kuhaz...
im very thankful that God sent, you beautiful people to me. u have always been there for me. thank you. if ever i create hatred in your big hearts, do tell me cause i am very ignorant at times. to those who are having a hard time with studies and life itself, i hope you guys find your light at the end of the tunnel. i will pray for you people. especially my dearest sue. ure special and dont let things pull you down. and obviously ure not a mediocre. its a bigger sin to think that way! i love you. kuhaz, hang in there ok? ull make big! i believe it so. syaza and radhi; you girls will always be my beautiful anchors. my ship will sink without both of you... i have special thanks and deep love for both of you. mizi: thanks for being the best pal ive got. ure outrageously interesting! *BIG LOVE*
specially for my "idiotic" ida : i know we have been through so much lately that our relationship nearly exploded into tiny bits of pieces once upon a time. but i do cherish you. i just want you to know that. i had great times with you last semester. i didnt know what went wrong. was it me? you? or perhaps it was both. i wasnt nice for me to bitch about you. i know i have sinned. im sorry. but u just got on my nerves in so many extreme ways. i hope ure copping and getting better. i want to see the less insecure, less confused and much of a better grown up IDA. cause u know ure older than us right? i hope you will really make a difference from now on....cause u deserve to be happy. just toss away those negative feelings ok? take care of urself. and cherish your self pride. we love you. i love u. pls care for your own best interest...
wow thats long! and this is tribute to my life... i have so many things to repent for. so many regrets. and so many problems to face. but you know what? im going to take baby steps and make things work. and make life better cause i know i deserve it. i will complain and whine soon enough AGAIN but what fun is there without it right? my life is beautiful. my life is beautiful. my life is very beautiful (chanting it away...) and im going to make it wonderful. variecolours....and having iman. thank you.
to the other people i owe my life to. i have an endless thanks to give out to. and ill be happy when you are. so keep smiling. maybe the world will smile back at you..... :)
The Ink Slinger Herself,
+NinaLiyana+
Tuesday, September 18, 2007
Representing, David Sides....
This is techinically the best pianist ive encountered. Check out how he immitates the piece. Aiyah why arent i born with the talent? *envy* check out David Sides playing "Ciara-Like A boy" on the piano...there are more to this...but this is simply my favourite!
ENJOY!!!!!
Sunday, September 16, 2007
Cant Leave Just Yet
Good Evening earthlings. Ramadhan Mubarak!
life has been a real rollercoaster lately. not complaining cause its bad or leaping with joy cause its beautiful. but its perfectly nice. im feeling well rested, content and happy. i just lied. *sigh* i dont feel all that at all. well not wholely. why me? why me? why me? God, this conversation has always played in my head ever since i know what defines "men". it is never a sweet escape nor a fairy tale. maybe just the initial part but there's no gurantee it will last. why i say this? through past experience of course. *duhhh* will i always type or narrate things like this? im sick of it!
....now im convinced maybe there is no certain soulmate for everyone. maybe it slipped God's mind to create one for me. cause the ones that hooks up with me are just junks. its either they are not satisfied with me or the other way around. but im easily pleased you know. i just want the basics, but they give me lousy relationship. is it my fault? tell me it is. so i know....no offence to my past lovers, some are great. but most just make me end up miserable.
Oh ya, Updates:
im seeing and talking to joe again.....
not that we were at war or some sort before hand. we just parted for awhile. but we clicked back during this past week. dont get me wrong. im not looking for a relationship. just a good friend. So yeah we went out, had dinner, and the usual innocent outings. Ah how wonderful it was to have someone to talk to that really understands. I forgot how much fun i always have around him. I cherish you...im serious. Even when i use to fight with mama because of him, but he is the being that makes me smile. ALWAYS. through my tears, tantrum and dramas he always had ways to cheer me up. thats the beauty of it. :)
other updates of life is...
everybody else is happy. Daydeck found herself her other half or completion. im happy for you darling. some of my friends are already united in holy matrimony and its nice to see happy faces. My friends at college are having a hard time doing course works. so am i. but i bet they are happy in their own little ways. Zahie is busy going for sampling, and doing her thesis on her beloved bulbul. At least she likes what she does. so yeah..im happy for her too. at least i have a reason to be happy. My brother Asyraf found himself a partner too. and she turned out to be OK. mama disagree because she thinks its too early. but i think its ok. so cheers brother! *victory dance* for you... and my sister is quite content with her life. so is my parents as they manage to make me not date. hehehe but im ok. SO EVERYBODY IS HAPPY! good. finally.
i just want my dream bad boy. then ill be fine. but he is leaving....good luck in studies! come back a star!!!!
take care everyone... and have a pleasant life.
current mood song : Ciara ft 50Cent - Cant Leave 'Em Alone
+NinaLiyana+
life has been a real rollercoaster lately. not complaining cause its bad or leaping with joy cause its beautiful. but its perfectly nice. im feeling well rested, content and happy. i just lied. *sigh* i dont feel all that at all. well not wholely. why me? why me? why me? God, this conversation has always played in my head ever since i know what defines "men". it is never a sweet escape nor a fairy tale. maybe just the initial part but there's no gurantee it will last. why i say this? through past experience of course. *duhhh* will i always type or narrate things like this? im sick of it!
....now im convinced maybe there is no certain soulmate for everyone. maybe it slipped God's mind to create one for me. cause the ones that hooks up with me are just junks. its either they are not satisfied with me or the other way around. but im easily pleased you know. i just want the basics, but they give me lousy relationship. is it my fault? tell me it is. so i know....no offence to my past lovers, some are great. but most just make me end up miserable.
Oh ya, Updates:
im seeing and talking to joe again.....
not that we were at war or some sort before hand. we just parted for awhile. but we clicked back during this past week. dont get me wrong. im not looking for a relationship. just a good friend. So yeah we went out, had dinner, and the usual innocent outings. Ah how wonderful it was to have someone to talk to that really understands. I forgot how much fun i always have around him. I cherish you...im serious. Even when i use to fight with mama because of him, but he is the being that makes me smile. ALWAYS. through my tears, tantrum and dramas he always had ways to cheer me up. thats the beauty of it. :)
other updates of life is...
everybody else is happy. Daydeck found herself her other half or completion. im happy for you darling. some of my friends are already united in holy matrimony and its nice to see happy faces. My friends at college are having a hard time doing course works. so am i. but i bet they are happy in their own little ways. Zahie is busy going for sampling, and doing her thesis on her beloved bulbul. At least she likes what she does. so yeah..im happy for her too. at least i have a reason to be happy. My brother Asyraf found himself a partner too. and she turned out to be OK. mama disagree because she thinks its too early. but i think its ok. so cheers brother! *victory dance* for you... and my sister is quite content with her life. so is my parents as they manage to make me not date. hehehe but im ok. SO EVERYBODY IS HAPPY! good. finally.
i just want my dream bad boy. then ill be fine. but he is leaving....good luck in studies! come back a star!!!!
take care everyone... and have a pleasant life.
current mood song : Ciara ft 50Cent - Cant Leave 'Em Alone
+NinaLiyana+
Monday, September 03, 2007
Life Oh Life
Things has been rather slow. days are slower when there's no one around to spin it for you. this is my 4th day of sem-break and im complaining. geez i need a life. i miss home. i miss my family. i miss my comfort zone. im not saying life is entirely lame and boring. but mom and sister just went back this afternoon and i hate the feeling of emptiness and blank. its only 1 hour and 45minutes plane ride to go home. but the impossible-ness of it makes it so frustrating. time is the defactor.
i know i have things to do...lots of it in fact but i cant get myself up to do it. because im dumb. hah! i have a presentation due next week and a report due on the 19th. and why am i not doing my research? cause i told you. im dumb. my head is spinning rather rapidly now. and while im thinking that my stomach is lurching. darn i dont know what to do. today must be the most boring day of my life. everybody seemed to be paired up somewhere enjoying the holidays. sarah and munshi went to PD being lovey-dovey. dont get me wrong. im not envious. mayb i sound like it. but i am not. seriously. im totally happy. but i want it to. i desperately want my boyfriend here. i want my memory of our trip to Sematan to re-collect. i want to soak myself under the sun, playing in the deep waters with him and just sit on the beach looking at him swim. nature begins within. and i know that now.
other than my immaculate and pathetic life cycle. other things has been developed for the past week. my friendship with a particular being has developed a new leaf. im glad. but i hope this is a beginning of a wonderful end. i dont want to fight nor be depress over things anymore. so be it. im happy. and i hope they are no more parasites in this world that would destroy a beautiful relationship. but ill miss the rows thou. tee hee.
to end; HAPPY 50TH MERDEKA MALAYSIA. you're indeed my home and the integration is a true nature. i love YOU! -this is for the date of 31st August 2007
with much love,
NinaLiyana
i know i have things to do...lots of it in fact but i cant get myself up to do it. because im dumb. hah! i have a presentation due next week and a report due on the 19th. and why am i not doing my research? cause i told you. im dumb. my head is spinning rather rapidly now. and while im thinking that my stomach is lurching. darn i dont know what to do. today must be the most boring day of my life. everybody seemed to be paired up somewhere enjoying the holidays. sarah and munshi went to PD being lovey-dovey. dont get me wrong. im not envious. mayb i sound like it. but i am not. seriously. im totally happy. but i want it to. i desperately want my boyfriend here. i want my memory of our trip to Sematan to re-collect. i want to soak myself under the sun, playing in the deep waters with him and just sit on the beach looking at him swim. nature begins within. and i know that now.
other than my immaculate and pathetic life cycle. other things has been developed for the past week. my friendship with a particular being has developed a new leaf. im glad. but i hope this is a beginning of a wonderful end. i dont want to fight nor be depress over things anymore. so be it. im happy. and i hope they are no more parasites in this world that would destroy a beautiful relationship. but ill miss the rows thou. tee hee.
to end; HAPPY 50TH MERDEKA MALAYSIA. you're indeed my home and the integration is a true nature. i love YOU! -this is for the date of 31st August 2007
with much love,
NinaLiyana
Thursday, August 23, 2007
ok. here's the deal. ive always wanted to try to write things that are meaningful with our bahasa kebangsaan. since its merdeka. lets try something simple. wish me luck! Mari mem-bm kan diri..!
"Ini cinta. Kau datang dan pergi begitu sahaja. Membiarkan ruang rindu di dalam dadaku...."
Thats as far as i can think of. hahahahaha..... good luck to myself to further studying the national language. even to write something regarding love also cannot. i should try cincai language. i bet id be fantastico! seeee..?
off to bed now. good night darlings. *hugs*
+NinaLiyana+
"Ini cinta. Kau datang dan pergi begitu sahaja. Membiarkan ruang rindu di dalam dadaku...."
Thats as far as i can think of. hahahahaha..... good luck to myself to further studying the national language. even to write something regarding love also cannot. i should try cincai language. i bet id be fantastico! seeee..?
off to bed now. good night darlings. *hugs*
+NinaLiyana+
Thursday, August 09, 2007
Site Visit
nothing to see here people. just me updating my daily life blog. well, our studio 5 site visit to negeri sembilan can be define as purely a waste of time. honestly, until the end of our journey, ive yet to understand the whole regional context of our study area. what more to say the whole transportation system of negeri sembilan. im still at blur. i can tell you the routes to use to get to places and their short cuts but from the planning point of view, i have not much to say.... i hope when i study the datas we've collected then i can comment more. but one thing for sure is, Malaysia as a whole is lacking on the pedestrianization side. but because of unpredicted weather, the whole idea is not a success. this is what is lacking most in developing countries around the world. in negeri sembilan (seremban), me and syaza faced difficulties in crossing roads just to get to IPPK. not forgetting vehicle drivers hooting while we walk at the side of the road. "hey guys, havent u ever seen any pedestrians? geez.. kena kacau plak" thats why the journey back to the hotel both of us decided to use a taxi service instead. NO WAY im walking or hiking back to the hotel that is situated 30mins away from IPPK and going through uncivilized people.
i may write about this matter for my thesis. Dr Azeez as my advisor...ermmm very tempting. an A strikes from my eyes! in summary, site visit is rated as "over-rated". and the whole trip doesnt serve the right purpose. a waste of 4days. instead of looking at places, we concentrated on touristics areas and sleeping in the bus on the way. cause buses are like big cradles to put me to sleep. hah! i should eliminate this....damn!
as per say, i have transportation planning exam in 4hours time. ive finished studying but im so scared of even going for the exam. ive been having sleepless night last night because of it. sharks! its like Infrastructure Planning exam all over again. trip generators, mode of transport, right-of-ways, urban travel characteristics, t.p processes and t.p importance.........so much to memorize, so little time. oh god help me! help me pass this with great marks! *amin*
good day everybody!
xoxo
i may write about this matter for my thesis. Dr Azeez as my advisor...ermmm very tempting. an A strikes from my eyes! in summary, site visit is rated as "over-rated". and the whole trip doesnt serve the right purpose. a waste of 4days. instead of looking at places, we concentrated on touristics areas and sleeping in the bus on the way. cause buses are like big cradles to put me to sleep. hah! i should eliminate this....damn!
as per say, i have transportation planning exam in 4hours time. ive finished studying but im so scared of even going for the exam. ive been having sleepless night last night because of it. sharks! its like Infrastructure Planning exam all over again. trip generators, mode of transport, right-of-ways, urban travel characteristics, t.p processes and t.p importance.........so much to memorize, so little time. oh god help me! help me pass this with great marks! *amin*
good day everybody!
xoxo
Thursday, August 02, 2007
Dewi
i have a cousin name dewi. and she is indeed a dewi. criterions matched.
:)
well i just had to blog today. im freaking bored. and my tummy ache is creating problems for me. period first day. told ya im PMS-ing. heheheh going to travel to N9 starting 2moro. shit! period and travel dont go along that well. *sigh* oh well, off to class now. *hugs&kisses* everyone! *smack*
:)
well i just had to blog today. im freaking bored. and my tummy ache is creating problems for me. period first day. told ya im PMS-ing. heheheh going to travel to N9 starting 2moro. shit! period and travel dont go along that well. *sigh* oh well, off to class now. *hugs&kisses* everyone! *smack*
Tuesday, July 31, 2007
Genie oh Genie
well i want a Genie in a bottle. like Aladdin. cause it seems cool. but i just want one wish. cause the rest i can obtain it on my own and at my own time. just one wish........*sigh* hopefully it comes true... toodles!
Saturday, July 28, 2007
The Idiot Spoiled My Mood
i'm currently undergoing stress in the post-graduate lab. due to the my hands-on session for traffic engineering. sheesh. and its freaking cold.
today started slow. not painful. not boring. just slow. and its not getting any faster. i don't think so. *sigh* i want this to end and i want to go for lunch. at a beautiful place with beautiful ornaments and soothing ambience. i want to travel. far away from an idiotic being. that does not appreciate the things anyone have done for HER.
shit! some of us were blind and so naive to believe she was good and worth every second of our time. and just maybe she has changed. but nooo...its the total opposite. after all we've done, she still thinks we are the ones that are not worth it. and not appreciative. look at who's talking?! hah! i feel so sad for you. geez...how pathetic! if you're mental, so be it. i hope one day you die alone, crying and realising at the very last moment of your life that u have created grief in other people's life before and we did our best to be good friends to you..but u didn't even appreciate that. so don't count on us. cause u think less of the people who actually did a lot of things for you. we don't care. well, practically i don't. and to think that i would care is just idiotic. you're idiotic. i don't hope u well. think about the things u did to other people before saying nasty things. thank you very much. you're nasty. you're sacarstic. and you're unbelievable in a bad way.
shit i think i'm having PMS. but this is the final verdict of how i am picturing this person. don't ever come to me. go away. i don't need you. ever! you created the war. and hell yeah, i'm sticking with it. thanks to my stubborn-ness. i did it before. i can continue. i'm not the one without love or living less of it. i have lots of them to give around. and to think you're so great and better than the others...well maybe you are. in your dellusional world. scram!
*laughing my face out* thinking how idiotic you are.
Mean as i can Be....
Current Mood: Furious
today started slow. not painful. not boring. just slow. and its not getting any faster. i don't think so. *sigh* i want this to end and i want to go for lunch. at a beautiful place with beautiful ornaments and soothing ambience. i want to travel. far away from an idiotic being. that does not appreciate the things anyone have done for HER.
shit! some of us were blind and so naive to believe she was good and worth every second of our time. and just maybe she has changed. but nooo...its the total opposite. after all we've done, she still thinks we are the ones that are not worth it. and not appreciative. look at who's talking?! hah! i feel so sad for you. geez...how pathetic! if you're mental, so be it. i hope one day you die alone, crying and realising at the very last moment of your life that u have created grief in other people's life before and we did our best to be good friends to you..but u didn't even appreciate that. so don't count on us. cause u think less of the people who actually did a lot of things for you. we don't care. well, practically i don't. and to think that i would care is just idiotic. you're idiotic. i don't hope u well. think about the things u did to other people before saying nasty things. thank you very much. you're nasty. you're sacarstic. and you're unbelievable in a bad way.
shit i think i'm having PMS. but this is the final verdict of how i am picturing this person. don't ever come to me. go away. i don't need you. ever! you created the war. and hell yeah, i'm sticking with it. thanks to my stubborn-ness. i did it before. i can continue. i'm not the one without love or living less of it. i have lots of them to give around. and to think you're so great and better than the others...well maybe you are. in your dellusional world. scram!
*laughing my face out* thinking how idiotic you are.
Mean as i can Be....
Current Mood: Furious
Friday, July 27, 2007
270707
some how, when people worship the date 070707 earlier this month, i wasnt really affected by it. i guess cause i actually predicted a date nicely designed like that. but today, the date caught me like an electric shock. 27-07-2007 @ 270707 how wonderful it was. its a nice suprise though. its like going through a jar of jelly beans to find a nice round juicy chocolate inside. well, i know im exaggerating but thats how i felt when i wrote the date of today down on my permission form earlier today. and guess what, its not MOI alone that thinks that way. "Royku" thought so too and sent me this hilarious sms. well, i laughed to it la... :) so yeah, finally im again celebrating the first month. happy me! and everybody wishes and hopes this is the true one. well people, im yet to know that but i do hope so too. So far so good. and im still keeping my fingers cross. im just afraid that im gonna get jinxed again for writing this down. oh well....life! so good night everybody. im off to sleep before i forget to wake up for tomorrow's transportation hands-on seminar. *hugs&kisses*
cheers!
cheers!
Howdy.
many have been happening for the past 2weeks. adjusted to my room that is "up-on-the-sky" high. can u imagine hiking up and down 4floors to get to my room? i should have lost weight by now. hah! you think thats torture? its just the beggining i assure you. classes has started full force by end of week 1. so wasnt dreading anything. studio is alright. just completed our second phase of the project. and next week is the site visit. so negeri sembilan, here we come! await us! hahahahhaha ok. let me see what else was there? ermmm....
10th July - watched Harry Potter and Order of the Phoenix Premier. it was Havoc!
11th July - watched the movie again for the third time (considering i saw it twice during premier). but this time it was with the gang. even had our photo's taken at PAM exhibition. do check out!
Then on the 14th it was dad's birthday. unfortunately he went to Penang for this world music festival he is organising. so we just called to wish him happy. we were suppose to go have dinner with him this week. but somehow we didnt. maybe he is caught up with work.
and on the 19th however was mizie's birthday. oh blimey! it was cool. we (me, roy, sarah and syaza) bought a whole set of hamster care stuff and also a pair of hamster. names: lolly and scar. they are so small and adorable. we (me, sarah and syaza) went hamster hunting! it wasnt that very far. just at uia central. but its worth it! we gave it to him when he came to see us at our studio stall for kaed-fest. just fyi, kaed-fest is an annual festival kaed-ians do. so who ever have yet to hear this or havent and want to try you should come. we will be delighted to have you there! for sure... *smiles* so coming back to the story, he was so happy and suprised that he accidentally hugged me in kaed. ala tak sedar. but who can blame him? hehe afterwards we had transportation planning class so the party continued right after the class. there was a cake fight. even the birthday boy got it bad. smudged cake all over people's faces. thank god the flavour was delicious. im guessing it's toffee.
on the 19th also, sue became my first customer for mehendi painting. and it turn out good.
:)
21st July - Harry Potter final book came out. and i took 3days to finish reading. due to the distraction from home and also savouring the moment of reading it. the final verdict is, AWESOME, SPECTACULAR, ABSOLUTELY MOUTH-WATERING.
and on this day also, cookie left me forever. in loving memory of my white gorgeous car. *sob sob*
that weekend also, rainforest festival was on in Kuching. i didnt get to go. but i heard from the fellows that it was good. it was their 10th anniversary. HAPPY 10th ANNIVERSARY RAINFEST! may u be the best event year thru.
i guess thats about sums it all from my list....what about yours?
*hugs&kisses* miamores....
Nina
10th July - watched Harry Potter and Order of the Phoenix Premier. it was Havoc!
11th July - watched the movie again for the third time (considering i saw it twice during premier). but this time it was with the gang. even had our photo's taken at PAM exhibition. do check out!
Then on the 14th it was dad's birthday. unfortunately he went to Penang for this world music festival he is organising. so we just called to wish him happy. we were suppose to go have dinner with him this week. but somehow we didnt. maybe he is caught up with work.
and on the 19th however was mizie's birthday. oh blimey! it was cool. we (me, roy, sarah and syaza) bought a whole set of hamster care stuff and also a pair of hamster. names: lolly and scar. they are so small and adorable. we (me, sarah and syaza) went hamster hunting! it wasnt that very far. just at uia central. but its worth it! we gave it to him when he came to see us at our studio stall for kaed-fest. just fyi, kaed-fest is an annual festival kaed-ians do. so who ever have yet to hear this or havent and want to try you should come. we will be delighted to have you there! for sure... *smiles* so coming back to the story, he was so happy and suprised that he accidentally hugged me in kaed. ala tak sedar. but who can blame him? hehe afterwards we had transportation planning class so the party continued right after the class. there was a cake fight. even the birthday boy got it bad. smudged cake all over people's faces. thank god the flavour was delicious. im guessing it's toffee.
on the 19th also, sue became my first customer for mehendi painting. and it turn out good.
:)
21st July - Harry Potter final book came out. and i took 3days to finish reading. due to the distraction from home and also savouring the moment of reading it. the final verdict is, AWESOME, SPECTACULAR, ABSOLUTELY MOUTH-WATERING.
and on this day also, cookie left me forever. in loving memory of my white gorgeous car. *sob sob*
that weekend also, rainforest festival was on in Kuching. i didnt get to go. but i heard from the fellows that it was good. it was their 10th anniversary. HAPPY 10th ANNIVERSARY RAINFEST! may u be the best event year thru.
i guess thats about sums it all from my list....what about yours?
*hugs&kisses* miamores....
Nina
Monday, July 09, 2007
Finally Back...
ok, yesterday was not the finality of coming back to UIA. so i didnt feel anything when i stepped into the front lawns of Mahallah Asiah for registration. well, thats the name of my hostel if you're wondering. cause i could still go back home after that and see my mom and sister. but today, i was sad when my mom left for kuching this morning. but i manage to hold back my tears. *sob sob* and the reality set back into me when i got into my room as i finally got my keys due to excessive amount of student registering at the same time, i had to delay the time to pick up my keys. *shrugs* nasib baik yesterday i cleaned up my room already. so i went back to my college after my studio morning session. Dr. Azila (My studio master) is not so bad afterall. Just a female version of Dr. Azeez. VERY VERY punctual. i MUST NOT be late. EVER. and very strict too.....but me likey! so i can't be "gaok"....
so note to myself; NEVER BE LATE FOR STUDIO.
we were given tasks today. by 2moro the study time begins. research, study, assignments and the familiarity of education. im pretty excited. eventhough i have countless told myself i dont want to come back to UIA; for few valid and solid reasons.
1. i am so in love with my hometown that i refuse to budge.
2. i hate some of the students here. this is mutual hate...
3. i dont think im ready to just start fresh and score! *scared*
and the reasons continues.....but ill leave most of it in heart.
:)
Its sad to start something new half-heartedly. but thats me. i tak nak balik uia. my heart is just not here. but when i saw the subjects im taking and thought of how much longer ill have to be here....i smiled to myself. cause seriously im counting the days that im finally graduated from this University. when i finally do i know ive accomplished goals and dreams. here's to the pre-victory. *CHEERS! and good luck to me-self....
:)
ok people enough of my babble. i cant believe you actually read it until here. but what the heck. i have good sense of humor. NOT! take care now. doodles.
Nina
xoxo-infinity of 'em
so note to myself; NEVER BE LATE FOR STUDIO.
we were given tasks today. by 2moro the study time begins. research, study, assignments and the familiarity of education. im pretty excited. eventhough i have countless told myself i dont want to come back to UIA; for few valid and solid reasons.
1. i am so in love with my hometown that i refuse to budge.
2. i hate some of the students here. this is mutual hate...
3. i dont think im ready to just start fresh and score! *scared*
and the reasons continues.....but ill leave most of it in heart.
:)
Its sad to start something new half-heartedly. but thats me. i tak nak balik uia. my heart is just not here. but when i saw the subjects im taking and thought of how much longer ill have to be here....i smiled to myself. cause seriously im counting the days that im finally graduated from this University. when i finally do i know ive accomplished goals and dreams. here's to the pre-victory. *CHEERS! and good luck to me-self....
:)
ok people enough of my babble. i cant believe you actually read it until here. but what the heck. i have good sense of humor. NOT! take care now. doodles.
Nina
xoxo-infinity of 'em
Friday, July 06, 2007
Farewell.....
im sadden of the fact that im leaving kuching approximately in 2hours time. ill be leaving a lot of fun, joy and laughter times i had for the whole 2months. im attached to it. and i dont want to leave. i found a reason to be jolly again. its a nice feeling. i hate to leave. hate hate hate it. and knowing for a fact that i wouldnt be back until raya makes me severely heart broken. i will miss everything around here. the comfort of home, the happiness with friends, my joyous relationship afar and the hot spot of lepak-ing in my hometown. so here is to the travel and summon of the other reality world. may God be with everyone i love. cause each and everyone of you are special to me.
"take care of them for me ok?"
infinity of hugs and kisses goes out to all my family and friends that im leaving. we will be reunited soon! happy coming fasting! we will meet for raya.
:)
Lots of Love,
Nina
"take care of them for me ok?"
infinity of hugs and kisses goes out to all my family and friends that im leaving. we will be reunited soon! happy coming fasting! we will meet for raya.
:)
Lots of Love,
Nina
Monday, July 02, 2007
"If God Made You"
Hey Kid... Your time has come to change
Though I need you more than I've needed anyone in any way tonight
Hey Kid... I know it won't be long
The Captain's calling...come to see you back where we belong
Something inside me is breaking
Something inside says there's somewhere better than this...
Sunset sailing on April skies
Bloodshot fire clouds in her eyes
I can't say what I might believe
But if God made you he's in love with me
Hey Kid...Do wishes count at all
Can you give me a sign...give me anything I won't tell a soul you told
Hey Kid...Will you hold me when I sleep
Will you find me when the tide decides that I got to leave
Something inside me is breaking
Something inside says there's somewhere better than this...
Sunset sailing on April skies
Bloodshot fire clouds in her eyes
I can't say what I might believe
But if God made you he's in love with me
Sunset sailing on April skies
Bloodshot fire clouds in your eyes
I can't say what I might believe
But if God made you he's in love with me
Something inside me is breaking
Something inside says there's somewhere better than this my love
Sunset sailing on April skies
Bloodshot fire clouds in her eyes
I can't say what I might believe
But if God made you he's in love with me
Sunset sailing on April skies
Bloodshot fire clouds in your eyes
I can't say what I might believe
But if God made you... he's in love with me...
By,
Five For Fighting
Though I need you more than I've needed anyone in any way tonight
Hey Kid... I know it won't be long
The Captain's calling...come to see you back where we belong
Something inside me is breaking
Something inside says there's somewhere better than this...
Sunset sailing on April skies
Bloodshot fire clouds in her eyes
I can't say what I might believe
But if God made you he's in love with me
Hey Kid...Do wishes count at all
Can you give me a sign...give me anything I won't tell a soul you told
Hey Kid...Will you hold me when I sleep
Will you find me when the tide decides that I got to leave
Something inside me is breaking
Something inside says there's somewhere better than this...
Sunset sailing on April skies
Bloodshot fire clouds in her eyes
I can't say what I might believe
But if God made you he's in love with me
Sunset sailing on April skies
Bloodshot fire clouds in your eyes
I can't say what I might believe
But if God made you he's in love with me
Something inside me is breaking
Something inside says there's somewhere better than this my love
Sunset sailing on April skies
Bloodshot fire clouds in her eyes
I can't say what I might believe
But if God made you he's in love with me
Sunset sailing on April skies
Bloodshot fire clouds in your eyes
I can't say what I might believe
But if God made you... he's in love with me...
By,
Five For Fighting
Thursday, June 28, 2007
writing my retarded self...
im miserable. im depress. but somehow i can see the light at the end of the tunnel. the light is dimming but i can still see it. how can he be so cruel? how can he not feel the void like i do? but it has always been about a HE. why cant it be something else that im sadden of. why should it be a HE? im sick of games. im sick of dissaproves. and forbidden love is reflected as the best of all. you know why? cause its simply irresistable. and the anxiety u get out of it is pure satisfaction. but in the end it was doomed. this is my modern romeo and juliet story. but at least romeo and juliet were looked up to as one of the best love story of life. mine? just a monochrome of it. i wish it was simplier...i really do. but somehow its not. life oh life. i will miss those moments. but oll live it thru. as what a favourite saying of myself..."some are just not meant to be...." im strong. i can do it! but i never regret knowing you. The HE that showed me how to live a fun life and not think of anything but happiness. but things changed. and its a sad change. but i will always remember you. yeah i will. cause finally someone made me cry the dry tears. a big deal in my dictionary. im happy you found someone else...and thank you for being mine for those little times...*hugs&kisses*
Friday, June 22, 2007
My 21st....
MY INVITATION CARD
Turning 21 is one of the occasion that you would want to share with the rest of the world. well, in my case it was just that. i was happy with everything. i had a wonderful party that turned out to be the best thing ever! puuuurrrrrfeeeccttttt! i celebrated with my whole family and lovely friends. and to them i have to thank. for brightening my birthday this year more. there is a list of people i could never say enough thank you-s to, but here it goes...
firstly, thank you mama for everything. from the huge amount of bills to having to tahan with me making so much tantrum at home due to "stress". i thought it only happened to brides but i had anxiety attack of course. *hahahah* to appa, thank you for being the person who made it possible for me to look good that night. the arrival of shoes and jewelleries at the precise moment. to aunty kiah, the bead work was wonderful! thank you.
and special thanks i convey to my hardworking cousin cum party planner; kak nina for making this possible to pull off within a week. i feel your stress too. but i know u loved every bit of it! and to her brother iskandar thanks for the incredible mixture of so many drinks that i now have forgotten their names as ive gotten so drunk that night. but it was all so damn good. if i ever open a club you will definately hear from me! *as if la kan...*
to my friend mizie, oh gosh i can never thank you enough. you helped me go thru everything. thanks a lot chap! i sooo loveee you. from my disastrous pinata to the shopping spree of my dress. *smiles*
to my BROTHER, ure so wonderful that u pulled together a band just for the sake of me having a band to play within short notice. not forgetting the endless time u had to practice to make sure the songs are perfect. im so sorry i had to be an ass to u. but i so love you! thank you. to the band thank you too. and my little sister thanks for helping me out with the preparation of my invitation cards. ure the most silent person i know in the world that dont even grumble when i asked so many things of you. thank you sis. i love you.
my friend radhi, ure the bomb girl! thanks for designing my invitation. u definately know me in and out. i likkkeee! emma, thanks for being a good spot when i need to have few laughs during the week and being a good company while shopping.
kak ma, the tuak was fantastic! we had more of it in sematan thou...hehehe ure the best! yasmine, ure a good niece! uve been the one that helped me in times of crisis. thanks for being there at the right time.
and to the lovely chef melvin who have made my cake a wonderful one. its my dream cake and its yummylicious....wooohooo!
lets see, to my family from my aunties, uncles and all my cousins and nieces-nephews, thanks for celebrating my birthday with me and made it a memoriable day. dear friends, you all made it a night to remember! just for coming. to those who got sloshed...i bet u will never forget the day huh? kekeke Not forgetting to those who gave me presents. thank you. i love each and every one of it. *grin* i feel like a small kid all over again. teeheee.
oh ya, special tribute to my mr roy montana. thank you for taking care and being my personal body guard that night. from driving me to the hotel and also taking me home safely. i know i was a serious mess for u to take care but i appreciate you helping. thank you....
if i forget anyone im so sorry. my memory is not functioning so well. as a summary, the party was a blast. and thanks to each and every one of YOU. i love you guys heaps! and do check out the pictures and videos through my multiply. thank you again....
The One and Only Me.....
Thursday, June 14, 2007
My Birthday...
it all started like any other ordinary birthdays everyone has. u know, the basic wishes and calls from loved ones when they are far away. and i like the old traditional way. cause its feels familiar. thank you to those who wished me on my birthday. im really flattered. it means a lot. *smiles*
ok the interesting part is yet to be revealed. as the time goes by yesterday, it ticks slowly. woke up at the slightest creek of sound. the renovation sound...*dum dum* so my day started early! and then the rest of the day just pass by like any other normal days. only at 12midnight (eve of my birthday) was my the ultimate possesion. my friends waited for the clock to strike 12, to wish me happy...and im glad you guys were there. *hugs&kisses* coming back to the story during the day...well, nothing happen la. it passed just like that. Mom brought me for lunch, and the day continued to be the same again. until just now...where 2 of my friends came to have dinner with me. and as usual, i dont eat! "have to get ready for the big day!!!" to cut the long story short...i like the story of-just now. cause....i feel special. he likes. *grin* ok. im done narrating...ask me about it....doodles! and goodnight.
p/s: im nervous for friday...hopefully its all ok.
Lots of Love,
Nina
ok the interesting part is yet to be revealed. as the time goes by yesterday, it ticks slowly. woke up at the slightest creek of sound. the renovation sound...*dum dum* so my day started early! and then the rest of the day just pass by like any other normal days. only at 12midnight (eve of my birthday) was my the ultimate possesion. my friends waited for the clock to strike 12, to wish me happy...and im glad you guys were there. *hugs&kisses* coming back to the story during the day...well, nothing happen la. it passed just like that. Mom brought me for lunch, and the day continued to be the same again. until just now...where 2 of my friends came to have dinner with me. and as usual, i dont eat! "have to get ready for the big day!!!" to cut the long story short...i like the story of-just now. cause....i feel special. he likes. *grin* ok. im done narrating...ask me about it....doodles! and goodnight.
p/s: im nervous for friday...hopefully its all ok.
Lots of Love,
Nina
Monday, June 11, 2007
MONDAY
im happy...being being happy. and me mama said me can go go to the beachy! yeay! and there comes the interesting part...................me and frenzy all going. weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!
Saturday, June 09, 2007
me likeyyy
today is a cool day. i like today. and i feel its a blooming day....a start of a different story. and particularly a happy one...IM HAPPYYYYYYY! lets be merry....i like!
Tuesday, June 05, 2007
my retarded brain
u dazzle my days with your smile, and you sparkle my nights with your face in my dreams. how i wish i could hold you and never let go. how i wish it was ok to do just that. but its not. not in your eyes i think. i miss you everyday... *sigh* and i wonder if you know it. i want to talk to you everyday..but i wonder if u would mind...i want to see you 24/7. but is that ok too? one day maybe ill tell you this. but the day would have to wait. cause losing you is far worst then keeping this feeling lock inside. so love, i wish u merry! and i will wait til the day both of us are totally readyyyy......
Lots of Love,
Nina
Lots of Love,
Nina
Monday, June 04, 2007
A friend...
i didnt know ure sick...and u didnt even tell me? why? what a bad person i can be...and far worst i took it for granted that everybody is ok....cause i tot it would be just like that. and because i tot nobody would be far worst than i could be...im sorry. im wrong. i wasnt there for you, never was and i didnt even bother to check on you.....im truly sorry.
IMPORTANT!!!!
to my family and those who came with us on the trip! do help yourself to some of the china pictures ive posted on multiply!! its on the left handside....so enjoy! if u want the fullversion (softcopy) tell me aight!
*hugs&kisses*
AMANINA
*hugs&kisses*
AMANINA
The Trip
ok lets see what i have insight for you people. came back from china yesterday at 430am. and it was a tiring journey. had to travel from shanghai to hangzhou back and that took us 4hours to reach cause we had to take the immediate flight from hangzhou to kuching. (thanks to the idea of chartering the plane!! geez) and that is another 5hours. in total we travelled more than 10hours. darn it was tiring! and i definately stink! hehe despite all the bus travel and sight seeing to all those different different gardens and historic places, china was not so bad. minus the food and toilet condition lah. it can be an ideal gateaway for shoppers though. i just wish we had more time to shop. i would have bought more and for everyone. but im happy with my buy. finally i shopped for myself. and for my new bedroom! woohoooo... and ive spent all my working money on it. and im satisfied. *smiles*
so, in summarization my china trip is...
family fun + family gossips + group pictures at all those weird places + shopping + sightseeing + disastrous food + gruesome toilets + hilarious tour guide + me being happy = MY CHINA!
p/s: too bad i didnt get to see any hot dudes on the street...i wonder where they went!?
p/p/s: to my cousins, do check our pictures on my multiply. ill be uploading it soon. miss u guys much! mwahs
nina
xoxo
so, in summarization my china trip is...
family fun + family gossips + group pictures at all those weird places + shopping + sightseeing + disastrous food + gruesome toilets + hilarious tour guide + me being happy = MY CHINA!
p/s: too bad i didnt get to see any hot dudes on the street...i wonder where they went!?
p/p/s: to my cousins, do check our pictures on my multiply. ill be uploading it soon. miss u guys much! mwahs
nina
xoxo
Saturday, May 12, 2007
HardDrive
ok, remember those days when you would just sit down with few close friends and everything feels so ultimately right? just a friendly chat, from sitting by the road side, to the old chang kee "kedai kopi" or this most glamorous cafe with the small touch of luxury? well, i still remember those innocent days. not to mention money rolled out of pockets as we may sit down there for hours just to pass time. but it was the best. and i want those times to recollect. it has the undeniable feel of security and happiness. and the only thing we talk about is...."ermmm..let me see, everything?!" *LOL* those were the daysss...
reminiscing through the lovely time of family trips. we've been all over and yet we cant get enough of ourselves. from the immediate family to the very furthest of relationship. we love everyone in a similar way. thats to the max. we get on everybody's nerve once in awhile. but thats what families are for. we bitch about one another and we attempt to kill each other slowly by the word of "wisdom." NOT! but life since small have been fun because of the trips. its been a look forward thing to. and its been 4years since i had a big gateaway with the whole family. and im looking forward to this china trip. it will be another long row of quarrelling, yelling and shouting. and bad mouthing, and who will pay the excess luggage due to, too much shopping but its all good in the end. because we love each other and we are together. despite what everyone may think of us, we are united. thick blood is never to be chopped. so my family, here we go! and let this be a blast.
while writing this post, i got a call. a baby is crying through the ear piece. and from that moment i know my cousin just gave birth. thank god both are safe as we were worried the previous night when the embrical cord was around the baby's neck...but they are fine. fit as a bull. welcome to the family dearest prince! we will surely treat you as one. i wonder how it feels to give birth. its so nice to suddenly have something you own. and nobody can take it away. to see those cute little baby fingers and toes...with his first smile or cry when he sees you. oh how adorable. i cant wait to have a kid of my own. it would be the best ever thing happening to me. not that im saying im ready now, but the idea sure looks tempting. but i know my journey in life is unfinished. until i get what ive dreamed of, i wont embark into that just yet. babies will be the completion of my life. "Pelengkap hidupku..." aiyer thats "jiwang."
life as teens and young adults are always complicated. im experiencing it now. from the love damage, head damage, heart flip flops, rows with family members, fashion victim or icon, to the "it" group, and the list goes onn..... but who cares for all those? just be urself, like i always convince myself and hear my mom advise me, but how can you? when the rest of the world population is thinking in that way? there are so many books written on the subject. i once saw my cousin reading a book. and honestly i think its pathetic. the title is "how to be popular..." what the f*ck? do we really need to read all this shit? i know some self-help books are pretty awesome and it works. but this particular one im skeptical of. and i feel bad if someone thinks she is lesser than another if she's not popular. popularity is to be earned not bought. and different people will have different popularity. if u want a socialite life, make sure u be one. but dont be something ure not. doing things just to impress another being is just dreadful and a waste of time. im sick and tired of people telling me, no ure not good for this, hey, you should do this. screw it. im doing things my way. and who can stop me? only myself. im on a petition of self happiness. and who is with me?!!?? im happy...so let it be. dont disturb my teritory. cause it is totally restrcited to parasites, wananbe, fakers, and dishonest people. be true to yourself. and one day you'll find the rightful happiness.
*cross-fingers* hoping mine is going to work...
its been a wild ride. im stopping something for good. and i hope ill have the strength to do just that. welcome to the world of dellusion.
NinaLiyana
reminiscing through the lovely time of family trips. we've been all over and yet we cant get enough of ourselves. from the immediate family to the very furthest of relationship. we love everyone in a similar way. thats to the max. we get on everybody's nerve once in awhile. but thats what families are for. we bitch about one another and we attempt to kill each other slowly by the word of "wisdom." NOT! but life since small have been fun because of the trips. its been a look forward thing to. and its been 4years since i had a big gateaway with the whole family. and im looking forward to this china trip. it will be another long row of quarrelling, yelling and shouting. and bad mouthing, and who will pay the excess luggage due to, too much shopping but its all good in the end. because we love each other and we are together. despite what everyone may think of us, we are united. thick blood is never to be chopped. so my family, here we go! and let this be a blast.
while writing this post, i got a call. a baby is crying through the ear piece. and from that moment i know my cousin just gave birth. thank god both are safe as we were worried the previous night when the embrical cord was around the baby's neck...but they are fine. fit as a bull. welcome to the family dearest prince! we will surely treat you as one. i wonder how it feels to give birth. its so nice to suddenly have something you own. and nobody can take it away. to see those cute little baby fingers and toes...with his first smile or cry when he sees you. oh how adorable. i cant wait to have a kid of my own. it would be the best ever thing happening to me. not that im saying im ready now, but the idea sure looks tempting. but i know my journey in life is unfinished. until i get what ive dreamed of, i wont embark into that just yet. babies will be the completion of my life. "Pelengkap hidupku..." aiyer thats "jiwang."
life as teens and young adults are always complicated. im experiencing it now. from the love damage, head damage, heart flip flops, rows with family members, fashion victim or icon, to the "it" group, and the list goes onn..... but who cares for all those? just be urself, like i always convince myself and hear my mom advise me, but how can you? when the rest of the world population is thinking in that way? there are so many books written on the subject. i once saw my cousin reading a book. and honestly i think its pathetic. the title is "how to be popular..." what the f*ck? do we really need to read all this shit? i know some self-help books are pretty awesome and it works. but this particular one im skeptical of. and i feel bad if someone thinks she is lesser than another if she's not popular. popularity is to be earned not bought. and different people will have different popularity. if u want a socialite life, make sure u be one. but dont be something ure not. doing things just to impress another being is just dreadful and a waste of time. im sick and tired of people telling me, no ure not good for this, hey, you should do this. screw it. im doing things my way. and who can stop me? only myself. im on a petition of self happiness. and who is with me?!!?? im happy...so let it be. dont disturb my teritory. cause it is totally restrcited to parasites, wananbe, fakers, and dishonest people. be true to yourself. and one day you'll find the rightful happiness.
*cross-fingers* hoping mine is going to work...
its been a wild ride. im stopping something for good. and i hope ill have the strength to do just that. welcome to the world of dellusion.
NinaLiyana
Monday, April 09, 2007
my own misery....
you know, i never thought today may come. ive always had dreams about it. since i was very little. i wake up in tears sometimes thinking of what ive just dreamed. unfortunately the day came. this is what i call a phase of change. its a total 360deg turning zone. i dont blame anyone for whatever that is happening or about to happen. they have their own reason why they choose to do something. the hardest part is never to feel that love again. or even feel the warm touch of someone uve known your whole life. and also to know they have stop loving you. one day, ill be like them. but hopefully i will never have to make decisions like this upon anyone. im so sorry for whatever that has happened. i never meant to be the person who ruins the bond. but i just did. and for that i have a whole lifetime to regret it. goodnight my heartlovers. i will always miss you. *virtual hug*
Love,
Nina
Love,
Nina
Tuesday, April 03, 2007
all because of you
i never thought the day would come. but it did. i will always remember the date 31st March 2007. its a day of memories. the day he says he loves me for the very first time. thank you for making the feeling happen. this a beautiful beginning. *smiles* despite what ever happens from now, this is going to be my fantasy of a lifetime. one day if this relation fails, this is the memory ill remember to keep me smiling. my love, my obsession. and obviously, i love you too.
p/s: my dad met him today....i wonder whats playing in their heads.
Love,
Nina
p/s: my dad met him today....i wonder whats playing in their heads.
Love,
Nina
Monday, March 12, 2007
rock on with life
theres no time for sappiness, theres no time for regrets, but there is always time for fun-filling activities. yes? for the past few weeks life was actually a wild rollercoaster ride. i didnt expect it to be so much fun but it was. and ironically i like it.
people fall in and out of love, and no one can ever predict when the true love comes around until uve finally lost it to this big big dellusional world.
ive come across 2 person that are trying to live life separately and act like they dont need each other but in actual fact they do. the signals and symptoms are so obvious. they match each other perfectly in so many ways but why is it so hard to be one? they get jealous of each other, they hate each other in so many cute ways, and they just have this sparkles around them that will set them on fire any minute. thats the hotness of that relationship.
well from my perspective of mind, sometimes what we see is deceiving. and we may think it could work but it wouldnt, but when we think it wouldnt it would. some people can look like they complete each other but in other fact they are just so wrong....im not trying to be a negativist. but this are facts.
one day ill find MY mr right. love is too complicated when someone plays game within. so, ill just sit back relax and pretend i dont need it. soon it'll gradually falls. maybe this is the phase im waiting my whole lifetime for. but i wouldnt dare bet everything on it. cause its too early to say. people change, people lie, people stop loving, people stop caring. i hope you wont. for now, i fell for you because of YOU! the person i look up to....come back fast....
+Nina the Gorgeousness+
people fall in and out of love, and no one can ever predict when the true love comes around until uve finally lost it to this big big dellusional world.
ive come across 2 person that are trying to live life separately and act like they dont need each other but in actual fact they do. the signals and symptoms are so obvious. they match each other perfectly in so many ways but why is it so hard to be one? they get jealous of each other, they hate each other in so many cute ways, and they just have this sparkles around them that will set them on fire any minute. thats the hotness of that relationship.
well from my perspective of mind, sometimes what we see is deceiving. and we may think it could work but it wouldnt, but when we think it wouldnt it would. some people can look like they complete each other but in other fact they are just so wrong....im not trying to be a negativist. but this are facts.
one day ill find MY mr right. love is too complicated when someone plays game within. so, ill just sit back relax and pretend i dont need it. soon it'll gradually falls. maybe this is the phase im waiting my whole lifetime for. but i wouldnt dare bet everything on it. cause its too early to say. people change, people lie, people stop loving, people stop caring. i hope you wont. for now, i fell for you because of YOU! the person i look up to....come back fast....
+Nina the Gorgeousness+
Tuesday, February 20, 2007
Got Tagged
Each player of this game starts off with ten weird things or habits or little known facts about yourself. People who get tagged must write in a blog of their own ten weird things or habits or little known facts as well as state this rule clearly. At the end you must choose six people to be tagged and list their names. No tagbacks!
1- ok i dont have anything weird to say bout myself cause im not weird. weird huh? :)
2- the more people say i look fat, or ive gained weight, the more i would stuff my face with food. so dont start with it...
3-i hate looking in the mirror. i look hideous in it.
4- but i like taking pictures cause im photogenic? hehehhe
5-once when i was in highschool my teacher called me by the name NORA. it was even on my matric card. aiyo...that name and me, dont match. the total yin and yang. i hated it til i refuse to see the teacher for almost a week.
6-i have a very imaginative innerchild that could rule over my head once in awhile. nothing like chucky but dangerous for my health though...
7-my choice of music is the old/retro-ish type. it helps me get in touch with my future self. the future old me. hehe
8-the fact is, im a cindian+malay,but i dont even look close to what ever i am mix with.go figure!
9-im in a crisis of love. i told my mom that im giving her the full responsibility to find me my groom. so, that part of my future is settled. hehe even if i dont believe in arrange marriage, this idea seems the best for now. haha (not that i want it soon...age 30 pls!)
10-im a faker and always horny. hahahahhaha
so kuhaz, ive done this. where's my reward?
here's the list of people i tagged are AQISS,WANDY, JARL, EIN, DAYDECK & SYEEQ....
1- ok i dont have anything weird to say bout myself cause im not weird. weird huh? :)
2- the more people say i look fat, or ive gained weight, the more i would stuff my face with food. so dont start with it...
3-i hate looking in the mirror. i look hideous in it.
4- but i like taking pictures cause im photogenic? hehehhe
5-once when i was in highschool my teacher called me by the name NORA. it was even on my matric card. aiyo...that name and me, dont match. the total yin and yang. i hated it til i refuse to see the teacher for almost a week.
6-i have a very imaginative innerchild that could rule over my head once in awhile. nothing like chucky but dangerous for my health though...
7-my choice of music is the old/retro-ish type. it helps me get in touch with my future self. the future old me. hehe
8-the fact is, im a cindian+malay,but i dont even look close to what ever i am mix with.go figure!
9-im in a crisis of love. i told my mom that im giving her the full responsibility to find me my groom. so, that part of my future is settled. hehe even if i dont believe in arrange marriage, this idea seems the best for now. haha (not that i want it soon...age 30 pls!)
10-im a faker and always horny. hahahahhaha
so kuhaz, ive done this. where's my reward?
here's the list of people i tagged are AQISS,WANDY, JARL, EIN, DAYDECK & SYEEQ....
Tuesday, February 06, 2007
whats in my head
i see things around me and i stop. i see myself in the mirror then i stop. i see my friends sobbing, laughing, and smiling, that makes me stop and wonder about this is life. the world is so full of miraculous events that we are sometimes too busy to notice. i always thought life would be easier when the IT world comes around, but what happens is actually not what they predicted. world has became complicated by day since the new evolution. it has became violent, inconsiderate and too modern for any human minds to handle. and yet we want the modernity to continue. well, call me old fashioned but this is the truth. instead of being able to spend our time for more than just one thing a day, we end up being busy over a particular detail. finding money is the only thing that matters in this world. you dont have money, no one will look up to you with dignity. how i wish life is much simpler. like the one narrated in our childhood story books. where life of a family is full of love and simplicity. where did the beauty go?
we see corrupted youth out there. no one is stopping them. why? cause we are all corrupted inside and the corrupters. why make a big fuss of loiters, drug addicts, bribery if we ourselves dont change. preaching is good. but when u cant preach to yourself to do good, nothing u say to
others makes any difference.
i always tell myself not to talk a lot. just keep quiet and listen. but i just cant do just that. i have so many things to say to each and everyone of you. and so does i hope you people will tell me things that makes me learn. especially my friends. i have so much to say but i am just holding it in....what do you have to say about me?
i see a friend of mind being idiotic, it hurts inside. i see my friend being foolish, i weep inside. and i see all my friends not happy, i feel bad inside. i see my friend ruining his life cause of stupidity, it bleeds me inside. there's so much of life than those you have done. you could do better than that. truthfully. i may look like i dont care but do you know exactly how i feel inside when i see you hurt? when i see you not doing anything to prevent yourself from hurting? i can say a million things to each of you to help out, but if you yourself wont do anything about it or realise, i raise my case. cause to you i have love for, to you i care about, to you i feel close related to. you people are the source of my life. that i may want to keep a life long more.
families are your guardian angels. to keep you safe from harm. thats what my mom especially, did for me. but being a rebel as i am. i ignore the fact of just that. but i realise now the consequences. ill try to change. its not going to be easy but ill definately try. im sorry....
where's my love fairytale? it has gone all wrong. the fairytale gone wrong. its going to take time to get out of this entire piece of sh*t cause the wound was already there before it got cut again. but i never said i didnt have anything to remember or reminisce about. i enjoyed it. eliminate the bad things happening. i enjoyed every minute i felt love with you. if its true or not, i dont care. ill remember it as the way i want it to be remembered. one day ill tell my daughters to stop and think first before accepting a friendly smile from one sweet guy. and thats you...
we see corrupted youth out there. no one is stopping them. why? cause we are all corrupted inside and the corrupters. why make a big fuss of loiters, drug addicts, bribery if we ourselves dont change. preaching is good. but when u cant preach to yourself to do good, nothing u say to
others makes any difference.
i always tell myself not to talk a lot. just keep quiet and listen. but i just cant do just that. i have so many things to say to each and everyone of you. and so does i hope you people will tell me things that makes me learn. especially my friends. i have so much to say but i am just holding it in....what do you have to say about me?
i see a friend of mind being idiotic, it hurts inside. i see my friend being foolish, i weep inside. and i see all my friends not happy, i feel bad inside. i see my friend ruining his life cause of stupidity, it bleeds me inside. there's so much of life than those you have done. you could do better than that. truthfully. i may look like i dont care but do you know exactly how i feel inside when i see you hurt? when i see you not doing anything to prevent yourself from hurting? i can say a million things to each of you to help out, but if you yourself wont do anything about it or realise, i raise my case. cause to you i have love for, to you i care about, to you i feel close related to. you people are the source of my life. that i may want to keep a life long more.
families are your guardian angels. to keep you safe from harm. thats what my mom especially, did for me. but being a rebel as i am. i ignore the fact of just that. but i realise now the consequences. ill try to change. its not going to be easy but ill definately try. im sorry....
where's my love fairytale? it has gone all wrong. the fairytale gone wrong. its going to take time to get out of this entire piece of sh*t cause the wound was already there before it got cut again. but i never said i didnt have anything to remember or reminisce about. i enjoyed it. eliminate the bad things happening. i enjoyed every minute i felt love with you. if its true or not, i dont care. ill remember it as the way i want it to be remembered. one day ill tell my daughters to stop and think first before accepting a friendly smile from one sweet guy. and thats you...
Friday, January 26, 2007
smack that
im waiting patiently while the clock is ticking. tick tock. tick tock. boyz 11 men is soon. and im freaking going!!! me-happy! blimey...its so exciting. why cant my family move faster. get our arses in genting pronto! need to pick up tix summore. aiyo! but im happy. i hope its a fun show. if not ill strangle them to death. joke! even if its not good also ill be blinded by the fact that they are in kl and im watching them LIVEEEEEEEEEEE. yes yes. ok, im not gonna rub anything in anyone faces anymore. i know some of u may not care much but some must be just so so so jealous. so please, what ever u feel while reading this. keep it to yourself. cause i dont care. hehe joke! take care people. geez its been a long time since i wrote in here. chioa people!
xoxo
xoxo
Thursday, January 04, 2007
NEW YEAR
happy new year little earthlings! its a brand new opening and im happily greeting it. i hope we accomplished our resolutions this year even if i dont have any aims. but im hoping this year is a good one. for me and for you.
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